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 Sep 2015 Aada
berry
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 Sep 2015 Aada
berry
this is a poem about how you sleep,
how your body grew cold like a corpse in a mortuary.
how it felt wrong to reach out and touch you.
did you know that you turned away from me
every time i tried to face you?
did you do it on purpose?
maybe you were afraid i would be able to see
you were dreaming of her,
that i would read it on your face.
lines by your mouth like obituary,
like roadmap, her bedroom,
the destination, mine, a pitstop.
loving you was like attending a funeral service for myself
and sitting in the front row. no.
loving you was like watching you pick out a casket
and call it practice. ****.
i know how sensitive you are about death.
i know it still hurts.
i know how everything hurts.
i am sorry for just being another thing that hurts.
i think i'm afraid to let you forget that you used to want me.
like if i can somehow dig deep enough,
wound you into remembering me.
i keep weapons-grade nostalgia in my back pocket
for the days i can feel myself slipping from your consciousness.  
i was born with scar tissue where skin should've been.
but this isn't about me.
this is about the way you sleep
like you're waiting for someone to close the lid,
cover you in dirt, and read a psalm.
this is about the way i tried to sing your pieces back together,
and the way my voice gives out
when i read the things you write for anyone other than me.
lover, friend, stranger,
i just wanted to show you how to love your darker parts.
i never meant to become one.
i am so ******* selfish.
but i swear i am trying to unlearn the steps.
and you used to think my two left feet were charming.
i am out of time in more ways than one.
i keep stepping on your toes.
i can't seem to stop tripping you up,
hoping that you'll fall back into whatever this was.

- m.f.
"i am always dying in places where you fell asleep." - K.L.
 Jul 2015 Aada
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I wore a light blue dress the day you kissed me and every day after to prove that I was in love. I had floral patters around my waist so I could twirl around for you and show you the life inside of my heart.

You squeezed my hand as if every letter of their vows was your silent message to me. Red. We wore red. It took me six months for me to let that dress go, and I swear to God I never felt as beautiful as when the rain poured around us that day.

wore a black dress for you with ribbons down my spine but every touch snagged the lace and it's starting to hardly cover me spelling only your name across my hips and my sides. Those dresses were the most appropriate for the days I let you take me. Sheer silk laid across the small of my back. I saw an inviting place for your palms but you only saw the zipper.

How fitting is it that I wore a fitted blue dress to my first real date after we gave up (exactly one year, two months and nine days). The same dress we made love in. The first time you did not tell me you loved me after.

A tan dress just like our skin in the summer. I let a you touch me naked and I've never felt fully clothed ever since. Not even the sleeves and loose skirt of my dress could hide the scars no matter how many times I twirled around for someone new.

I wore a polka-dot dress the first time you touched me inappropriately. I remember it being hot out. I wish I wore something else. November 1st, 2013. You would not even look at me after we became one, never mind talk to me.

On Sundays I wore white dresses to feel innocence again. I never failed to ***** the precious pearls lining the collar of my dress every week, though. I felt the bow across my back untie by your hands and the pure white tulle was ruined by my blood stained skin (though it was not the first a life ******* residue remained).

New Years Eve, 2013 I wore the prettiest dress I had ever owned. Apparently he thought it was pretty, too, because a taken boy kissed me in it. I remember being afraid you were drunk. I remember fighting with you. I remember missing you. I remember telling you that you only talked to me because you missed her. There's not a day I don't miss those drunk texts.

I wore multiple colors and threads fabricating all my good memories into a dress except I can't remember much anymore and this is rather skimpy
 May 2015 Aada
Cain Arkay Lazarus
my mind spoils the innocence of holding you close in a cold movie theater
i am thankful for the darkness that protects you from the look that poured into my face when you touched me
my hands are clasped together and i'm glad you can't see them shaking
you've leaned your head on my shoulder and i'm hoping to god you can't feel my heart beating even from there
your fingers creep up my arm to bring me closer and my eyes flutter closed
and i pray that you didn't hear my breath catch in my throat
you've got to stop or i might just fall in love with you, my body whispers
are you warm enough?, my mouth says instead
 May 2015 Aada
Katie Ann
My unmade bed reminds me of my unmade head before you left and now all I see are stars and reasons why I can instead of why I can't and what love truly means and why when I fell asleep last night I was happy to wake up and I noticed the beauty in my breathing and how I want to laugh forever. I stretched and felt the cold tile on my toes and it tickled and I wanted to dance to music I hadn't heard before strings and drums and guitars and maybe I could learn the guitar and I could play music for someone else that didn't end in tears from locked up fears instead that just ended in a long melody that never truly ended and just played in the background reminding you to smile. I saw colours I hadn't seen before blues reds bright whites luminescent lights shining so bright I had to blink one two three times to not see spots but I had my eyes open and for the first time I wasn't tired and I wanted to keep them open for as long as I could soaking in everything I couldn't see until now. The world looked so clear outside, I felt for the first time like I was real and someone somewhere could reach out and touch me. If this is life I get it now I get why writers write why birds fly and why bunnies hop and dogs bark and why the sun rises and the moon talks and why clouds look like the most comfortable space in the entire universe. I get why you had to break my heart. I was already broken my whole life before you, and only now I feel complete, after being shattered.
Rough and unedited
 Apr 2015 Aada
MKD
I Know
 Apr 2015 Aada
MKD
It's been a little over two months now
And I think I can say this
And I'm not sure what's happening so let me tell you what I know
And what I think
After 2 hours, I knew I wanted to know you
After 2 days, I knew you were different
After 2 weeks, I knew I wanted you
After 2 months, I think I love you
Let me put into perspective
why I say "think"
I know that I want you and
I know you're favorite color is red and
I know you love God more than life and
I know sometimes I don't want to live and
I know that I'm alive anyway and
I know that's partially you're fault (thank you) and
I know the Earth is round and
I know the sky changes colors and
I know you love music and
I know you love basketball and
I know you get mad sometimes and
I know you're adorable and
I know you hate being adorable and
I know that you are anyway and
I know that some things float like wood and ***** and people and
I know that things heal and
I know that time is difficult to tell sometimes and
I know forever feels too short and too long and
I know that you hate my combat boots but I'm sorry and
I know that I'm too silly and I'm sorry and
I know I'm kind of crazy and I'm sorry and
I know not all dogs love hugs and
I know I love hugging dogs and
I know that I'm short and
I know that you like that and
I know you can't trust everyone and
I know that I trust you and
I know the sky is high and
I know people are strange and
I know you hate it when I drink and
I know you're better than you think and
I know you love Beastly and I know the world is huge and
I know I'm a very small part of said world and
I know I'm not alone and
I know I feel like it sometimes and
I know you help me a lot (thank you) and
I know you're more than I deserve and
I know people can't fly and
I know I want to anyway and
I know there are some things I can never do (like fly) and
I know this feeling will come and go and
I know that you will be great one day and
I know you already are and
I know life is short and
I know nothing lasts forever and
I know I want us to anyway and
I know that death is inevitable and
I know that it will hurt and
I know that it hurts anyway and
I know that life is strange and
I know I don't make sense and
I know you're with me anyway and
I know you say you love me (**** I hope you do) and
I know I **** at love poems and
I know I always hurt and
I know I always get hurt and
I know I am terrified to say this and
I know I am even more terrified to feel it and
I know that definitely
without a doubt
I think I love you
The first time you talked to me, I laughed, and something inside of me knew you were the one.
Even if I didn’t realize it, I knew deep down that you were going to be The One, and maybe you aren’t, but I want to believe that you are and if I believe something to be true hard enough, maybe it will.
I’ve always admired art, but you pour your entire soul into every work, and I know you tear them up, but I wish you wouldn’t.
And if you ever ask me how much I love you, I will reply with “From here” and maybe you’ll know what I mean, or maybe you won’t.
You pour your heart and soul into every work of art you make, and every poem you write and I wish I could do the same, because that is what makes your art and your writing so amazing.
I know so much about you just from a glance at your work, because you put everything out there for the world to see, even if you don’t mean it.
My words are direct, and blunt, but you have a way for metaphor I could never grasp.
When we talk, I feel happier than I’ve ever been, and as I just wrote that, you woke up and messaged me.
One day I’ll stand at your grave, and we’ll have broken up months or years before, and I’ll say “To here.”, and no one will know what I mean but me, and it won’t matter, because you won’t hear it, and I will never break your heart, at least not on purpose, because I know I make mistakes and I know I hurt people without meaning to.
Me and my girl, who broke up five months ago
 Apr 2015 Aada
pay filippazzo
I think of you sometimes.
Like when that one song starts to play,
or when breaking bad is on.
When the heater stops running,
and the house is completely silent.
When my room is too hot,
and when the fan starts up.
When I look at my hands,
when I feel small.
I think of you sometimes.
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