through words,
I heal my wounds
by completely exposing them

Thank you,
For teaching me what love is
For making me trusted you
For showing me your passionate
For playing well in your game.
And letting me be a fool
Drowning in a dream.

Once,
There was a pure soul
Lived in a tiny body
And have had a big heart.
But it was strong anyway.
Now,
The tiny body couldnt take it anymore
But still carrying a big heart
Tho the soul has been taken away.

There's a storm inside me
it starts every time I hear your laughter in the night,
when I think about the way we changed
from human beings
to some people who can only share
some words written on a cold page;

it's hard to explain how is it that I miss you
when I've never really had you in the first place
and you wouldn't understand
you see
your heart has long forgotten about feelings like these.

still

I hear your voice calling my name
I see you before my eyes
even in my dreams I write you in bleeding lines
and in my waking hours
your smile brings raindrops in my coffee
and tears on the shirt I wear
because once you said that you liked it;


spring brings tulips at my doorstep
but it's hard to feel their perfume
to let their scent in my broken lungs;

people tell me that all I have to do
is breathe



but it's hard to breathe without crying.

Three times nothing is nothing
Why do you keep going back
Haven't you had enough nothing
To last til forever and back.