Everytime I look at you
You know exactly what I want to do
Youre eyes so pure
I want you for sure

Youre so far away
But I will always stay
I want to see youre face
So that I can feel my heart race

I wana feel your lips
It will sink my ships
I wana touch youre face
And walk an unending maze

My love for you is real
Its truly what I feel
I need you beside me
Just where you need to be

There are things I'll never have.
No patience for rude people
No thigh gap
No one to pay for my college education
       Except me
No back dimples
No good high school experience
No growing above 5 foot 2
These are things I didn't pick.
Things I really can't change.
But it sounds too cliché
To ask for acceptance

You lay next to me
When I play my music
And stare up at me
With those big brown eyes

I pause and take a second
To run my hand down your back
And tell you how much I love you

You get excited
And start kissing me all over
I laugh and fall back
And you curl up next to me again

I could tell you I love you
But where the fun in that?
I'd rather we keep playing this game
The one you don't know we're playing
I could show you the rules
But there aren't any
I could teach you how to play
But I'm a terrible teacher
And even though you are clueless
You are still totally winning
But I'm not a poor sport
And there's a chance that I'll win
That we'll both win
Because you see my dear opponent
I'm pretty good at board games

I gaze at the stars
Bathed in moonlight
The air is crisp
and I'm loving it

My mind starts to wander
Towards my insignificance
How nothing really matters
In the long run

Just as drops of rain
Don't matter
To the daily man
Who's needs are far greater

Then why is it
My love for you
Feels greater than any need
Of any man

Always, and after things have passed
do I think of you, and see where I went wrong.
then the revelvaltions come so fast
of what I should have done all along.
But somehow in the middle of it all
I forget to call on you
and ask that you'll not let me fall
and that you'll see me through.
Instead I let myself go on and break
the promises I made,
From my uselesness I cannot wake,
all reason seems to fade.
Then always, and after things have passed
do I turn and think of you
and know that you'll forgive me to the last.
How I wish to be worthy of you!

I  know how much you never wanted me
You don't know that I know
Or maybe you do and that's why you're so distant
As much as I want to I could never fix it
It hurts to think that you favor them more
That they're yours and pure, through marriage even more
I was a surprise, a mistake; unexpected
21 years later, a relationship formed and weary
Straining and wearing thin
Maybe I'll never know what it's like to be close
Maybe I'll never see what a healthy relationship is
You'll always be a hero to me
I'll always be your greatest sin