You didn’t even call...
I told on Monday how I’d only had a couple days till I was gone.
But that wasn’t enough for you
I’d have to be dying in order for you to call
Little do you know I am, it’s why I must leave this place that is killing me slowly.
But I still have hope
A dream
You’ll be standing there at the end of the aisle right before I  board.
I will drop my bags and run as fast as I can into you
You’ll be the excuse I’ve been looking for to stay
But the reality is
You’re the excuse that makes me have to leave.

this is the last time
i will not write about you
anymore good bye

knees cracking
palms sweating
everything is falling out of place
nothing is as it should be
its so uncomfortable
when your sky collapses onto you
the pressure is almost unbearable.
but its the only way we will change
you will only better yourself
When you want to show them that
You’re stronger now
That you’ve changed your old ways
That you’re happier
But you aren’t
You are as whole as a cup that shatters in a busy restaurant
And as empty as the silence that comes after it

I walked into the world after the storm.
no not into the cage of more walls
not into the chains of someone else's arms
just me, by myself  
i could tell i was alone
no one followed me out into this silent barring
and in the quietness i found time to reckon in my thoughts
remember what matted most
myself
being who i am
being my own and no one else's
and all the other complications became so small compared to wanting the important things back
happiness
knowing i can find a voice in the sun
love in the trees
arms reaching out in the wind
i'm not saying this place is home
but i'm admitting it's livable
i am the breathing, laughing, crying proof that it is.

Take a second.
Stop thinking about where you are trying to be,
Look at where you are
You have always been the place

I’m leaning agains a metal rod
Pretending as if it was a lover
But the aluminum is cold, not warm there is no comfort.
Your black hair pokes itself out from the rest of the crowd.
I see you watching and turn the other way as if I never knew you were there.
I need to look again to see if you’re still watching me hopefully pondering if I’ll look back at you, but you’re gone.
Suddenly the building is nothing but a 2D paper platform.
It is dull and not worth trying for.
The absence of you is everywhere