Had enough of this world, I am giving up
But I love waking up
Even if it is during the night
Where the moon shines so bright
The only thing I have left to remind me of you
Everyone says you have never been any good
Is any of it true?
Are you real?
Were you real?
Were we real?
How can you change in front of my face and never give me any space?
What did I do ?
How did we get here?

Would I want you here again
Or do I just love the memories of us
Will I learn to forgive
Or do I just love being stuck
Stuck on you
Stuck like glue
Or like a nike symbol on my new tennis shoes
Why did I stop wearing heels when I dated you?
Am I no longer me now?
Did I turn into you?
Is this why you left me?
I know it's tough to see your reflection

I met a woman who wiped my tears
Who listened to my traumas from the past years
She never judged, she stayed calm in my storms
So much so that it never dawned on me that she was worn
From all the hate I spilled making messes left and right
Burning bridges and reacting out of spite
She held on she was tough
But her future holds the light
Therefore she had to leave
She could not stay
I begged and begged and reminded her promise to be here when our hair turned grey
I have never known a love like hers
A woman who puts others before her
That's where I want to stay
That's where I'll spend my nights
I will have to change if I want a spot in her light

Sun is setting but this time of year it stays hot through the night
So skip your bed and come with me
Let's explore let's ignore responsibility
Whole worlds counting on us simultaneously not giving a ****
Sun is ******* coming up making us spend that buck
I can't tell you what the future holds but I know
We'll be solid floating through life as we know it
The chosen ones we can no longer ignore it

I got the blues
When you died
I held back tears
I remembered our years
Together
Never thought we'd be separate
Never thought we'd be separate
I held back rage
As I tried
To save you from flying
That night but I wasn't so strong
I wasn't so strong
I wasn't so strong
I felt your flame go out
I was silent for years
I felt ashamed
And I drowned
As I wiped my tears
Are you still here
Are you still here
What's in store for the next few years
What's in store for these next few years

I don't like how my face changes when I am in love
You would think that it would look as if it's full of stars
Filled with the shine of the moon
Filled with the summer breeze in June
Nothing will ever make me fully love you
How can I change so much
How can my body change so much so that I don't recognize me
Why would you ever lie and say that you ever wanted me
I feel like leaving but my heart says stay
I don't know where to go but I can't rely on you to pave the way
I can't even see myself when I look in the mirror
I can't even hear myself when you are near
I hope I get the chance to ask myself, "What was I doing here?"

I sadly found myself starting to doubt God again
And just as I said I had enough, His angels swarmed in
With the warmest hugs and the sweetest kisses
God showed me the light with song and dance
With long lost friends
How He shows up is never known until it's done
God is amazing and is asking you to HOLD on
Never lose sight or hope
He is with you and He needs you to know
All the trees and the birds have a reason
Yes they all change with the season
And so will you
So there is no need to be so blue
You are so precious because you were made in His sight
And you'll never come across someone He is not willing to fight for
He is our God, He is our saviour