Xyns - Hello Poetry

Xyns Apr 2015

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Putting cigarettes out on your skin
Drinking, smoking, dying within

How the **** did you sink so low?
You always said this far you'd never go..

But it's not that simple in the end
You just broke, you didn't bend

From the top, down you came
Autumn, you're so ******* lame

You're lost, you're totally shattered
**You now know, you never ******* mattered

Xyns Apr 2015

Hercules

Hercules, Hercules
So very strong
Dear God, Where did we go wrong?
You were my strength
My one and only
*Now I'm left weak and lonely

He loved when I called him Hercules..

#love #broken #depression #life #lonely #strong #forever

Mar 2015

Luna

Memories

Memories do not fade
You just lock them away

#memories #fade

Xyns Mar 2015

Wasn't In Love

I'm not in love with you.
I never was.

I was in love with the ghost
Of who you were in the beginning

I was in love with the idea
Of what we could have had

I was in love with the thought
Of who I wanted you to become

But now
I'm not

I'm in love with the fact that
I'll never be in love with you

Xyns Mar 2015

Yesterday.

Yesterday I said

It doesn't feel like I'm living any more.
Days are just obstacles that I have to get through.
I don't even like sleeping any more. I'm afraid that I'll see him in my dreams.
I no longer eat.
I don't even feel hungry.
I eat a couple bites of school lunch and none of breakfast.
I'm not eating at home.
I've already lost a lot of weight.
The pain doesn't feel emotional any more, my emotions are dormant.
The pain is physical now.
It feels like I'm walking through syrup constantly.
When I lay down I cry even if I'm not thinking of him.
And right now the only thing I feel is confusion.

*But Today
I'm so much stronger.
I'm not crying
No regrets
This pain
Is fading from my chest
I'm not dull
No longer bland
I'm on my own
I don't need a man
Goodbye

#love #broken #life #hate #alive