I'm bold, bold, bold.

I thought I could melt your heart,
and warm the iceberg in your chest.
Honestly, I'd thought I'd be your best,
but I was not made for that test.

You're distant, distant, distant.

I'm here, here, here.

You think of the future,
and I see the current world.
Honestly, I wish you'd look around,
but you won't turn your head to me now.

You're oblivious, oblivious, oblivious.

I'm aware, aware, aware.

Of they fact that you'll never stare,
but I still hope you will.
The warmth in my heart,
will go cold before my love disappears.

what makes me so different?
what sets me apart from the others,
not getting looked at like that
not getting adored like that
not getting touched like that
not getting talked to like that
not getting loved like that?
what makes me so undeserving?
i know im not that pretty
i know im not the most talented
i know im not the most athletic
i dont know why that makes me so different.
everyone around me has been loved
i haven’t.
what makes me so different?

staring at a screen
it says ‘bad gateway’
what does it mean?

I don't know
but I've seen this before
that's why I'm in
survival mode
it's gonna be okay
I'll just take the next road
left

writing poems...
in my head

Here we are
              just him and I
               beneath a tell-tale sky of high.  
I
             hanging on  
       like a rose on a trellis,
                       in a garden of love !
He
                like a garden lattice
                             sure and steady.
Worship dreams of valor
                everything else is
                         just a paler shade of
               blue...
Here we are
              the open sky and I
          and the One who seeded me
  like a rose in a garden,  
                 of pure perfection!