The devil creeped at my window
and all I could do was stare
he didn't seem as scary
but that was because I had seen him before

Once he was gone
I felt the uneasiness
and the loud shouting outside
I tried to cover my ears
but my hands got tired
and I couldn't anymore

I grabbed a knife and stabbed it twice
and now all I see is
the dark and red eyes

I don't know why
but I woke up again
inside a white room
where I saw faces that I didn't remember

I looked outside my window
and saw the devil chanting
"once again"

In our streets there are diseases
In our faces
In our eyes
Out loud every one cried
"Stay at home or we will die"

She loved until she realized it wasn't enough
she gave that him her heart
only for it to be broken
over and over again
He didn't understand her
he wouldn't even talk to her
much less even look at her

She left him
and that was the hardest thing for her to do
As heartbroken as she was
she became a small silhouette
grey surrounding her

Until she met someone else
someone who was similar to her
someone who was shrouded by his own darkness
and she wanted to help him
she wanted him to smile again
because she knew how much it hurt
and she did
she helped him

What started out as a friendship
turned into a beautiful relationship
with dark edges
but the love that they shared fixed that
the story continues
but how will it end?

I'm shaking as I take a step forward
breathing heavily
trying to tell myself I can do it
all while the tears are rushing down


An endless night
as you embrace me again
against a bleeding tree
with our hearts beating together
and thorns piercing our skin
Every step is suicide
and I'm still dreading when you leave

Shackles against my wrists
tightening as the chain is pulled
purple and blue
a decoration of my skin
along with scarlet gashes

I am purple
a mark of suffering

Again I breathe you in my lungs
resuscitate me

I think it's going to rain
when I die
my life doesn't even feel
like its mine
there's a crossed line
and it's fine
if I've already crossed it
I know that I've lost it

I know I am horrible person
You don't have to keep reminding me
With that look on your face
the hatred in your eyes

Crying and screaming out
yelling at me
spitting out venom

You're in the mirror
you are me
crying my tears
spewing out my venom

punch the sink
hell even the mirror
it does not matter
for you are
the sinner

I drown in my thoughts
You made me forget
But now I'm regretting it

You promised
Yet you relapsed
And now I'm snapped

I don't know if you know
But you're dazed
stuck in a haze
Won't let yourself escape

You have four beautiful daughters
Yet your mind
is on your own slaughter

I'm sorry I tried
But you ignored my pleas
On my knees
Can't you see?

You're falling
And I can't even stop it
Do you hear me calling?
All you hear is a whisper
My vocal chords are shredded
But it doesn't amount to a thing

You don't know the pain
You're bringing to yourself
All for your own game
In vain you are dying
Slowly I know it
Decaying
Time is ticking
But again
You relapsed

You promised that
Once to a girl crying on the phone
I guess you forgot that girl
Your own daughter
Just because you have free will

I don't know if you just don't care
Or if your demons are there
But I'm here
I can't watch you disappear

lately i have been crying
for things that are dying
changes are crashing in
the tide has become too deep
buried under the sand
i continue to weep

inside my heart
there have been multiple
those have passed by
stopping at the bus stop
to get off
and never return

wires in my brain
tell me i'm insane
i dare you tell me i'm insane
i know i'm far gone

You are callous
a cold sheet of ice
quickly do you melt
the fire burns you alive

Red, orange, yellow, white
the colors mix together
you can't find yourself
the pain it hurts
the pain I don't dare speak
to tell how I feel inside
all in all
it feels like a crime

You punish yourself
with words you can't take back
It's all fading to black
hit it , **** it, rip it apart
stop yourself from falling apart

the pain it hurts, it hurts, it hurts
the pain I don't dare speak
to tell how I feel inside
don't ******* tell me it's fine

Dealing with these emotions
tell me how you're still breathing
tearing yourself
just try to find the way out
the pain
it hurts
I can't stress it enough

I'm on the edge
of a cliff near a bridge
The water crashes down below
"Want to forget the pain?"
She asks with a low voice
Her waves crash against the rocks
No one would miss me
No one would care

I look down again
and let myself go
down into the depths
where the seaweed grow

She carries me away
in her welcoming arms
and I feel safe from harm
I let myself drown
and I become nothing
An anchor sinking down
it's easier to say
that I drowned

"Oh Mary Contrary, how does your garden grow?"
A hushed question that escapes from his lips
as the wind makes the rose petals fly through the sky
I know why he's here
I know why he spends all his time
tending to the flowers
It's just to see the mess of them that grow upon my head
slowly they take away my vision
and even my health

"Come with me and you'll be the seventh maid in a row."
I shake my head, laughing a little bit
"You're too late..."
"Why is that?"
"I'm afraid...you don't want to know."

Yet he never listened
and in that final moment
in the garden
He said
"Oh Mary Contrary, how does your garden grow?"
The tears leaking from his eyes
"Stay with me, I can't see anywhere that we could go."
I knew he was all alone without me
Cold and dark...
But all I could say was...
"I'm sorry, this flower's already dead."

I've been wandering my whole life
trying to find this "missing piece"
The doctors have all told me that
medicine is what I need
but I don't think it's right
to be even more messed up than I was

Trying to breathe again
you messed up again
you made everyone worry about you
yeah I'm not okay
in the space that I've always been
but I'm suffocating
and wanting the world to end

Yet you can help your friends
without hesitation
you always help everyone else
and here you are killing yourself even more
Yeah I'm falling apart again
and I'm giving in
but I'm not letting go

That "missing piece"
that isn't some type of medicine
or someone else
maybe that can help
but it won't completely help on it's own
that "missing piece"
what I was searching for
it was my own will
self love
that's what it is called

in the grave
going under
my mind starts to blunder
the shouting never rests
my body is shaking
the heart breaking apart

I take another breath
maybe the first
maybe the last

my heart beats
maybe the first
maybe the last

the pain
I don't dare speak

I want to be someone
someone that is not me
maybe you'll ask me why
but its really not a bad thing

I wanted to be someone better
someone you'd actually believe
but all your insecurities and doubt
they make you question me

You never realized the way you hurt me
and you won't make it up with me
stuck in your own self pity
I know I am shameful
but I want to be someone else
that someone isn't me

When you're dragging along
just trying to pick the perfect song
you're all alone and you're on your own
It's okay to cry
It's okay to say you need me
But yet,
you keep pushing me away
and in the end
you're leading me astray

Walking down a street that is dull
the rain pours down as I look up
I just wanted to be loved
but I guess I never deserved it

Yellow eyes and dark clothing
The snake that manifested from the devil's smile
Taking a bite of a red apple
and selling away your value
your self worth
that's what it felt like

To be alone in the world
a cruel one with ignorance and corruption
one that I didn't choose to be a part of
and one that I think
I can no longer stay in
or want any part of
I'm just a stressor
I'm just a nobody

I've hurt so much
and I've spoken so little about it
but I've screamed the words out so many times

teeth in the mouth
blood is spilling out
my heart is at an end
never will I say it aloud
but inside it is loud
teeth in the mouth
won't someone get me out

I'm stuck in this fight and I don't even know what to do
this feeling that is overwhelming
and something that I don't understand
the things that we always argue about
the things that I'm not even used to doing
and the feelings that I keep inside
just to stop myself from hurting you

Even though it hurts so much
I just can't run away
I said I loved you and I meant it
but the feeling keeps on turning back and hurting me even further
Your eyes lock with mine and I drown in the feeling
and it hurts
it hurts
it hurts
but I can't seem to stop loving the one that hurts

"the world is ending today"
it said on a screen from the T.V
we're all messed up anyway
and the world isn't what it used to be
a place where we hate one another
and judge for people's race
or where they came from

A world where everything hadn't changed
like they had said in the history books
from back before our generation was born

"You're the generation of the future"
Oh, well I guess
you'll enjoy watching this world fall apart

everything should go back
to before people were created
it stands on the line
where humans are cruel

and there isn't any light
just a fragment of such
the sun will swallow us up anyways
and the planet would be no more
along with the others

There would just be open space
no more hate
just the memory of one

oh, wait
everyone would die
because it would be
The end of the world

lately it has been getting darker
the days seem to be even harder
where i cannot find a light
nobody can find me
alone in a place so empty

i lay my head down
music is in my ears
sighing; completely angry at the world
where i feel empty
out of place and gloomy

All the things I could say
all the things I could express
but nothing could be enough
I'm not enough
and I know that
just tell me if its what you need
What is it you want?

Let's lay together
in this deathbed
a garden of ashes
Decomposing among them

A god
but of death
I fell in love with you
I'm bound to you
we're bound together

Am I a healer?
Or just a lover of pain?

I am letting go of this monster
she has no name
Can't be tamed

She will stay
Crawl inside my bed
as I pray

The monster inside my head
telling me, whispering softly
I am better off dead

The street was light
filled to the brim
the most purest place

After a while
and it was no longer purely white

The dark showed up
the street lights came on
shadows were following behind

but then they were gone
and I was alone

There was a girl that I used to know
She had beautiful bright hazel eyes and long, wavy brown hair
She was always so cheerful,
so kind,
good at making friends,
making the right decisions.
I saw that girl change though,
she started making up lies
hurting herself
making the wrong friends
wrong decisions
She cut herself to feel something
She drank alcohol to make her forget
to be someone else
She constantly hides behind a mask
and she hurts the ones she cares about
even when she knows what she is doing
I'm scared of what she'll end up being if she doesn't change
but she can't change
she never will
not until the very end
she isn't perfect
she never will be
that's not something that she wants
maybe she wants acceptance
no one knows
not even her
She's struggling to find another way
but she can't find herself because of how lost she is
She has a lover to care for
and yet she can't even stop herself from keeping things from him
she says she is alone
and he only tries to keep that thought out of her head
he even hurt himself to prove to her that
they will go through everything together
it doesn't matter though
not much of it does
the little girl that I used to know
doesn't exist anymore
her heart is still pure
but her mind and heart are fractured
she's just the dull centerpiece of the painting
surrounded by an environment
that she can't handle any longer
but she still continues on
because she knows someone needs her

I've tried to refrain
from certain habits
The hurt inside
that comes out from me
Attacking me
Spitting out venom from my lips
creating the edges on my skin
bleeding out from every gashed bruise

The world crashes down
every step I take as I ruin it all
I'm tired of living
have to keep going
a smile can not shield me
I fear for the worst

Listening to myself
it just angers me
I don't even mean to be myself at times
It all just comes out
a tidal wave
that destroys the beach

It would be better
to be a hurricane
that is a better comparison

You feel it coming down
don't you?
The meltdown that you had to have

"You're crying again?" Your friend asked
As you just got done seeing your parents fight
"You're such a crybaby" The boy said to you
After your best friend passed away
"All you want is attention" Your parent commented
After you just got done cutting yourself in the bathroom

You feel it fading away
you wanted death so badly and no one ever understood
"Why aren't they back yet?" Your friend asked
as your desk was empty again
"They're probably just sick" The boy said
trying to reassure himself
"What could we have done?" Your parent wept
as they looked at your lifeless body

Maybe they could have paid attention
or at least tried to understand
Your friend abandoned you because they found someone else
and they never stopped to ask if you were okay
That boy despite him loving you
he never said it
And your parent
they were too caught up in their own problems
and trying to tell you it was all your fault

torn faces and worn out streets
listening to a band
I fall asleep
walking but here I dream
inside of my mind
no one can reach me

I wake up again
the feeling is never the same
each day
will we ever see the end
we won't ever escape
crying out
"hell is empty"
but it is our hearts that are not filled

will you stay with me my love
for another day
I am afraid
don't wanna be alone
without you

You ignore me and deny it altogether
you're starting to really irritate me
and honestly it's driving me insane
so you better stop getting in my way

Unbelievable it'll hit you before you know it
all the people know
I am not afraid to cause a scene
by now you should know I do it all the time

I don't understand you
I would like to
You are inside the mirror
we do not exactly get along
I know you are hateful
even mean

You don't have to appease anyone
however I would like you to love me
and in return
I could learn to love you
you, myself