I have this little thing called faith
It's about as big as a mustard seed
When it feels like my life is about to abate
I turn to Him to fulfill my every need

I have this little thing called faith
When it feels like the walls are closing in
I know You suffered greatly and died for me
But I still punish myself for my past sins

I have this little thing called faith
When it feels like I have been forsaken
It's a matter of choice and not up to fate
To accept the offer that has been taken

I have this little thing called faith
In my mind and heart I have been afflicted
My soul feels fallen to the point of no return
But I know it is of the Spirit I am convicted

My soul it hurts so deep from the depths of depravity
I can't go on like this I am a living catastrophe
I will stand firm in the battle for Christ's sake
And I will hold on to this little thing called faith

Life is a fight when you try to do right.
Around every corner they try to steer you the wrong way.
There are so many new horizons and paths to go down.
When you're at the end of the rope you can always turn around.

Don't ever give up in what you believe.
You can always achieve what your mind can conceive.
The days have been long and I need to reprieve.
There is an emptiness I need to relieve.

Everything I encounter is tempting and beautiful,
But I will not give in to the fiery desires.
They will only bring sorrow and make me wallow in despair.

I know what the right thing to do is and I will stick to my guns.
Don't ask me why I make myself suffer I know my day will come.
Because in my heart I will never be lonely and I'll have the one.

Never be lonely because you're never alone.
All the friends, family, and faces from the place you call home.
Take me to the place where they call me their own.
Just be who you are and you'll always be your own.

Never be lonely for you can lose yourself.
There's always somebody to lend you help.
Don't give yourself away, your heart is within you.
Just listen to your heart and you'll always be true.

Never be lonely because fate takes a turn.
Always show respect and never let bridges burn.
Inside all of us we can be crude and vindictive.
Just look into your heart for the proper incentive.

Never be lonely because it can bring out the worst.
Even if you don't know it can leave you cursed,
But I have been lonely and I know how it feels.
I'm just going nowhere and spinning my wheels.

If you never be lonely you will find yourself.
You have to love who you are to love someone else.
Never be lonely because you'll be stuck in the game,
With no one to turn to and only yourself to blame.

Standing alone in the shadow of a doubt.
When there's no one to run to, or no way out.
Looking down on the water at my own reflection.
Hoping I can get rid of this mental infection.

This mental infection just turns into mist.
Peace in myself is my one remaining wish.
My mind is a storm and I can't find any cover.
I hope I make it out when the storm is over.

I know you still love me and would do anything.
To keep me in your life, with love on the wing.
But I can't turn back, because I felt the pain.
My heart would break again, driving me insane.

There's a special lady out there, who'll really care.
To keep my heart strong, this heart you can't tear.
I will never let you into my heart again.
But you'll always be in my heart, until the end.

I don't know why good love had to turn bad.
Leave me feeling depressed, leave me feeling sad.
But it was not my fault, so my heart won't falter.
There's a long road ahead, and I have to keep pushing farther.

Out of the shadows I do seek to find
I pray to God to find peace of soul and mind
I'm trapped inside of this body for me to remind
That only the Lord can heal me true and divine

I wake up at the beginning of every day.
Thinking about the time I'm wasting away.
I hope that one day I find an open door.
I know that I was meant for so much more.

With all of life's expense I have to keep pace.
It leaves me stuck between a rock and hard place.
I'm not looking for the way things were before.
That's what I'm trying to get away from for so much more.

When I say "So Much More" I don't mean material things.
I'm talking about the purpose for me that God brings.
And I pray in His will he takes me to a different shore.
Because I know that I was meant for so much more.

The endless monotony makes me wanna cry my eyes out.
But if not that it makes me wanna pry my eyes out.
But there is only one light that knows what's in store.
And I will dig deeper to know there is so much more.

Everything the past ten years have seemed meaningless.
But if it has a purpose then it has to be gleaminess.
The soul-crushing pain is for the renewing of my core.
So I can be filled with joy to know there is so much more.

I feel I'm losing ground and starting to slip.
I drive with no steering wheel and lose my grip.
There are still so many things I have to discover.
I wander through the abyss like no other.

I don't know if I've found what I'm looking for.
I'm looking for the way that it was before.
I'm looking for youthful freedom and innocence.
The freedom of my heart and never-ending complacence.

I want to feel free to be who I want to be.
There is no one I want to be other than me.
I want to unlock the chains that surround my heart.
And be free again like it was in the start.

I'm gonna be free again, and will be free soon.
I'm gonna stand up and sing to a different tune.
Life's too mundane and there has to be something ahead.
There will not be anymore days I am gonna dread.

Life's too short to live in depression and despair.
I am going to be free again, the way it oughta be.
I have much farther to go and I need to keep movin'.
I am locked up in myself and there is so much I'm losin'.

I'm thirty-one going on thirty-two
I am out of the black and into the blue
My eyes are bone dry I am all out of tears
I have to face myself and overcome the fears

Today is my birthday and I am thirty-one
I surely hope that the best days in my life aren't done
Everyday is exactly the same and that is no doubt
One day at a time and it will all work out

I will keep chasing the setting sun
As long as I am young enough to run
I am surrounded and under the gun
I won't give up till my days are done

They're called dreams because that's all they will ever be

Tomorrow is my birthday so what can I say
Just take all my hopes and dreams and throw them all away
I feel like the rut that I'm in is one I will never get out of
And the only hope that I have is in the Lord above

Tomorrow is my birthday and I will be thirty-one
But I feel as though everything good has been long gone
It takes everything I have just to get through the day
I can't live like this any longer so I will kneel and pray

Standing alone in the shadow of a doubt.
When there's no one to run to, or no way out.
Looking down on the water at my own reflection.
Hoping I can get rid of this mental infection.

This mental infection just turns into mist.
Peace in myself is my one remaining wish.
My mind is a storm and I can't find any cover.
I hope I make it out when the storm is over.

I know you still love me and would do anything.
To keep me in your life, with love on the wing.
But I can't turn back, because I felt the pain.
My heart would break again, driving me insane.

There's a special lady out there, who'll really care.
To keep my heart strong, this heart you can't tear.
I will never let you into my heart again.
But you'll always be in my heart, until the end.

I don't know why good love had to turn bad.
Leave me feeling depressed, leave me feeling sad.
But it was not my fault, so my heart won't falter.
There's a long road ahead, and I have to keep pushing farther.

Westbound is where my heart has always been.
Every time I turn around I always go back again.
Senses are renewed and my spirit brings forth.
Telling me to head west and the notice is short.
Before I get moving there is something I have to say.
Over and over again you always take my breath away.
Under the canyons and over the hills of my heart.
Now I know what I really need and that is a start.
Deliver me on a westbound train and ignite the spark.
The spark that was always in me waiting to be unfurled.
Red hues of a western sky take me to a different world.
Always looking before I jump not knowing where I go.
I made the right choice and this I do surely know.
Now I go westbound and into a new tomorrow.

These eyes have seen trouble and seen pain.
Having gone looking for someone to blame.
Even though I can't blame anyone but myself.
So I need to take my shettered soul off the shelf.
Ending all the shame and disgrace I place upon me.
Every chance that passed me by to set my soul free.
Yearning for the contenment when I'm down and blue.
Everything happens for a reason and that is true.
So I just want you to know these eyes bleed for you.

The minutes are feeling much more like hours
Caught in the midst of all these May showers
In the shattered memory my heart will surely drown
No place to find reprieve and the only way is down

I remember my Mother and how she took care of me.
I hope there is someone like her out there for me.
As much as I want to go and find her, I have to trust the Lord.
He knows the right time, place and person, how and why.

I remember my Mother and I think about her everyday.
I wish she could still be here to say everything will be ok.
But I know she is with Jesus and is guiding my way.
I just have to be patient and not let my feelings give way.

I remember my Mother she was like no one else.
I think about her when I feel lonely.
I thank her everyday for giving birth to me.
I want to make her proud and not look away from me.

So when I get lonely I remember my Mother.
And I pray to the deepest depths of my being.
That one day I will have it all together,
and God will have someone like her for me.

Take me to a place where I see nothing but the sky
To lay in the sun and for my dreams to never die
To tell you the truth I am easily amused
There is no need for me to be so confused

Take me to a place that is over the horizon
And where the stars they shine so bright
And lay in the grass until the sun starts risin'
And the crisp morning air becomes a warm light

Take me to place where I can see for miles around
To renew my soul and for hope to be abound
Lately despair has been my one and only friend
Take me to a place where I can let my heart mend

There is not a single soul in sight
Along this lonely stretch of highway
But I feel anything but lonely tonight
I am free to be me, and to do things my way

When I think of love it makes me stand and fight.
When I think of love it makes me lose sleep at night.
It is the word that will make you or break you.
Love is the word that will make you bleed through.

But love is more than just a word.
It is the most profound expression.
It isn't something that can just be heard.
It is God's way of making a connection.

But people use it to get what they want.
And for that purpose it makes my heart haunt.
But the older you get it has more understanding.
And it comes more natural and less demanding.

However don't get me started I may talk all night.
Until I wear this word out and it's out of sight.
Before I get too deep I will sleep on it.
And when the time comes I will steep on it.

There's no one left to blame, things are not the same,
The happiness you once brought, will never come again.
When you think it's over you start feeling the pain.
The pain of love lost and you can't turn around again.

I never wanted things to be this way, but I can't go on living like this.
I remember the days that used to be, when I told you I love you and gave you a kiss.
But I know I can't go back without having a panic attack.
There's someone special out there, and I have to let her know I care.

However I will always care about you, but I have to live my life without you.
Things are never gonna be the same, I'll return to the dust from which I came.
So I need a love, a friendly love, with color and prosperity which will last to eternity.
If I keep you in my life, how am I ever gonna be free?

I need love that is youthful and fruitful, our love now has grown dead and cold.
I've grown a little bit older, a little bit stronger, a little bit bolder, I know that my life is far from over.
The ground benetah my feet is as solid as my heart is because I know it is full of love.

I couldn't go back without feeling the pain, being friends just makes me hurt the same.
But I think about my life and I have to let it be.
Living without you is the only way to be free, all I ask in life is to be happy.

I've been happy now that I'm alone, learned a lot about me I have never known.
There is nothing in life that I regret or would take back. What will be will be.
Keeping the heart free is the only way to live. and waiting for the right one for your heart to give.

These days of disgrace leave me with a feeling of disgust.
The wars, the pain, material things, and lust.
The way people abuse love and turn it into rust.  
Leaving yourself to blame and no one to trust.

I know I've felt the pain and need to be set free, there's so much out there that's in store for me.
But to find the one in a million in the vast sea, maybe I found her!  We'll just wait and see
Waiting for something and something to believe in, keeps my head up and changes my living.
Sometimes you gotta just lean on the fence post for awhile, but when the wait's over, you'll have an eternal smile.

I don't know what to say about today.
Just grasp it in my hands and throw it away.
Because every day is a brand new day.
And people start lives in a brand new way.

I don't know what to think, my mind is blank.
a feeling came over me, and my heart sank.
I just wanted to get my whiskey, and pour me a drink.
Forget about today, and try not to think.

There's a big life ahead that's in store for me.
I can't be feelin' down, what will be will be.
But I choose not to carry my days in despair.
Just enjoy my days, and breathe the fresh air.

Even if I don't come around, i don't mean to let you down.
I just need time alone, and time to hang around.
Hang out with good friends, just like it used to be.
Footloose and fancy free, enjoying me being me.

Things are not the same, they're gettin' better.
better and better each and every day.
Just as long as I keep being myself.
Love is sure to find a way.

I believe in falling in love
But real love is very hard to find
The feeling of flying like a dove
Oh how I wish that you could be mine

I remember when I had no sense of direction
But everything is now looking more clear
I hope that I can make a firm connection
And fly like an eagle without any fear

I wasn't my real self and I made some mistakes
But I will hold out and wait as long as it takes
In the garden of pure love it is you I hope to find
I will be forever waiting for my real first time

I am searching for my heart's content.
I find comfort while I drown in lament.
All the days wasted and the time that's spent.
Keeping my hopes up when it came and went.

Don't keep hanging on just turn and walk away.
What is meant to be will be and happen it's own way.
Yes I've been hurt and the instinct is to retaliate.
But think about the cost its really worth.

It's not worth it to be shallow and cold.
It's not worth it to keep hanging on.
Falling in love is like falling from grace.
The stronger it is the more bitter the taste.

I will not let the things of this world phase me.
Even though the world around me is all I see.
It is what's inside me that I strive to keep.
And to let it grow so I no longer weep.

Everyday for me is an uphill battle.
The stress of everyday makes my soul rattle.
But I have to live with it until the day will come.
And then I can breathe easy and I will not feel numb.

Numb to all the nonsense and looking for something to reach.
When reaching what is inside of me is all I need to teach.
To find my building blocks and build a solid foudation.
And to renew the life inside of me and make a new creation

Innocence seems like a thing of the past
Nowadays it makes you look like an outcast
Needing to search for things that are pure
Obstacles get in the way that's for sure
Connecting the dots to a much simpler life
Every attempt to break away from the strife
New life blooms deep down inside of my heart
Creating a waterfall not knowing where to start
Eleveating to a level that you can never part

Heavy on me is the burden I have carried.
Every circumstance and situation has varied.
After all the hurt and pain has subsided.
Rendering together my heart that was divided.
Trouble always has a way of finding me.
Over every obstacle that was binding me.
Freedom of the heart is achieved through the pain.
So you can keep from going down that road again.
Today will be a good day and everyday from here.
Obliterating negativity and peace now becomes clear.
Never to go down the path that brings the hurt.
Ending in the complacency that brings rebirth.

The devil's hand is heavy on me.
My head's underwater and I can't breathe.
He's raiding my mind and making it bleed.
Please pray for me in my time of need.

I don't wanna give you the wrong impression.
I just need somebody to talk to.
I am in need of a spiritual lesson.
To make the Creator my only obsession.

To let him speak to you.
To let him speak through you.
That's the way he wants it to be.
That is how you set your soul free.

I am overflowing with emotion.
This hole in me is as big as the ocean.
Lord I give it all to you the truth be told.
You're my only hope, the River of my soul.

It's clear to me that I can't depend on myself.
When I make my own plans they always fall through.
I get the wrong kind of Idea and the colors turn blue.
And it consumes me until nothing else is true.

I need to be patient and not to rush things.
For the devil is always seeking to destroy it.
But I'm on the right path and there's no turning back.
To fill my heart with love and grace and never to lack.

I'm now learning not to live with a heavy heart.
To nail it to the cross and make a new start.
It's only the beginning no need to fall apart.
To take a new step in the quest of my heart.

My feelings for you have never changed.
After all these years they remain the same.
When we met I was in the midst of my storm.
But I will be patient in this time of reform.

I have to be strong because my heart is at stake.
I will hold my hand out as long as it takes.
To have you back one day I will always stay true.
In this whole wide world there is only one you.

I will survive the loneliness in my heart.
If it were up to me I'd make a new start.
But there is purpose in all of this pain.
For some unknown reason I cannot explain.

But I feel a peace coming over the horizon.
And it will no longer leave me frightened.
As I keep pushing on and moving with grace.
And in the right time I will find my place.

I feel numb from the nonsense that this life contains.
I hold on to the innocence within me that still remains.
It seems as though everybody is in such a hurry.
The rule of everyone's day is unrelenting worry.

That is not the way things are supposed to be.
Just look into your heart to set yourself free.
Just look at wht's around you that is all you need.
To want anything more would be knee deep in greed.

The way to true happiness is so plain and simple.
It makes these present times as annoying as a pimple.
Please take me somewhere where things are more real.
And there is no pressure for me to fight to feel.

I wasn't born yesterday and I know the world's ways.
Everybody is in for themselves in this pensive haze.
But I will keep my head up and look forward with zeal.
And from this moment on I will not have to fight to feel.

I feel I'm losing ground and starting to slip.
I drive with no steering wheel and lose my grip.
There are still so many things I have to discover.
I wander through the abyss like no other.

I don't know if I've found what I'm looking for.
I'm looking for the way that it was before.
I'm looking for youthful freedom and innocence.
The freedom of my heart and never-ending complacence.

I want to feel free to be who I want to be.
There is no one I want to be other than me.
I want to unlock the chains that surround my heart.
And be free again like it was in the start.

I'm gonna be free again, and will be free soon.
I'm gonna stand up and sing to a different tune.
Life's too mundane and there has to be something ahead.
There will not be anymore days I am gonna dread.

Life's too short to live in depression and despair.
I am going to be free again, the way it oughta be.
I have much farther to go and I need to keep movin'.
I am locked up in myself and there is so much I'm losin'.

I am just a dreamer not in touch with reality
I am just a dreamer that is too blind to see
I have places that I want to go and see
I am hopeful that my dreams will come to be

I am just a dreamer that is bound by a wall
A wall that holds me back from branching out
But I have to overcome the feeling and hear the call
And to put one foot forward and overcome the doubt

It is a big world and there is so much to see
For the creator of all things is the God of variety
But I am trapped within myself and can't seem to escape
But I will take a deep breath and take a leap of faith

I am just a dreamer that only shakes and sways
Riding like the wind in search for better days
I pray the Lord will protect me and lead me to His will
I can't do it without Him these shoes are too big to fill

My internet has been all jacked up
Can only get on thirty seconds at a time
I'm about to the point where I am fed up
About to call and give a piece of my mind

I pay every month to get service around here
And lately it has been unsatisfactory
It has been so choppy and hasn't been clear
It's really been making my temper refractory

But maybe it has to do with the stormy weather
It has been raining around here the past few days
But I still wish that the connection would come together
I am really tired of the way this connection plays

Maybe it's a sign that I should take a break for awhile
And to step outside and breathe in the fresh air
It's been way too long and I have forgotten how to smile
If I wouldn't have shaved my head I'd be pulling out my hair

Never be lonely because you're never alone.
Everything happens for a greater reason.
Very many have suffered from a broken home.
Even the best of things come out of season.
Realize that there is purpose behind the pain.
Bringing out the direction that I can't explain.
Evolving and molding into a brand new form.
Love wins over all and brings on reform.
Only the lonely know how it feels to go through this.
Never deny the purpose and reason that we all exist.
Elements of the universe coexist for a greater plan.
Leaving salvation in the palm of your hands.
Yes it is written and the line is drawn in the sand.

From the banks of the Brazos to downtown Dallas.
I play my guitar until my fingers are calloused.
Just to take that drive with my stringbox loaded up.
To get people to listen and for myself to open up.

If I didn't have music I wouldn't be who I am.
My life would be empty and stuck in a jam.
Everything would be a fog and would be melancholy.
To not have this outlet would be my greatest folly.

I thank God for giving me my musical abilities.
I have to tear down the wall to show my qualites.
I have to take time alone to practice and rehearse.
To memorize every chord and memorize every verse.

I drive up to Dallas and the streets of downtown.
Business as usual and there are suits all around.
Not the competition like you see down in Austin.
I would be noticed and the folks would get to talkin'.

From the banks of the Brazos to downtown Dallas.
That's where I will take all of my soulful rhymes.
The music has been slow but I am at square one.
And I will not stop until the music is done.

I have to push you away so I can feel the pain.
I don't wanna do this, it drives me insane.
There are some things I just can't explain.
I don't know why I have to live in vain.

I know the pain will not last forever.
Healing takes time, my heart was severed.
It's been many moons, the feelings have weathered.
To stay away from you would make me feel better.

Being with you has made me learn about life.
Don't give too much, they'll take it for granted.
At the end of this tunnel I know there's a light.
The light that leads my life is shining so bright.

I do not regret anything that happened.
Everything that happened is God's master plan.
Maybe he seen that you weren't for me.
But I will always love you, I need to be free.

Carrying the weight has made me much stronger.
Making me feel like my heart is brand new.
Ready for new love, fresh from the start.
But don't go too fast, don't rush the heart.

It tears me up for us to be apart.
But I'm a better man, to play a new part.
I learned about love, and how to let it show.
Be the best you can be, and just let her know.

Don't show it too much, they'll push you away.
That's what happened to me on a rainy February day.
But always reassure them that they're admired.
The fire burns steady, and will never grow tired.

But I will be the best that I can be.
Like me with her, when things were young and free.
And love someone who won't throw it away, just as she did.
And live a happy life, the way that it used to be.

I wish I could carry on and be on my way.
But the burning in my heart won't fade away.
The way that you are won't let me forget.
You are as colorful as a West Texas Sunset.

You're always on the move and can't stand still.
You are never satisfied and can't get your fill.
But loving you is something that I'll never regret.
The colors of my heart bleed like a West Texas Sunset.

I don't even know where you are this very day.
But my love for you will never completely fade away.
There is only one you more that I'll ever expect.
And my heart stretches further than a West Texas Sunset.

I know you're riding on a horse with your long dark hair.
You will always keep riding until you reach the thin air.
The pieces of my broken heart I will gather and collect.
And my horizon will be wider than a West Texas Sunset.

I know that I have things to look forward to.
There is no since in walking around being blue.
I know this for a fact and it is surely true.
And moments like these are only but a few.

I have made an assessment on what needs to be done.
This ain't nothing new and I'm not the only one.
To tear down the walls and overcome my fears.
And to leave behind me this trail of tears.

I will be very selective about anyone's advice.
I know they're thoughtful and trying to be nice.
But they have never walked a mile in my shoes.
And they have never known about singing my blues.

Everybody's different with a different story to tell.
My story is not something that I am trying to sell.
It's just the life I've been living for all these years.
And I will be walking tall beyond this trail of tears.

Everyday is a new day and that is a fact
But each day is harder to keep myself intact
Reliving each moment within shattered memories
It eats away my insides until there is nothing left of me

I know I have to be patient for all of this to pass
I know that this feeling will not always last
As the time passes the minutes feel like hours
And in all the sunshine my heart is in rain showers

But it is the precious rain that washes everything clean
The rain washes away and makes everything brand new
But in the midst of this it feels like there is no escape
I am trapped in my mind and it is my own life I can take

I hope that you all will keep me in your prayers
As I struggle with what has been and what will be
My mind and my heart keep playing musical chairs
Until the day arrives that I can finally be set free

I guess all good things come to an end
Writing poetry helps my heart to mend
Poetfreak is my home and always will be
Don't know what to do guess we'll wait and see

It tears me up to hear the bad news
It drives me deep down into the blues
I have met so many good friends indeed
There's always someone to confide when in need

I never talked to anyone from halfway around the world
Until I came here and the flowers in my heart uncurled
I don't want this to be goodbye I wanna be forever friends
And to walk in the light of life and love that never ends

But there is still a long way to go
And I will continue to let the poetry flow
I know there are other places but this is home to me
But I guess when it is finally over I'll have to let it be

I wish that I could give you a hug
And wipe the tears from your eyes
Sweep all the heartbreak under the rug
And find some truth out of the lies

I wish that I could give you a hug
So you know that everything will be alright
I hope I can bring a smile to your mug
Whatever it takes to make things right

I wish that I could give you a hug
Though I know that you are so far away
But distance is nothing for my heart to lug
Always hoping to see you some sunny day

I live in a place where dreams go to die
Reliving every moment of my wretched past
Sometimes I wanna hang my head and cry
And hopeful that this feeling will not last

But reality sets in and I am trapped within myself
With no way of escape and the guilt consumes me
Begging for my shattered soul to be taken of the shelf
To close my eyes for good and to be forever set free

I know there is a reason that I wake up every day
And every day is a new day though I struggle to survive
I have come a long way just to throw it all away
But there are times that I wish that I wasn't still alive

I know that things will get better and more clearer
With the hand of God to help me guide my way
And I will be patient as I know I am getting nearer
The time will come when I spread my wings to fly away

It's a cold rainy night and I sit here alone.
I sit here by myself but I am not lonely.
Too many nights waiting by the telephone.
I just wanted for you to be my one and only.

It's a cold rainy night and I'm waiting to exhale.
To exhale the feelings that have calloused my heart.
And in the midst of all this my heart is impaled.
But it will all come together the longer we're apart.

I have more to live for than I have ever realized.
Every breath of life is getting more precious to me.
I will not keep feeling like I've been ostracized.
I will keep moving forward to set my heart free.

But I still sit here alone on this cold rainy night.
Contemplating on what has been and what will be.
Faithful and hoping the future will hold a guiding light.
To free me from the emptiness conjured up inside of me.

I am overwhelmed at the pain of my days.
I hope and pray for the hurt to go away.
And as I stand up and take a look around.
My heart is scattered in pieces on the ground.

My head is racing a thousand miles a minute.
This is a battle and I will never win it.
But in all this the realization that I found.
Is shattered into pieces on the ground.

I feel like I've come to the end of my rope.
And I can't find any way that I can cope.
But I am hopeful of the days that are abound.
But I am scattered into pieces on the ground.

I am hoping that this is just a phase in my life.
But it is hard to see an end to all of this strife.
This is a fight that I can't fight on my own.
I am afraid of stepping into the great unknown.

I know there is no reason to keep feeling this way.
And all I want is for this feeling to go away.
Until I find a purpose in all this deafening sound.
I will be spread all over in pieces on the ground.

This cold heart of mine, can I find a connection?
Maybe it's just a protection from rejection.
I never once intended for me to feel this way.
But it's not the way I want it that's all I can say.

I still believe in a lady to be my one and only.
Someone to confide with and to never be lonely.
I don't wanna break anyone's heart in the process.
I just wanna keep pushing on and make some progress.

But I can't just leave everything to me, myself and I.
I don't wanna go through the torment of another goodbye.
I just know how it feels to have a fatal attraction.
And I will not instigate on my heart's refraction.

So I say to you this is where my heart stands.
I will keep my heart from going to distant lands.
I never want to relive my heart being lost.
I might not live through it to count up the cost.

I've been trying to get myself back together
For so many years my life had fell apart.
But I am pulling through all the trouble and pain.
Sometimes my heart gets weak and it feels like rain.

I am still bombarded with all the tragedy of the past.
Every day is a new day and this feeling will not last.
I have done everything I can just to keep myself sane.
But it all comes crashing down and it feels like rain.

The way to truly live is something to be shared.
Not to be all alone and to feel like no one cared.
But if you don't pull through things will stay the same.
That is being tough whenever it feels like rain.

My mind is playing tricks on me every single day.
I wish I could make it stop and be on my way.
But the day will come when I can stop this freight train.
But in the meantime until it subsides it feels like rain.