I smile and smile through all the pain,
I scream in my dreams and cry in my sleep,
What do you want from me?
I try and try as hard as I can
Yet I am breaking, and shaking, and dying inside
What are you expecting from me?
I tell you things that are bothering me,
But it’s all a phase to you.
How am I supposed to get better?
I try to be everything you need
Yet you call me a disappointment
What more do you want?
I tell you I have Depression,
Anxiety,
And Pain.
You smile and say it’s fake.
Why do I deserve this?
When you yell at me,
Anxiety screams back at me,
Making it hard to speak.
Why don’t you understand?
I try so hard to be the kid you want
But Depression drags me back,
To things you don’t know,
To the things, you said I lied about.
So I scream and don’t tell you anything,
Until the death of me, you won’t understand.
Why don’t you let me breathe?