two shaking hands
rip my heart in two
stabbing it violently
making me cry
making me hurt
i look to see who these hands belong to
only to realize
they are my own two shaking hands
and that i am breaking my own heart

We got the buy in  
If you cap the high end
Of potential growth
For this nation’s youth
Keep the glass ceiling
With your clouded feelings
By shearing and clearing
Any real transparency
There’s little chance of truth
Breaking out or coming clean
And nothing is free
It just costs you
Your reason and your liberty

Stop the world
For just a few days
So i can get a grasp
On what i'm supposed
To be doing in this crazy
Unpredictable world

The blade
Creeps in my mind
Every once in awhile
Blood
Stinging
Burning
Comforting sensation
When i don't want to feel
Now
I don't feel the need
As often anymore
My ED helps me now
I know that's not the way to go either
How to be normal?
Don't know such a concept
Relating to my emotions
These are my security blankets
I need them to keep my alive

i'm born out of a habit of self-destructive patterns

i'm born out of a foreigner's vacation
i am the product of anxiety, of wealth ill-gotten,
of american 90's dreams and excuses

i'm shaken like a passenger on a wooden roller coaster
i'm mixed like "mutt" like "i don't know what you are"
like exotic
like *****

Isolated in fear,
Horrendously alone,
Always thinking of her.

I was in love.

She tantalizes my dreams,
She haunts my days,
Always missing her.

I'm still in love.

Magnificent in every way,
Ordinary guy,
Extraordinary girl,
Always loving her.

I love her!

Unobtainable in person,
Connected in spirit,
Always remember her.

She is love... My love...My one...

And only love.
[K.D.P.]