i just wonder if I'm the problem
"no it's not your fault"
but then why?
why do i get ****** over by the people who swear they won't

how do you sleep at night?
i don't want to be like you.

Sometimes I wonder why things happen
i know i have a good life
i do.

but i know that I'm not alright always
and its because people leave
and they don't come back

i was little when you left
so I've always been broken
but when you meet someone who knows this
you think they can't break you like that

you couldn't survive another break

then it happens

I was fine.
i was good
then during holiday break i saw you
and my heart broke again

what we once had is gone
forever
and even though i know that
i still feel you in my heart

did i try my hardest?
i see you in my dreams
nightly

time heals all?
I don't concur
I feel empty every day
don't know what it's like to feel whole

maybe when I'm older I will
it's just a phase
right?

i always heard the phrase
agreed with it at times
but then when i fell in love
and he told me he cheated on his ex
i thought

he wouldn't do it to me again
no way

but here to this day
i knew i wasn't the only one
i now am in full agreement of the phrase

once a cheater
always a cheater

i felt comfort in the fact that we had the same problem
but now i think that it was worse for us
two broken people don't make a whole person

you couldn't heal me
i couldn't heal you
i'm sorry for letting us think that'd be true

i'm sorry for putting you through
my problems

cause now we're both even more broken
we're just smaller broken pieces

why'd you lie
why'd you cheat
why'd you leave
why'd you let me go
why'd you let me down

why

"the only thing i knew how to do was to keep on keeping on"
"don't think twice it's alright"
"take me disappearing through the smoke rings of my mind"

it's funny because i don't feel the pain anymore
unless i'm drunk

i've blocked you out permanently
and it feels good

you're just a weird uncle to me now
or maybe a second cousin
not a dad
never been a dad

remember when you asked if i ever had braces?
i had braces for two years
two ******* years
yes
i had braces

don't throw your problems onto someone
or expect someone to fix you

everyone leaves-
no one stays

all you have is yourself
so you might as well try and figure **** out on your own

it's your daughter here-
wonder if you think of me
i still think of you
everyday

its been five
six
seven
years

can't remember
the years run together

trying to forget but all i see in a mirror
are your eyes staring back at me
your nose
your smile
your ears

i don't want to be you

remember when you promised you'd never do that?
i remember

then you did it
i couldn't believe it
no one believed it

i never left my bed that month
i never ate a full meal that month
i don't think you understand the pain you caused
i am different because of it
i have changed
i am not the same

i still remember when you said you never would hurt me
but now i think thats all you really did

I see you there
I feel you there
I don't want you there anymore
I used to
But not anymore