I've let go of my false hope
There's no reason to hang on

The thought of giving it another try
Makes me feel nauseous

How'd it feel to kiss another woman?
Was it electrifying?

To have the indecency to snap photos
And save them for "your own eyes"

I loved finding out through a friend of a friend
When I previously asked you face-to-face

I had a feeling this was the reason
It had to end in the first place

You're a pathological liar
Who wants the best of both worlds

Go ahead, quench your desire
Devour that thoughtless girl

Last night,
I succumbed to the anaesthesia
Of the breaking dawn.
I dreamt of you beside me,
My fingertips caressing your shoulder blades,
Running up and down your spine,
Playing your vertebrae like an ivory-keyed piano.
I could nearly hear the sound of your breath,
Peaceful and steady,
The nightmares dissolved.
When I awoke
In my sleep-deprived stupor,
I smiled at you,
Though you did not rest beside me.

It's been three weeks
Since you ripped my heart
Straight out of my chest

Yet you're walking the streets
With her on your arm -
Your new marvelous quest

While I do not consider
Myself to be picturesque,
Lovely, or striking

I am daintier
And not impressed
With your exquisite timing

She holds a pulse,
That is the truth
A sad one, at that

But she's merely an impulse
A spur of your youth
Which you will soon regret

I saw you in my sleep,
Dreaming of you mending
Stitching
Repairing the unraveled seams
Suturing the unkept promises
Sewing my ****** vessel
Back together
Watching as the needle and thread
Mesh with the blood and flesh

They tell me I will feel differently
Eventually, hearing your voice won't
Feel like a necessity

Locking eyes from across the room
Assuming this is all a dream, waiting
To awake so my life may resume

Telling myself to stop crying
Trying to shove it all down, praying
It only leaks out through my rhyming

When I'm crawling my way
Out of dreaming about you
My subconscious is sure of your presence
Next to me - kissing me awake

But it is just the sun
Pecking my skin
I admire the sun's call for my waking
But the sun's kiss feels nothing like yours

Falling in love with a stranger is painless
Effortless to adore their smile

It is simple to wish the very best,
For wanting nothing more but their happiness

He is my stranger
But we weren't this distant before

I continue to cherish his smile
Fall again for those soft eyes

He was my lover -
Hands warm and lips warmer

Presently, we are each other's ghosts
Haunting the halls

Disturbing my memories
Troubling his thoughts

I am in love with a stranger
But not any ordinary outsider

He was my best friend
My ghost knows me better than I know myself

Loving a stranger is undemanding
But difficult when that stranger is also your ghost