Am I as mortal
As the rest of this planet
Or will I linger?

I was a superstitious kid
I didn't step on the cracks
I wonder how much I hid
Behind my parents' backs.

And in a tiny way I'm still
The same as I was then
A little girl in for a thrill
Afraid of what's around the bend.

I still wonder if the moon
Affects my moods and caprice
Maybe if I had more room
To breathe, I'd find peace.

Ecce! angelus
Ab parve me considit
Eheu! cedit.

That awkward moment
When they made a bad joke and
Thought I didn't hear.

Did I know my love was small
Even though I felt it was large?
My love was selfish, though
I thought it would recharge.

What is love, anyway?
What is it when it is wrong?
Is it still love when it's misplaced
And you're not singing the same song?

Will I rediscover love
Just like I'm discovering me?
Will it give me hope for the future
Or just be discouraging?

Hey, I'd stay up all night with you
If you were on the other side
Of this giant beach ball called Earth
'Cause of intimacy I'm terrified.

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   There comes a point
   in the dead of night
When all is still without you
   You cannot see
   if you look outside
And the darkness grows about you.

   There is a time
   when the lights go out
And the moon is dead beneath me
   That the dark things crawl
   and come alive
And I wonder what you'll bequeath me.

I am on a pastry
I am kneading dough
You could just as well say
That I am on a roll.

There are little tiny fears
Stabbing like pinpricks of light
They don't really hurt but I feel them
As I stay up late tonight.

I'm afraid to be open
I think I should be closed
But the more I try to shut them out
The more I am an in unbloomed rose.

The later it gets, the worse I feel
Fears tucking in the bedsheets
The fact that I'm afraid of the dark
Is one of my lifelong feats.

Anger drives some fears away
But they inevitably return
Maybe if I banished with love
I'd actually learn.

My eyes are gonna fail me
Someday I'll need some specs
So maybe I'll do it quickly
Or get contacts like the rest.