I'm starting to fall in love with myself
More and more
With each passing day
The flaws I once saw as enimies
Have now become my friends
I've found strength
Under skin once damaged by doubt
I've always been on top
I never really came back down
Don't worry darling
I can see the ever gaping holes
I pray for you, I beg
I hope you see the effort I've made
To patch them up and grow
We've got little to no time
So I'll live for now
And forget tomorrow exists
You can have these words
Steal them if you must

I walked all the way from the other room
To show my motivation isn't breaking
With words you need to consume
Promise to regurgitate and keep passing them on
Remember there's never a step too small
When you feel anchored down
And trapped behind walls
The use of "all the way" makes it seem like miles
The truth is
It was only a few feet of tiles
This rooms got better connection
And this is the only time I don't struggle to connect

I've got a house  
Full of broken parts
And the lights don't work
So we'll sit in the dark
Build a tower to find a signal
for this old TV
But believe me
this is the happiest I've ever been
Cuddle up on the sofa
That's older
Than the years I've had
I'll open the door to the delivery man
Feel the cold winter air through my spooky pajama pants
I'll bring the covers down
Feel your cold hands upon my knee
But believe me
this is the warmest I've ever been

Play victim
Make me lose my head
And say something I'll regret
You know you're in the wrong
So focus on the former
And don't let the latter kick in
Anything but the matter
Ignoring all the questions
So you can play blind to the facts
Hide behind your mask
Created from turning your back
I'll hide behind mine
Created by doubt and always bringing up the past
I wish I could scream and shout like you

I'll plant a seed
This is the turning of new leaf's
I won't sink into the ground again
Drowning in wet soil
I'll remain
Following the vine deep down to the roots
Cast aside
The earth
That covered these open wounds
Burried so long
In far too familiar
Unmarked tombs
Plant a new seed as soon as you need
It's never too later to start again

Caught up in a paradox
Missing you before you arrive
And just before you leave
But also dreading the imbetween
The count down period for when you leave
We only get one night
But I'll hold it together
Fight the urge to cry
Knowing the next one is in plain sight

I have the same wish for you
As I do the snow
That you won't settle
And you'll go
Exactly where your heart yearns
That place that feels closest to home
Melt through the surface
Right to the core
And find that inner warmth
Hot fire's and Coco galore