It was in the darkness, I found the way to light.
A cigarette in my mouth, staring into the night.
I called out in a deeper silence, but there was no one to hear.
Embracing my only company, I held my demons near.
They kissed my scars because they were the ones to blame.
They called me by my lies, they called me by my name.
They told me they would protect me from all my doubts and flaws.
Turns out my darkest demons were not darkness at all.
It was in the darkness I found the way to light.
It was in the darkness I found that darkness is needed to fight.

I've been smoking cigarettes.
Hoping to fill the void.
Completely numb.
Completely obliterated.
I've been crying.
Tears like stones.
Tears like acid.
I've been breathing slowly.
Inhales like sleep.
Inhales like knives.
I've been existing.
Life like pain.
Life like death.

Turns out all my fragile hope was broken from the start.
All just a cruel pathway to a shattered heart.
Again I wasn't good enough to feel the clutch of love.
Again and again I find I'm never good enough.
So end it now, everything. Let the pain and hate collide.
End it now and forevermore, I am dead inside.

I'm standing in the cold.
Too young, too old.
Never enough, never never.
Never enough to deserve forever.
All the time I've spent trying
I thought this was life but I feel like dying.

And in the end, everything she expected swallowed her at once. All of her nightmares came to her in her sleep and held her down til she stopped breathing.
At least she didn't have to wonder anymore.

If I erase all your troubles,
Throw them out to see,
I'd make the sunshine appear
Just on you and me.
I'll climb a mountain,
Build you a thrown,
I'd steal the moon,
And let you call it your own.
I'll hold your sadness,
Wipe away your tears,
I'll never let you go,
I'll protect you for years.
Please know I love you,
You are so dear to me,
Without you in my life,
I'd have no clue where I'd be.
You've opened up many doors,
Shut out all the demons,
You've made me love life,
For now through all the seasons.