That moment, That realization
That all they say are pretty words
Ego boosters in forms of compliments
Reasons and excuses, realizing its not real
That all they're trying to do?
is make me feel better

A hoard of secrecy
Days full of dry rain
Streets of empty seas
Touching foul dame

A boy so lost in filth
But so blessed by Him
Fallen into steady guilt
Sullen to forget his name

He lifted this child high
And gave him but a word,
"Son go forth and find the way
love is not your only worth"

So he walked through cities
Crumpled air that bore death
Leaking closer to the earth
Searching for what was left

I stay silence when everyone is talking. I feel like I'm still alone when I'm surrounded by people. I love being alone it's like I have all the time to myself but being alone for too long makes me feel empty. it's like you are free but you are empty at the same time. i want to be alone but I don't want to be lonely.

the day I became a man was the day I stopped saying,
"I am meant for so much more"
because I realized that
"I am meant for exactly this."