I never wanted to make you feel the way my heart was breaking.
I never meant for you to see the constant, steady aching.
I thought I was doing good at showing you my smile.
But I guess you can see the falsities that I've been hiding for a while.
Bless the sunshine in your soul, bless your wounded heart.
You're anything but usual, you're a walking work of art.
I'd hold you high up to the stars for all the world to see.
And hope that they could appreciate you just as much as me.

I'm sick with fear, regret, and hope.
I can't focus, I can't fall, I can't fathom.
He's too much but I know nothing.
He knows nothing and we are nothing.
I've no right to feel a thing for him.
Jealousy.
Devotion.
Anger.
Love.
Because he is not mine and
I
Am
Nothing
He is indescribable.
A gift to earth.
A wrinkled nose and a beautiful laugh
A scarred hand and a blistered past.
He is a miracle.
The most beautiful **** miracle.

I am fire, but he is the sun.
I am afraid that he is the one.
Burning so slowly, dying so fast.
I am afraid that I won't last.
Hold me tightly, love me strong.
For I am afraid we won't have long.
I am afraid, I am afraid.
We are nothing because I am afraid.

Take away those soft grey eyes, take away the pain.
Take away the gentle curls, take away the rain.
Take all I'm breathing for, take it all and run.
Take all my possessions, take the loaded gun.
Take away this hopeless life, take away my dreams.
Take away the sinking ship, take away the screams.
Take away the beauty, take away the hope.
Take away the emptiness, take away the rope.
Give me back my sanity, I really haven't slept.
Give me peace, or a sharpened blade, I've got nothing left.

I wanted it to be you so badly.
I wanted it to be you.
I wanted to touch your face
Feel your skin
Dry your tears.
I wanted it to be you.
I wanted it to be you so badly it hurt.
A slow ache that consumed me
That drowned me
That swallowed me whole.
I saw your smile
Made for her
Shown to me.
That smile that lit my world
That caused the flame
The flame that burned my soul
Burned my soul so badly it will take eternity to heal.
And even when I can stand to see the sun again,
I will still want it to be you.
Only you.

Maybe she doesn't
Maybe she does
It
Doesn't
Matter
Because he does
And
I do
So we aren't.

It's the saddest thing
That smile
To see it
To love it
To breathe it
And to know that it's
For
Her