Caitie

Caitie Jun 2014

Rambling

How crazy is it that we’re thought to be under one life under one mind form, mindset, thought the same thoughts have the same feelings. We don’t ever comprehend each other unless we’re under the thoughts of basic and common beliefs. If we aren’t, it becomes so hard, nearly impossible to intertwine feelings and be understood. No matter how much explaining need be done, no matter how much time and thought we put into explaining our feelings to others, your mind can think one thing and explain it so as another person can know, but not understand how you feel whatsoever. Its so hard to fathom what goes on day to day and that's what's making it so much harder to live.

Caitie Jun 2014

This is War

this is war
everything we encounter, everything we touch.
the world. so many sides, so much worth.
holding nothing but secrets and wonders
but we will never explore it all.
so vast and beautiful,
our minds, they **** us.
what's telling me how I feel?
who's putting thoughts in my head?
I don't think I know who I am
or where I came from
what im doing-
my intentions.
no guidance or help.
none since day one.
and I have no direction.
what doesn't **** you makes you stronger,
but what makes you stronger slowly dishevels your whole body
into a pit of nothingness.
You become nothing
because the one time youre supposed to be strong
you cant.
nothing can help you.
because the shots have been fired
and youre living on a battlefield.
so adapt, and get use to the cruel nature of your life.

#war #life #hard #help

Jun 2014

Mehma Kunwar

The crownless again shall be king

Yet the sun's coming down to earth,
and walks the fields and the waters
Yet the great man's willing to be little
Neither those raised heads
Nor those unguarded egos
Mismatching the faces and matching the souls
Can this heart ever show
look beyond the imperfections
There lies this perfect soul
where this heart has had ached
where this soul has had cried
Now is the time
To show the world,
your built up glory
your glowing charm..

Caitie Jun 2014

you are nothing

drag your words a bit more, darling.
have you come across a higher feeling?
is there anything in this world you fear?
the beginning of destruction
and the need to break
shapes your being
into the weak man you are.
spit some more thoughts.
watch the ratio
between not caring
and realization
evaporate into thin air.
do you think youre inspirational?
give me something more than that.
nothing you say will affect
any persons life.
you will never make an impact
so don't get ahead of yourself.
reminders that you are inferior
race through your mind.
I know.
pretend you are better
try and prove your worth.
but there is none
because you are yet
another insecure soul
looking for a shoulder to cry on.

Caitie Jun 2014

Disgust

The balcony's railing
creaks and crackles
to the tune of
an untold superstition
that no being belongs harmed
and no man ever be reprimanded.
To think of an untamed world
and to see divergence
between each
due to simplicity and disgust
reminds us of the ridiculed
defaults that we have grow into.
Show me something unusual
or bring me somewhere new-
don't continue to show me all
that I have seen a million times
in my own sorrowful world
*disgust is among us

#harm #feelings #life #world #thoughts

Caitie Jun 2014

Sour

the black and white notebook
perched on your bookshelf
reeks of aged blood
and insincere thoughts

does your mind
no longer prosper
the way you once described it?

you sang sweet lullabies
to the dark isle of trees
beckoning you to
distance yourself once again.

remind me why we
refuse to cry
what happened to the hope?
rejuvenation is scarce

my dear, what has it come to?
*you taught me nothing

#depression #memories #thoughts #distraught #notebook #lullabies #itsover