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Tebbyflower May 2015
Time stood still,
I don't know for how long
but the last time she was happy she couldn't remember
She carried her heart in her hand for days, months and years
Her soul wondered in the abyss of the pits of hell
Looking, searching at every corner of her dark soul
Scrubbing out the rust and bathing herself in pain like a pig in a sty
She started believing that she was the problem
That there was something wrong with her
She started second guessing her every move, thought and stride
All darkness engulfed her and she was lost in it like a lamb in the forest
The time stood still.
  May 2015 Tebbyflower
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"So what does depression feel like"*

It feels like trying to run through the sand after you have just climbed out of the ocean.

Like trying desperately to hang on to the merry-go-round spinning out of control.

Like struggling to keep your head above water in a wave pool.

Like trying to climb up a steep slide and slipping down just as you almost reach the top.

Like gasping for air after you've had the wind knocked out of you.

Like having a crush on life knowing life will never like you back.

Do you understand now?
Tebbyflower May 2015
Dreams about pink lotus flowers floating in a white misty lake at the edge of the earth.
I found heaven in my dreams.

— The End —