real; the unscabbed scars on my knuckles and arms remind
me of rough trees and the grimy surface of soil stomped
on, you compare them to wildflowers but i know that this is
only because you are the type of person to enter a restaurant
with a sign that reads caution and order something anyway,
simply because you are too nice and hate to think of businesses
shutting down and of people failing, maybe this is why
you love me, i still have not figured it out yet

real; walking into school makes me feel like a deflated balloon
and everyone that says hello to me is blowing me up
again with methane i am slowly becoming too big to be tied
down with a ribbon called responsibility and fear,
the anxiety that enters my mind when i am forced to stand in
front of strangers with judgemental eyes and fake smiles
becomes mind numbingly painful and it makes me question
whether or not i am still alive. i still have not figured out
why i am yet.

real; your smile lights up the lights on the lamposts by the
train station where we met it transforms phantoms into people
paper planes into reality and nightmares into dreams
your touch leaves nothing but good intentions and blissful hope
and it leaves my cold unbeating heart yearning for warmth. i
still have not figured out if i like it or not.

not real; you love me. you kiss my wrist because you care
about me not what i went through. you love talking to me, you
wonder about how stars could ever die because you
think i am a walking sun. you keep your promises and tell me that
you care every night. i'm a good person. i have aspirations.
those pills on my bedside are not mine. the mirror is shaking.
i never meant to hurt myself. i'm sorry for all the things i've done.
i have potential to be better. i am beautiful.
not real not real not ******* real

(h.l.)

"Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them:
for the LORD thy God, He it is that doth go with thee;
He will not fail thee, nor forsake thee."*


You Are Never Alone.
Neither be afraid.

Did you think you were alone?
No. I tell you. You are not.
You Were Not.
You Are Not.
You will Never Be Alone.

God is with you
<ALWAYS>
even before
the day you were born.

LOVING YOU.

Look at nature.
Look at the sea.
He made life to enjoy
for you and me.

Give Him Honor!
Give Him Praise!
Prepare to be amazed.

Hear His whisper.
Feel His Love.
Fear Him, but don't be afraid.
Forever He is with you.
You Are Never Alone.