I keep tearing myself down
In order to build you up
I’m breaking
Everything I am is falling apart
I can’t give you anymore
I’ve given you everything
There is no more of me left

Why can’t I escape this feeling
Of whatever it is... it’s so confusing.
Maybe that’s what it is, I’m lost.
I need someone to guide me
Through all the temptations
Of all my bad relations

I’m crying for help so silently no one can hear me.. yell for help through not words but thoughts . I’m lost in my own head .

I do it not to find happiness
But to enjoy the moment purely for what it is
Without the negatives
Only the positives.

I wish that was possible without you love
But I haven’t found that yet
I’m on a mission, to find
What makes me feel like you do .

Will I ever? Yes, there is always more
To be felt by you. I hope to pass it on to generations ahead . They deserve the pure feelings you give to the world.

When did I stop trusting you?
I didn't even notice it.
When did I stop listening,
start thinking you were full of it?

Convinced I'd heard it all before,
read all the writing on the wall.
I'd smile, and nod, then close the door.
I won't believe you anymore.

Why did I stop trusting you?
I never even wanted to.
The sky, it just turned inside out
when I first lent my ear to doubt.

I remember you in the morning,
bending down to kiss me.
You were like a tree,
surrounding me in leaves.
My fingers reaching like roots,
searching for a place to bury--
A home to grow as a bing cherry,
aching for attention.
Wrap around me with your vines,
you make me feel so alive.
I will turn outwards toward the light,
and my petals will fall forthright.
My seeds will fall onto the floor,
as I am picked and eaten and ignored.
I will never die,
but I will wilt.

I am worth something
I know that
But I don’t live like that
I like to be bruised and scratched
In the end it only makes me stronger