Save me...
Save me...
I’m so lost
I’m so gone
Save me...
Save me...
I’ve lost my voice
I’ve lost my sight
Save me, please
Save me, please

I’m splitting into two,
Two halves of a whole mess,
Breaking fast to the cliff edge,
Shouting back to save face,
But I’m losing it, I’m losing face.

I’m a terrifying beast,
No more than 4’
Weigh less than paper,
Fighting against the wind.

I don’t feel like myself,
I invite this sudden change as a victory,
Cause I’m saving my grace,
By moving away without a place,
To stay.

He’s haunting me and he loves it,
He’s taunting me and he loves it.

******* down fading brains,
Showing up to broken theater shows,
Shaking hands too wet to breathe,
Sinking eyeballs into the deep oil.

Cooler boys rested up on champagne,
Cooped up inside muddled sounds,
Crouching under bright green pathways,
Crumbling stones on tombstones.

Acting up to start a hurricane,
Accepting a life worth living,
Ate all of his supper with gratefulness,
Account for all the crowns left rotting.

Read moss covered signs,
Record voices among trees,
Rescue his passion from a grimy sea,
Receive praise and survive.

End with a bright yellow,
Entrance eyes and more to discover,
Enter with a word in hand,
Escape death with a breath of passion.

Dreaming thoughtfully over miles of land,
Dusk approaches his feet and brightens the night,
Drumming out fears of growing old,
Doors lead to newer worlds that he never believed real.

Pick the pieces of me off the ground,
Then scatter them around,
Don't bother to sneak,
I won't ever know,
Cause I can't hear a sound.

I'm gonna self destruct,
Drop everything and break it off,
Color my limbs every shade of red,
Make sure that you know I'm done.
I'm ******* done.

**** up
***** up
Calling out
Going out
Am I gonna get another chance?

Told you all my faults and left,
Insulted you and put you down,
I didnt really mean it but how else do I live with this stress?
This happens every time I feel pressure building.
So I tell you to ******* and I dip out.

I've been searching,
I don't have much time,
Cause time will run out,
All I can do is give you my address,
Maybe you'll find me there,
But maybe you won't,
Cause I'll be out.

Looking under rocks,
Throwing stones into the river,
Looking through grass,
Chewing seeds until my teeth wear,
Looking behind sheds,
And breaking inside to get to the tools.

I'll forget to leave a note,
And you'll wonder where I am,
If I'm searching for a God,
Or my indestructible purpose,
I sometimes wonder,
If purpose if my God,
Because that's all I pray to,
Yet despite my conclusion,
I'm still...

Looking under rocks,
Throwing stones into the river,
Looking through grass,
Chewing seeds until my teeth wear,
Looking behind sheds,
And breaking inside to get to the tools.

Falling asleep is always hard now,
I remember when I could close my eyes and get transported,
Into a world where life and death mean nothing at all.

Space becomes twisted and ties me up every night now,
Whispering it's wishes into my ear,
I can't see life from death anymore.

Calling for my soul to wake up,
Find the courage to see the horizon ahead,
Where is death and when did life die?

I can't decide whether or not I'm alive or dead,
Sometimes things that get on the brink,
Are always called dead.

Shake me awake and take me home again,
My words keep losing meaning,
Whenever he comes home and keeps me alive.

Harder and longer goes days and weeks,
When will I see the light again?
I'm just wishing to wake the hell up.

I'm no longer able to focus,
Where did he go from my home?
Shaken into death now.

Turning planets and crashing stars,
Back into my vision once again,
I only want death, don't you?

It's time for snow to fall,
Strike me through,
Let me bleed out.

I’m falling asleep at the wheel,
‘Cause been going through this ordeal,
As the sky above fades to something surreal,
The ticking clock will make me fall to a kneel.

Feigning purpose,
Eating at my carcass,
Tugging to the surface.

The precipice seems closer to my eyes,
Watch my convoy as it’ll capsize,
Crashing down below so I’d be eulogized,
And beginning the over synthesized minds.

Feigning purpose,
Eating at my carcass,
Tugging to the surface.

Pull away the peel,
Holding on to an arm of steel,
As it bends and breaks against our deal,
I’d have better luck grasping a pinwheel.

second hand smoke
breathed into my lungs
changed me up so much
dried up all my blood
sunk my own eyes in
tunnel vision's begun
i've got to get you away

her eyes like chocolate pools
cornered me
and like a car crash i couldn't look away
the left over cigarette butts she threw at me
i caught them all and swallowed their poison
don't know how i got here but
im loving the pain
"keep up with me" she said through a long brick wall

second hand smoke
im coughing up gunk
the changing in me im beginning to hate
found all my blood inside her home
and my eyes are never coming back the same
ive got to get you away from me
get away from me

Ladies, gentlemen, everyone in between, and inside out.
We're not saints nor are we sinners,
Where does the lie lay,
In a bed of withered flowers,
Underneath our grandmother's porch,
Are we inspired by the truth,
Or the choices we make?

Have we learned?
From the best of people,
Or the most favorite songs,
I bet we've learned.

These are all the people who have never seen a moon,
Have you ever seen a moon within a well-lit room?
Cause we honestly never have and I'm not sure we ever will,
There's some glimpses here and there while we're jogging out there,
But never have we ever seen the brightest, fullest moon.

Have we learned?
From the best of people,
Or the most favorite songs,
I bet we've learned.

The wind spins me five days away from Sunday,
The very particular day when all my problems are gone and I can say what’s on my mind,
The wind blows me ten days from hell raise no matter what I ever say,
It's a depressing day when I remember that there's most likely nothing to save me now.

Conclude my story with a leap--
Of faith to cascade into the deep,
Let me go so can find my twilight sleep,
For nothing in return I will weep.

Admittance to my problems and concluding my story of fake smiles and scolding a selfish thought,
The many wars and consolation I had fought,
In contributions to happiness I had bought,
Of course I wasn't happy, not by a long shot.

Conclude my story with a leap--
Of faith to cascade into the deep,
Let me go so can find my twilight sleep,
For nothing in return I will weep.

Walking- away in the rain,
I'm thinking- that it's so late,
The clock's struck one- I'm falling down,
Under the streetlights- stars that I can barely see.
I don't like- the town lights anymore,
When I'm trapped- in my head,
I can't see- stars as clearly,
So get those lights off- I can send more unanswered prayers,
Despite my disbelief.

Ease my breath,
Release my neck,
I need to run to the forest,
Let me see the stars again.

Just fresh out of my teens
Now fresh out of dopamine,
Good thing I’m full on fluoxetine,
All my vacant dreaming scenes,
Cut, now, tell me what it means.

I’ve fallen in between,
I’m my own misery,
A breech delivery,
In all my holy glory.

Look away from my tattered rind,
Fell away, I’m naked and unconfined,
“Kiss my ***” tatted on my behind,
Is anyone inclined to **** the divine,
It’s all sibylline story time, in my mind.

I’ve fallen in between,
I’m my own misery,
A breech delivery,
In all my holy glory.

Red dots trained on my cranium,
Bullets full of lithium and ******,
Collapse inside the auditorium,
Shot down for hefty sums,
Go ahead and sell my lungs.
Sell both my lungs and then my tongue,
Come on lets go you ******* ***,
Sell both my lungs and then my fun,
Come on let’s go become totally numb.

I’ve fallen in between,
I’m my own misery,
A breech delivery,
In all my holy glory.

I've given up on my selfish ambitions,
Promises turned upside down and emptied out,
So my conscious is falling again,
Into my skin, I will fight for the right to stay alive.

Sudden moves so slow to grow,
Record scratches become music to our ears,
Wreck it and tuck it under basements,
Your bed is a colander to sift bad memories,
Outside of each of us is something you can't trust.

Don't trust the shadow boy,
Break ties with his chants,
Fingers crossed, R tossed behind backs,
Take him on now.
Right now,
n o w.

******* your hands,
Restraining rubber bands,
Freakish offhand to demand,
And now we're ******* up contraband,
It might taste like sand,
But it's actually bland, man,
Oh I hate the way I stand,
Do you understand?
Of course you don't understand,
Cause I'm gonna countermand,
Drive yourself to misbrand, me,
This isn't land,
This isn't land,
Just quicksand

Don't trust the shadow boy,
Break ties with his chants,
Fingers crossed, R tossed behind backs,
Take him on now.
Right now,
n o w.

You are starting to share my air,
Although it’s just so small,
There’s something in there,
And I’ll let you know,
When my bones are bare.

If you’re not messing with me,
I’d like to get to know you,
And whatever’s behind your eyelids,
And just maybe I’ll give you a kiss,
Before I make my way home.

She fell so hard,
So fast,
And I never even cared,
Even in the darkest nights when I gagged and bound her,
Trying to show her the meaning of my sand,
I try to give her a place to show herself to me,
But her head is enveloped in water so she only sees,
What she wants to see.

She could,
Dream away my fears,
She could,
Hold me tighter than the noose that I hold,
She could,
Take me on a wild ride into trouble town,
She could,
Become my high that I needed all last week,
She is,
Everything I need,
She is,
The one who saved me.

Manufactured my own shell,
To defend against any provocation,
Not seeing past the ceramic station,
You'll ask why but I'll never tell.

I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I'm the draw back for them,
Draw back, draw back my friends,
I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I know that I'm the draw back,
The draw back, draw back for my friends.

Single out every defense I create,
Wait until I go completely insane,
No matter which name you claim,
I'll never fall out of my figure eight.

I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I'm the draw back for them,
Draw back, draw back my friends,
I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I know that I'm the draw back,
The draw back, draw back for my friends.

Change is always so strange,
I can't tell if its interior I rearrange,
Or if my brain is mistaking change,
For the shame and the blame I take,
To transform into art for my own sake.

I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I'm the draw back for them,
Draw back, draw back my friends,
I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I know that Im the draw back,
The draw back, draw back for my friends.

I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I'm the draw back for them,
Draw back, draw back my friends,
I don't wanna fall back,
Fall back, fall back on them,
I know that I'm the draw back,
The draw back, draw back for my friends.

Sitting in the backyard, on our trampoline,
It's dark now and the stars have come out,
If there's anything I can do to make you happy,
Let me know cause I am not enough for you.

Shooting stars, flying over our heads,
In streaks of white and purples,
Will it crash into us?
And show us the truth about ourselves that we may not believe.

Stay strong, when you're alone,
Inside a room made of nothing but lead,
It's heavy and poisonous to breath it in is death,
But you say that that's what you want?
Why do you want to leave?
I need you to stay with me.

Shooting stars, flying over our heads,
In streaks of white and purples,
Will it crash into us?
And show us the truth about ourselves that we may not believe.

Take a look,
what do you see?
I'm looking at the same painting as you are.
Yet, all you can deduce is the blood on her hands,
not the look on her face,
not the man on the ground.
Which in his hands is a silver, glimmering knife.

Jaundice on my skin,
Texture like old paper,
With every page turned,
I am learning something new.

Sit up,
It's not bedtime yet,
Sit up,
You have some ideas,
Sit up,
You can do this.

Take care of my nails,
While I stand in the center,
Of my palm while dreaming,
November might take me home.

Sit up,
The list is incomplete,
Sit up,
Your name isn't written,
Sit up,
The sun is yours to grasp.

Jaundice on my eyeballs,
I haven't drank a drop in my life,
Yet I feel drunk with shaky legs,
And I won't stop feeling so inspired.

There's skeletons in our closets,
Bones and skulls we never put to rest,
Creatures and people we massacred,
Won't tell anyone cause nobody cares like we do,
We don't fear anything but our own heads,
The things we've seen but forgotten,
Erode away the closet doors,
Guts come spilling way,
Revealing hidden passageways,
To something better that we've hid from ourselves,
Why we hid it just goes to show,
That we thrive under pressure,
Under our own filth and crimson,
In the little passageway,
The darkness was overwhelming,
To me but maybe not to you,
We stared at each other,
Doubting intentions and sudden emotions.

I was a gaslight ready to extinguish,
You were a creature of fire ready to burn up,
The only thing on my mind was a fateful night alone,
I couldn't tell what was on yours and needed to know more,
You lured me out of the shredded heads and limbs,
I was concerned with cleaning my closet,
My mother warned me over and over again,
You were concerned with everybody and not yourself,
We walked through no-mans-land for quite a while,
In between ourselves and everybody else,
We regretted the idea of emotions,
But I gave into a landslide of blood turned sand.

Where it started baffles me,
We hurt ourselves so much but work so well,
We broke into what life can really look like,
We're slowly healing and learning,
And that's the most important part.

Do you have a problem with my love,
A little drop honey with a side of crush,
I'm the better boy but there's no need to rush,
We can take it slow and I'll keep it hush.

You hunt for sport,
I hunt for more,
You skin the poor,
I skin the court!

I know you won't mind if I eat your eyes,
Take you by the belt then hang you by your tie,
You're a clever guy but you really like to lie,
Tell me your safeword, scream it 'till you die!

You hunt for sport,
I hunt for more,
You skin the poor,
I skin the court!

Sing me down from the sky,
All the way from death's ledge,
I am here to be saved and I'm calling your name,
But I can't see you here so I leave without your brand,
I'm okay with living alone, I'm okay without answers,
Then there's nights when I need your touch on my shoulder,
Cause I slowly lose myself in my own winding head.

Standing atop this dangerous skyscraper,
I threaten myself by taking another terrifying step towards the edge,
My eyes won't focus on the ground below,
Only the sky above,
As I cry holy tears I see,
A beautiful plain Taxi Cab fall to my feet,
I know where it will take me,
So I hop inside before my feet reach the ledge.

These headlights soon become too dark for me to stay,
So I jump out into the stars,
They fly by as I drop,
My hands are wrapped in black ink,
Representing my creative input onto paper,
The beautifully plain Taxi Cab attempts to save me,
It misses and I'm bursting with pride.

Everything spins so fast these days,
Swirling into a sink hole, okay.
Guess I'm alright,
But, you don't don't really know my mind, right?
I'm seeing everything in slowmo,
Working my way through the trough.
Seeing how every bodies, just.
Writing for nothing but the show.

Even though I could end my pitiful life here,
I decide to stay in this loco motivated town stead,
Hounds instead, motivate me to move towards,
Everything the light won't touch.
I'm seeing everything in slowmo,
Bounds let, through snow and such.
Nothing could ever live up to something like the crutch.

Dying seems like a choice right now,

But at what point will it become uncontainable?

The son of a skeleton does not confide,
With each and every line I write inside,
When the death of the eyes is asked,
I cannot answer with anything but a rasp.

Times two, times three,
Watch very carefully,
As we all pay the fee,
To ask a life of more than being-
I leave- not free-

"Introspect" I tell my frame, who couldn't really care less,
I will try and stare through the mesh,
Which seems to mask the mess,
On the ground the son was sown,
He grew and grew until be became stone.

Equals two, Equals three,
Minus four, Minus five,
The son of a skeleton,
Is shot full of sedative,
Is this definitive?

I'm beginning to feel the bitter,
Lemon flavor, crawling up my throat,
and spread through my tongue.

Pour me a glass of apple juice.

I just remembered all the things,
That are wrong with me and,
All the people who wronged me.

Delectable poison to my brain.

I'm sorry that life,
Seems to want to **** your light,
It's pretty complicated I get it,
But just stick by me, don't fret it,
We're ******* up heads,
Stuck in a warp in a bed by a park,
We'll wander at that park until dark,
Once it's dark we're gonna embark,
On a road, on declining steep,
Until we take it and reap what we sow.

Visit that old dome,
Back at the bad home,
Where all the nightmares seem to get you down,
Now, I don't wanna see you frown, but it's only natural,
In the memories it's just a fracture of all-
All those inspiring killing storms,
If it was your thoughts that you form-
Talk to me in this school, in this house, in this landscape,
Where you seem to make your own tape fake-
It's way up a drain,
You're a mother's main name to pain,
At least that's what she tells you.

I'm sorry that life,
Seems to want to **** your light,
It's pretty complicated I get it,
But just stick by me, don't fret it,
We're ******* up heads,
Stuck in a warp in a bed by a park,
Now in that park I want you to start,
To imagine yourself in place away from here,
Whether it's far or near,
You need to understand that life is what you'll make it,
It's time to stop faking it so that you can take it,
Bringing living back to reality,
Instead of resulting in casualty.

Call me tonight
Hold my spine
As I give up another heart
Is there anything you can do besides pleasing?
Cause I'm only looking for hope

Grab my spine
There's no more heart
Nothing I do, gives me hope
So, give me yours, tonight
It would be quite pleasing

Anything I can do for you, heart?
You lost your spine,
Bet it feels so pleasing
You don't need any hope.
In the midnight, tonight.

Behind your eyelids I can see,
A entourage of demons,
They'll make you feel alone and break your veins.

I will tell them to step down,
Cause I'm in front of your Irises,
And I'm the one to tell you what's truth from false.

It would be nice to,
Have a better excuse,
To not get up and move,
Cause I'm stuck to the floor.

If I could break this steadfast chase,
For a better life that doesn't haste,
Then, maybe I wouldn't feel like a waste,
Now, maybe I wouldn't take up space.

Ill break all my bones,
Cause I'm tired of endless drones,
Calling me up from the phone,
I'm broken, I can hear it in their tones.

For me to stick around,
I'd have to be cured of this disease,
I'd have to be crucified and put on display,
For me to stick around,
I'd have to find my own peace,
I'd have to fine the white kingdom,
For me to stick around.

Make him stop,
Make him stop,
Please, make him stop.
Make him stop,
Make him stop,
Please, make him stop.

arms and legs
spell untimely stories
just as eyes
are the windows to souls
the scars on foreheads
and the bruises on hands
take home
the stories you dont want told

I’m stranded on this wooden raft,
Surrounded by the ghosts of the deep,
My body is falling apart with every move I make to keep myself awake,
Eyes stare me down from the waves above me,
They never could crash down onto me,
But I’m asking politely, please.
The dark waters call my name,
I’m asking myself if this is what I was meant to be all this time,
I can taste the blood welling into my mouth,
Cause nothing tastes as I want it to anymore.

I’m calling you down,
From your hiding place,
Please.
Save me.

My head is ******* too loose,
It’s becoming easier to lose,
I’ve been getting more bruised,
The more I dig around for clues.

I thought there was something awry,
So I took a look inside,
Found that I was right,
A sleeping beast, what a sight.

My hands are so cold,
Cause they're feeling so opposed,
My fingers wanna fly,
But my palms are sweating out.

I'm stuck to the wall,
Don't mind,
All the guts that are on the ice,
It holds me back from trying hard.

I don't even wanna try,
You're getting too close,
It's wreaking up this morose name,
You cannot service my young mind.

I'm stuck to the wall,
Don't mind,
All the guts that are on the ice,
It holds me back from trying hard.

Make it what you wish,
My eyes have turned to stone,
Alike all those dangerous times,
Meeting nothing in your way.

I really hope that you're alright,
I keep on noticing all these little changes,
The way your smile never makes the corner of your eyes crinkle.

It concerns that you never want to leave the house,
Even your favorite movie makes you want to die inside,
Could we talk for a little while?

I didn't wanna fall asleep last night,
I was afraid that you would be dead once I closed my eyes,
You keep on giving me those sad eyes and I'm only more convinced.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Everyday I ask you, "What's the matter?"
You respond without a thought,
I never believed you but I didn't want to pry.

Except that every day that I see you walk by,
I know that all you want to do is find the gun your father has,
I don't even want to think what you'll want with it.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

There's a call coming through,
It's reflecting off of the drops of dew,
Telling me it's right time for a cleaning crew,
Cause my head is best killed and grown anew.

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

The phone's ringing off of the ******* hook,
Warning me, sending a cautionary tale, well look-
In my closet, there's a man, he has a silly book,
The stories all seem to spell my demise, he's a crook!

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

Lock up the weapons,
Or else I'll be preppin',
At midnight I might be steppin',
To the closet where I met him,
And I'll pray to Mister Hades,
To give me a fate better than it.

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.