Its a comfort to know that I am not alone anymore,
alone to fall apart when my
depression and anxiety catch me off guard.

Because I have you watching over my heart and mind,
you can feel when
I need to be held and told every thing will be alright
and that no matter what you will always be there
to wipe the tears from my face.

The connection our souls have is amazing
sensing each other without
having to say a word.

Our souls were destined to
find each other so they could
be together and In love again.

The hands on the clock are creeping by
like fog across a road, slowly reminding me of
how much time I truly waste.

Don't rush it..
But how can you rush something that
you know is right??
Time doesn't define love,
whether its a week or year.
When your soul finds it other half,
then there is nothing left to fear.

How can a month hurt worse than 5 years??
HOW did  you bring me to the light to just watch me F  A L L..
I cant find my grip to bring my self back up,
Forever doomed to live at the bottom.. A L O N E..

Long ago you vanished from me,
with silent words you were gone.

We drifted apart for reasons unknown,
for gods plan was yet to be seen.

But like a summers breeze,
you have been brought back to me.

Instantly we are connected,
like two soul destined to meet.
@C.F15

music is part of my existence..
the kick drum keeps my heart in rhythm.

The rifts from the guitar help lead
my down these roads in my life.

With each lyric, I'm closer to being
saved from myself.

Giving me hope and motivation to get
through each day..

Lying here watching the clouds go
slowly by, wondering why do I
even try??
I fight myself when boredom comes
of whether what I do is enough...
how can I fly high in the clouds
to spin out of control towards the ground.

Do you even know the truth anymore
Or are you that deluaional ??
The darkness that spews out of your
mouth will not break who I am anymore.
So if need to lie to make yourself
happy or try and destroy my good name,
Then I will pray for you..
Pray you find peace in your delusions
That I'm the reason this is over..

I succumb to the shark inside me, tearing me apart
piece by piece..bleeding me dry.
My hormones are messing with my thoughts,
making things seem so much more foggy..
i know that nothings wrong but that feeling
keeps coming back into my mind..WHAT IF??

What if he changed his mind?
What if he doesn't want this anymore?
What if its me??
i must fight these thought before they wreck
my mind and heart..before the walls
build back up and im trapped in the darkness again.

Ive come to far to let the bad thoughts find
their old home in my thoughts..never again!!
people always talk about how everyone
is messing with their heads, but my insecurities
are my biggest demon..

My internal closet is full
Of everything I keep
Bottled up..
I hope it can hold it all

I am not just one thing.. there are many parts to my
puzzle I call life.
I have my mothers hands and strength.
My fathers humor and courage.
The heart God gave me allows me
to be who I am and help those I love.
You only see what you think
I am..
I am strong and weak
Brave and scared
confident and insecure..
But I am who I was always meant
to be..ME


C.F

T R U S T
how can a word and action
be so simple, yet be
the hardest thing to give someone.
F A I T H
the one thing we can feel
so deeply, but lose in a
single breath.
H O N E S T Y
the best characteristic of the
all, but is lost with
those who break you down.
then there is L O V E..
four little letters that
can hold all the others in it
or
make them fall by the
way side and never be
the same again.

Like ghosts passing by,
never truly seeing each other..
my soul was lost among the world,
until it found you..

Music was my escape
until you...
Now your in every song i ever loved..
reminding me your gone, and that
I wasnt good enough

Today is a better day..
the darkness is retreating
from my thought and im seeing
clearly the truth..
or lack of..