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Sep 2012 · 2.2k
Hamster's Race
Adellebee Sep 2012
My mind worries, as my hands shake
I am a hamster in this wheel, running this race
The pace is quickening as my feet tap and tip
The cage is broken
As I become freed from this ****
The world is hollow
Cold and unforgiving
Outside of my cell
The ******* keep on living
Their teeth never clench
Their palms never shake
They just keep on walking
But never quicken their pace
My race quickens
As my blood pumps
My veins replace the oxygen
As the arteries gather the chunks
Sep 2012 · 987
Facebook Unfriended
Adellebee Sep 2012
You made me fall in love with you
You made me fall in love with me
You got under my skin
You got into my head
I told you I would run
Run far, far away
I did
Twice
And now the phones are dead
Communication broke down
A mistake that’s not fixed
A sorry just will not break through
Something that only music heals
Something that can not be fixed
I really wish you were here
I wish it went down differently
I wish I could just walk to your door
And just kiss you, before you had time to shut it in my face
But I have to stop thinking about you
I HAVE to get you to go away now
Put you into a tiny box and forget you
But I cant
I just cant
And Facebook is asking if I want to be your friend
Sep 2012 · 868
Last Year
Adellebee Sep 2012
Its back to school again,
Back with these artsy people again.

Time to start learning again,
Time to create again.

Think again,
Conform again.

Last Year.
Sep 2012 · 789
Subtle Reminders
Adellebee Sep 2012
My glasses are foggy
There's water leaking from my eyes
There's a lump in my heart
And a pain in my chest

The subtle reminders of a heart broken and never found
Sep 2012 · 442
It's You Again
Adellebee Sep 2012
It's here again
It's you again,
I can't breathe
Hyperventilating
Single Tears again
Dry Heave
Cough to catch my breath
Eyes get wet
You smell the same as yesterday
Aug 2012 · 273
I miss...
Adellebee Aug 2012
I never want to wake up, now that you aren't the first thing I see,
Just the last thing I think of before I fall asleep
Aug 2012 · 4.9k
Black Holes Decay
Adellebee Aug 2012
My eyes are black holes
Dead, deceased
An ecosystem of decay
a habitat for shattered souls

My eyes are lifeless
Lack luster
Sparkled out
Behind the wall, we are falling
Banging out our heads and hearts against doors off hinges
Against some mad buggers intuitions
Aug 2012 · 589
Shoot Me
Adellebee Aug 2012
Shoot me down
Exploit my death
To Monroe, Cobain, and Lennon
For all I care,
It's not like they died fashionably
Aug 2012 · 367
Lean towards the Sea
Adellebee Aug 2012
If you need to lean, lean into me
Ill protect you from the swallowing sea
No wrong will be done by me
As you chase death with the deep
Jul 2012 · 3.2k
Creeps
Adellebee Jul 2012
The static ghost beneath the rainbow
Creeps patiently towards the house on the right
The sun sets with a mild thunderstorm
And the rain crushes the leaves on the trees
Take shelter in the garage. Ill watch from the window
The wind rattling the closed down doors
The marijuana we smoked; heightens hometown weather patterns
As I stare out the glass towards the driveway
Jul 2012 · 1.5k
The Music Has Changed
Adellebee Jul 2012
Ill just wake up with the sun
I appreciate the effort
The sad sign of romance
The trueness of a goodnight kiss
Goodnight my chivalry




The vagabond is striking matches
The harmonica wont squeal the way it should
It wont hmm the way it did
The music has changed


The music had changed
Adellebee Jul 2012
The time has come for restless sleep
The sleep of incoherent and obliterated fools
The wallows and petty dreams
Of the followed few,
The dreamers and peace believers
Desire a harmony that will create peace on earth
However, future does not peruse happiness or companionship

Greed and hate
The *******

Grab it fast
Jul 2012 · 593
Drunk to Type
Adellebee Jul 2012
Empty beer bottles,
Empty beer cans
Another night faded into story

I'm ashamed, ashamed of my quick subtle movements
Dropping containers
And forgetting to pick them up

Too drunk too type

Too drunk not to care


Ill smoke the ****, one more time
Let the music; the words of Americans
Sing me to my drunken sleep
Jul 2012 · 731
Mattress
Adellebee Jul 2012
I should sleep
I should let my self,
Let my self fall into the arms of him
And the subtle comforts of my greatly appreciated mattress
Let me sleep
And let my eyes rest
If only I was capable of letting people in; truly letting them in
And let us fall to silence
Jul 2012 · 790
loose lips sink ships
Adellebee Jul 2012
He sleeps
How silently he sleeps

Safe from drunken misdemeanors
Safe from incoherent talk

I think I love him
Second love,

It's unknown territory
It’s the Yukon

Should I leave this alone?  
This is unknown territory

Please do not look at my ****** interpretations  
Just please, just please answer

And leave it alone
Jul 2012 · 299
Love After
Adellebee Jul 2012
Love is not easy,
It isn’t black and white
Its not as simple as, I do

Its tough
Its confusing
Its something I'd love to quit

But he gets it
And he knows what I say
He gets it

Love their loves

He’ll take his time
And he’ll wait

Because he says he loves me
And my eyes are pouring
Jun 2012 · 885
Imaginary
Adellebee Jun 2012
My imaginary best friend made me cry again tonight
My tears leave stains on my cheekbones
My insides feel weak, and sad
He has an imaginary girlfriend,
Let me feel the pain I caused,  
I promise you,  I remember
New days call for new beginnings
Whatever it takes to find some place to call home
May 2012 · 2.3k
Bloody Windows Screens
Adellebee May 2012
****** window screens and
Spray-painted limousines
Broken fingernails
Collecting dust in water pails
Chewed mosquito bites,
Lurking men of the night
Procession of death,
Headaches and shortness of breath
Physical or mental abuse,
Which road will you choose?
Abstinence with a keyhole of trust,
Unknown of love, engulfed in lust
Short distance and reoccurring sunsets,
a sunrise of jealously paired with eternal fret
Frustration, confusion, nothing less,
Hope is lost as you fail that test
Life mirrors’ a repetitive game
No purpose just filled with hallow halls and shame
May 2012 · 571
Break Still
Adellebee May 2012
Break still young one
Hold your candle high
Salvation comes to those who wait

Be still grasshopper
Don’t react so quickly
Time isn’t going anywhere

So still loved one
Weave in and out of the lines
Make some mistakes along the way

Time changes, sweetheart
When you least expect it
It shifts
May 2012 · 941
Waldo
Adellebee May 2012
What if I was waldo?
You would search page after page
Studying a painted picture
To find where I stand
Who would notice my stripes?
And trace their finger to meet bones
Or would you be that intolerable Attention Deficit Disordered kid
Who threw the paperbacks towards the wall
Because you couldn’t find me?
Do I still bother you, long after the freedoms of childhood are over?
If you found me on one page, who would quit
Who would keep searching?
Would you find my red shaggy cap
And throw in the towel
End that game of monopoly
Because it has already taken up much too much of your week
And your time
Who would stare.
Let the people and places blend into one
As if we were all waldo
Trying to be found
May 2012 · 655
Not A Simple Heartbreak
Adellebee May 2012
It’s not a simple heartbreak; it’s not a Band-Aid situation
It’s an incurable ache that is deep within my bones
I would love for this phase to be over with
I would love to get you off my mind
Its getting old, this is my final goodbye
You are embarrassing yourself by ignoring me
And I am embarrassing my friends by bringing you up
Goodbye,
It’s a big world full of people
It’s not just about you
It can’t be anymore
It’s a broken record
Seven years, bad luck
You’re so last summer
I would love nothing more than to forget you
Forget you ever had my heart
That I ever let you in
That I ever cared
May 2012 · 708
Judge Me
Adellebee May 2012
Judge me, please judge me tell me what I don’t see, let me know what a stranger thinks. Is this skirt too short for you? Is my hair too tangled for you? Please I need to figure a few things out and this would clarify a few small holes that seemed to have appeared. You think my breath stinks? Ohhh I’m not wearing enough make up? Well speak up! Wait is it? Look I’m so lost at the moment that you might just need to leave a message. Find some paper and a pen on the floor there’s a sharpie over there, write something’s down, some f.y.i.’s for me to ponder on when I come out from under my bed. Let me quickly brush my teeth, the dynamic of my mouth is off-putting. My belly button kind of hurts and the speakers on my computer are disgusting so silence might be actually easier to handle right now. I have felt tipsy all day, swaying back and forth and my mouth is all scratchy and it hurts to swallow; like a shot. Where is Christina? Why hasn’t she called yet? The party starts at 9 and it’s already 8:37. I hope she is alright. She’s just probably laying in the tub, listening to the national or Angus and Julia. Who knows? I hope I see her soon I want to start drinking, and I am already high.
May 2012 · 981
Life Is No Storybook
Adellebee May 2012
It hits me out of nowhere
All of a sudden this overwhelming sadness takes over
And crashes in to me
I feel depressed and hopeless
I feel numb again
My knees go weak
And I am kneeling on the floor
Crying into your sweater
Wishing I could change my story
But this is no invisible ink
And life is no storybook
May 2012 · 475
Memories (For Scott)
Adellebee May 2012
Memories fade
Everyday
They fade
You’ll forget the details
The place, or the time
The conversation, of why you could not stop laughing
Memories disappear
Slip between our fingers
And are lost like a grain of sand
Camouflaged as a painting
Dressed up like a white knight
They say memories fade
And that time heals all wounds
Let time wash away the guilt
The pain of today
Watch the clock evaporate into the wall
As the minute hand spins out of control
And my head starts to ache
A hole is bleeding into my chest
They fade; memories do fade
But they come back, clear as day
And the pain is as real
As dagger in your back
…. And it starts all over again
May 2012 · 2.2k
Never Neverland
Adellebee May 2012
Never Neverland is the place where dreams come true
Where you don’t have to be serious, don’t have to grow up
Where Peter is the one to follow and ensures that the everlasting imagination is forever
You can run around in your underwear and no one would notice,
Go get worms by the fireside and tell them to come play
Astronauts, doctors, photographers are all dreams reachable
In Never Neverland you are safe from teenagers torment
Or weight weighing you down, every time you count the calories of a *******
Never Neverland is a place of wonder, a place of intrigue
And where memories don’t fade, everything is everything
And everyone is part of some huge inner circle
Giggling and building forts
May 2012 · 1.1k
Petals
Adellebee May 2012
Times flies as the petals fade to bloom
When the lavender stains the mist scented
The aroma will polish your fantasies purple
And send your souvenirs to dust
Leaving you winded,
   and alone
May 2012 · 435
Grow Apart
Adellebee May 2012
I don’t know why I am scared
This is all familiar
All seems recent
I need to escape
It’s not easy
Letting the past rest
Dig the hole and walk away
And only look west
Count the pebbles
Throw stones in English Bay
This place is called home
This urban paradise
The only place I want to be
Times changes the tides twice a day
And people grow apart
May 2012 · 930
Phantom Butterflies
Adellebee May 2012
Phantom butterflies attempt to defile metal
Pour gasoline on the cultures masquerade
Eat the remains of a tainted youth’s rebellion
While their wings collapse and rip the law
Of reason apart
Mocking their majesties’ and burning their silk
Letting the pillars crash to the sand
Leaving only the exiled to pick up the ruminants of a
Flourished dream
Adellebee May 2012
Shake the love from your chest
Let it die with your last "I remember when.."
Roll away the stone that barricades yourself from yourself
Let your impulse make the wrong or right decision
Its not the long walk home, that will make your actions turn into vulnerability
But the courage to face them, makes the harshness disappear
And you had no right to take this heart,
So *******,
May 2012 · 392
Sleep
Adellebee May 2012
Sleep tight
It is time to dream
Rest now darling
Tomorrow you will see,

Dream child
The black night will do you no harm
While you sleep, dancers dance
And poets speak

Don’t worry; your parents will be fine
The loud noise wasn’t a thief

Wisdom comes from those who lived
Remember that
Live and let go
Sleep
May 2012 · 2.7k
Slut
Adellebee May 2012
I’m not a **** I'm reckless
Im not a *****, I am confused
Pulling at strings
Grasping for an out
Trying to figure out, up from left
Wondering if birds are truly free?
Or if they’re chained to the sky
Like that one guy said
May 2012 · 3.9k
The Cocktail Dress
Adellebee May 2012
The cocktail dress split hope down the screen
Letting that reoccurring dream compel me
Into memories of you
The clink of my cup
Shattered sobriety with the pain of daybreak
The ice looks like crystal but only something that will disappear and overflow your glass is standing at attention
The bar stool cracked, empty and the faux leather ripped, and torn
Cougars and MILFs strut down the bar top
Scanning tonight’s bachelors
I sit behind, for my dress is long and flannel
Heavy, hot making me sweat and stink
I run faster than a cheetah in my mind
Tearing doors and bridges apart
Speeding towards the sunrise
Attempting for the *** of gold
The cocktail drips from the table on to the floor
A puddle I will eventually slip from
Hair in my face
My ankle sundress reaped with alcohol
I stand up, look around
Towel?
But all I see is you
Walking back slowly retreating to the door
Leaving me to deal and regret the decisions
I so poorly execute
May 2012 · 536
The System Works Backwards
Adellebee May 2012
The system works backwards
Unsync from the rest
My tears drown my face
Pouring from my chest

Lying still in this hollow hole
A raindrop falls from the sky
Hits the cold unworthy flesh
As I am lowered to be held high
Adellebee May 2012
There’s too many of us
Conflicting each other’s thoughts and porous
Too obsessed with our reflections
To see the truth behind the clouded horizon
Pay attention child, you just might not make it to 2030
The earth is shattering behind delusion
But everyone is so wrapped up in Facebook
No one looks outside their windows anymore
The sun is a burning memory
May 2012 · 727
Today's Top 40
Adellebee May 2012
Drinking wine from water bottles
Losing the feeling of upper class
It is just another bottle to dive into
The haunted house on Kirby road
The single lit candle in the abandoned bathroom
Dogs barking on chains
Signs screaming private property
Driving through graveyards
Ashing on the dead
In small towns the gas meters don’t matter
As the youth hunt for fear
Disturbing the peace to find
The little girls grave.
May 2012 · 795
Towards the East
Adellebee May 2012
Patient smile, smiles at dusk
Watching the junkies fulfil their truth
No art carried, no starbucks cup
The rain and windows long boarded up
The blind man strikes matches at the wall
Lines for soup and crack pipe smoke
Eyes with no face
Ghost like glare.
May 2012 · 575
Wasted Away
Adellebee May 2012
Wasted away

You lie to your place

You hurt the pathetic and polish your name

Your insides ache, while you baptises the sin

You ponder extinction as you pollute the path

Sky sets and you’re wasting away
The music harmonizes your unknown place

Blasts through your ears crushing the thunderess waves
Killing your eyes and feeding your thoughts
It stopped,

I have nothing else to say


Today was the day I wasted away.
May 2012 · 575
What If I Met You In London
Adellebee May 2012
What if I met you in London, i would have an accent, I have lived there for years, and you are stopping by on a tour date for your latest album. And we meet at a coffee shop that is run short due to traffic issues. But we will cross paths again. I promise.
May 2012 · 659
When I Drink
Adellebee May 2012
When i drink i write.

But i need a book... this computer doesn’t do my scribbles justice.

I cant write in crooked lines or upside down in Microsoft word.

I need a book

And a pen

Please and thank you.

..a red crayola marker will do..

But now i need a page...

Cue cards??? Noo... sketch book?

Maybe
May 2012 · 1.5k
Fool
Adellebee May 2012
You made a fool out of me,
Showed me how to dance
And watched me fall
May 2012 · 905
Be Brave Young Parasite
Adellebee May 2012
Be brave young parasite

For the war of the worlds strikes at midnight

Grab your claws and retrieve your arrow

There is still something left to fight for

Our women are bruised with the fear of the fall

And the empire washed out the crown

And religious ***** who fold their knees to obey an invisible folly

Falter and sway as their scaffolds crash

So be brave young maggot, it’s only you

You must burn the bridge to divinity

And rope the sinners and free agents

Bound them to their rebellion

For the chalice broke way for a hopeful world of peace
May 2012 · 2.3k
Another Toothpick
Adellebee May 2012
Golf clubs for fists
And hockey sticks for machetes
In this world, anything will print you for the records
And violence can be picked up at your local 99 cent store
And charged to a players club card
As cancer is an entree for your 6 course 5 star meal
And smoke stacks are sold in 20 and 25

Another toothpick lined up for check-up
May 2012 · 896
Away to Yesterday
Adellebee May 2012
I run through the city streets

Hold my hand, we ran

Ignoring the neon lights and the tall people

Blurring the nightlife

Changing the surroundings every second

Follow the ocean breeze,

     takes me away

Mountain sounds and yellow lights

Full of monsters and men

We are here, the comfort of home

The sand between our toes and underneath my feet

It all begins; chase the clouds away to yesterday
May 2012 · 423
Burn Down Your Bones
Adellebee May 2012
The seasons change, and so do people

The beginning never lasts and the middle just gets dug up

The end is always

I lay my chest to rest, down

As the gamely few follow the footsteps of window reflections  

The wind chases the leaves; the fire spreads beyond the glass

The bread to feed your bones has burned what you are
May 2012 · 393
Far From Home
Adellebee May 2012
This room is filled with people

People that I do not know

This night is full of stars

That I can not see from here

I got on the bus; you got off the train

And these sidewalks are walking me home tonight

Safe from the windy winds on the shore

I knelt down beside the road, watched the forest

Hold me still: take me by the hand

Promise, ghosts the once glorious past

…I have stayed too long

— The End —