There's this thing in me You can't see it But I can feel it Spreading through my body and Consuming me bit by bit The black hole of my feelings Just waiting to swallow me whole
Leave me in the dark Hidden from the world Don't shine your flashlight of lies to me For they blind me Disorientate me Make me confused So leave me in the dark Because there I'm okay
I guess you can call me ****** up Because there is nothing in me That is pure enough to touch That is not broken That is not tainted by the feeling of hurt Confusement Or angst There is betrayal in me Sadness And anger So leave the ****** up little being In her cloud of broken dreams
When a hollow feeling fills my body And I'm getting stuck in my head again Unwanted emotions show their ugly heads And cries for help are about to spill from my lips
I just poison my lungs some more Take another zip Swallow another pill And I'm fine
Mama mama i dont know what is going on You left me on the street Someone found me Someone passed me on Someone cared for me Someone gave me to a big house
Mama mama there are others like me here But I don't now where they're from I dont know who they are I dont know if they have names I don't why I'm here
Mama mama some strange looking people are here They gave me a name They gave me food They gave me clothes
Mama mama they come to take me away Away from this city Away from this counter Away from you
Mama mama where are you? Why did you leave me? Why am I without you?
Mama mama, I feel so alone I have no real mother, To call as my own.
So tired So sad Feeling it all slip away from my grasp Dull eyes Fake smile Hoping that this emptiness will either disappear or consume me Poisoned lungs Trembling hands Fearing for the time bomb to go off Hopefully heart Naive dreams Waiting for the light at the end of the road
To think that I'd look at my phone And hope to hear from you To have a conversation That brings a smile on my face To think that this was once reality What a rose colored memory
I don't know how to explain this It's about an old (ex) friend of mine
I sometimes wonder If he knows what he does to me If he's aware of how I feel When he stabs my heart with his harsh words So uncaring So poisonous I sometimes wonder If he knows he's the source of the coldness That is making it's way through my heart