I'm sorry that life,
Seems to want to **** your light,
It's pretty complicated I get it,
But just stick by me, don't fret it,
We're ******* up heads,
Stuck in a warp in a bed by a park,
We'll wander at that park until dark,
Once it's dark we're gonna embark,
On a road, on declining steep,
Until we take it and reap what we sow.

Visit that old dome,
Back at the bad home,
Where all the nightmares seem to get you down,
Now, I don't wanna see you frown, but it's only natural,
In the memories it's just a fracture of all-
All those inspiring killing storms,
If it was your thoughts that you form-
Talk to me in this school, in this house, in this landscape,
Where you seem to make your own tape fake-
It's way up a drain,
You're a mother's main name to pain,
At least that's what she tells you.

I'm sorry that life,
Seems to want to **** your light,
It's pretty complicated I get it,
But just stick by me, don't fret it,
We're ******* up heads,
Stuck in a warp in a bed by a park,
Now in that park I want you to start,
To imagine yourself in place away from here,
Whether it's far or near,
You need to understand that life is what you'll make it,
It's time to stop faking it so that you can take it,
Bringing living back to reality,
Instead of resulting in casualty.

Call me tonight
Hold my spine
As I give up another heart
Is there anything you can do besides pleasing?
Cause I'm only looking for hope

Grab my spine
There's no more heart
Nothing I do, gives me hope
So, give me yours, tonight
It would be quite pleasing

Anything I can do for you, heart?
You lost your spine,
Bet it feels so pleasing
You don't need any hope.
In the midnight, tonight.

Behind your eyelids I can see,
A entourage of demons,
They'll make you feel alone and break your veins.

I will tell them to step down,
Cause I'm in front of your Irises,
And I'm the one to tell you what's truth from false.

It would be nice to,
Have a better excuse,
To not get up and move,
Cause I'm stuck to the floor.

If I could break this steadfast chase,
For a better life that doesn't haste,
Then, maybe I wouldn't feel like a waste,
Now, maybe I wouldn't take up space.

Ill break all my bones,
Cause I'm tired of endless drones,
Calling me up from the phone,
I'm broken, I can hear it in their tones.

For me to stick around,
I'd have to be cured of this disease,
I'd have to be crucified and put on display,
For me to stick around,
I'd have to find my own peace,
I'd have to fine the white kingdom,
For me to stick around.

Make him stop,
Make him stop,
Please, make him stop.
Make him stop,
Make him stop,
Please, make him stop.

arms and legs
spell untimely stories
just as eyes
are the windows to souls
the scars on foreheads
and the bruises on hands
take home
the stories you dont want told

I’m stranded on this wooden raft,
Surrounded by the ghosts of the deep,
My body is falling apart with every move I make to keep myself awake,
Eyes stare me down from the waves above me,
They never could crash down onto me,
But I’m asking politely, please.
The dark waters call my name,
I’m asking myself if this is what I was meant to be all this time,
I can taste the blood welling into my mouth,
Cause nothing tastes as I want it to anymore.

I’m calling you down,
From your hiding place,
Please.
Save me.

My head is ******* too loose,
It’s becoming easier to lose,
I’ve been getting more bruised,
The more I dig around for clues.

I thought there was something awry,
So I took a look inside,
Found that I was right,
A sleeping beast, what a sight.

My hands are so cold,
Cause they're feeling so opposed,
My fingers wanna fly,
But my palms are sweating out.

I'm stuck to the wall,
Don't mind,
All the guts that are on the ice,
It holds me back from trying hard.

I don't even wanna try,
You're getting too close,
It's wreaking up this morose name,
You cannot service my young mind.

I'm stuck to the wall,
Don't mind,
All the guts that are on the ice,
It holds me back from trying hard.

Make it what you wish,
My eyes have turned to stone,
Alike all those dangerous times,
Meeting nothing in your way.

I really hope that you're alright,
I keep on noticing all these little changes,
The way your smile never makes the corner of your eyes crinkle.

It concerns that you never want to leave the house,
Even your favorite movie makes you want to die inside,
Could we talk for a little while?

I didn't wanna fall asleep last night,
I was afraid that you would be dead once I closed my eyes,
You keep on giving me those sad eyes and I'm only more convinced.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Everyday I ask you, "What's the matter?"
You respond without a thought,
I never believed you but I didn't want to pry.

Except that every day that I see you walk by,
I know that all you want to do is find the gun your father has,
I don't even want to think what you'll want with it.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

There's a call coming through,
It's reflecting off of the drops of dew,
Telling me it's right time for a cleaning crew,
Cause my head is best killed and grown anew.

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

The phone's ringing off of the ******* hook,
Warning me, sending a cautionary tale, well look-
In my closet, there's a man, he has a silly book,
The stories all seem to spell my demise, he's a crook!

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

Lock up the weapons,
Or else I'll be preppin',
At midnight I might be steppin',
To the closet where I met him,
And I'll pray to Mister Hades,
To give me a fate better than it.

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

Hidden under doorways,
Is memories we store away,
To continue superficial lives,
Living on whatever buys.

Understandable in the least,
Staying alive is a whole other beast though,
There's nothing to sell to cure cravings,
As we crave it more we continue pavings.

Cleverly hidden paintings,
Try and to keep me under faintings,
As a solution to solve all feeling,
It always leaves me reeling.

You don't know what it's like,
To live every part of life,
To keep on dying and retrying,
Until we deform only to reform.

Sell all your fallacies,
To make up for your valuables,
Inside of every mind is something worth finding,
Dreams inside of dreams keep me clean.

It's happened once again,
A single fragile moment,
In time this is insignificant,
In me this is a supernova.

Won't you leave me now,
I don't want your smile on my wall,
This world doesn't know you,
But I can't know you,
When you bring my towers crumbling down.

What if I told the war,
That they were safe and that's it's over,
I think they'd come out of hiding,
Maybe even get gunned down by my hands,
Red-handed, sociopath, dread.

I really love you,
Take time out of my day to remind you,
Yet I still despise the way I mourn,
For something that hasn't even died.

“I like you....say it back”

Take me down,
Into my grave,
Sing me to sleep,
And give me prayers,
To call myself home,
But he won't hear his name,
Being called from my grave,
So I kneel and weep,

So, Take me down,
To the sea,
In a watery grave,
I will lay,
As you feed me tales,
Of his everlasting love,
I called his name,
But he's not home,
So I kneel and weep,
Under the sea.

Take me down,
Into the forest,
Where time stand still,
I will stay, standing quietly,
Listening for his voice,
Among the trees,
And I call my name,
Through the trees,
But I am silent.

Take me down,
To the sand,
Let me see where I am free,
So I follow the footprints in the sand,
Because my lights are fading fast,
I don't need, his breath to stay,
In order for me to stay alive,
I slam the door and fall to the floor,
Calling his name.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Of blank pages,
and empty promises.

Take me home,
Take me home now.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Of burning trees,
and what we see.

I need to go home,
Please let me go home.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Of sudden changes,
and futures mangled.

My hair's matted and my hands burnt,
I just need to go home right now.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Denying is proof,
and I won't take it back.

Take me home.
Take me home.
Take me home.

Minutes to hours,
Hours to days,
Pathetic decay,
My skin I flay,
Just to make pay,
On this bed I lay,
As a sinner, as a stray.

Days to weeks,
Weeks turn months,
I'm done trying to rhyme,
I'm so tired of this sick mind,
Nothing ever feels like it's mine,
I'm a coward hiding under the sheets,
Monsters come and sit with me on my bed,
Watching as I sink further into a tantalizing plan.

Pathetic boy,
Skin I destroy,
Faking joy,
This is my ploy,
As a sinner, as a void.

Aching from the outside into the inside,
Don't know where most of the wounds came from,
Though I do know that I can't stand the sight of them all.

Every single thing,
Brings back memories,
Memories I don't want to remember.

Call me a teenager,
I'm making a fool out of myself,
If I told you the things I loved,
You wouldn't care,
But if I tell you the things I hate,
I'm so selfish for talking about them.

Every single thing,
Brings back memories,
Memories I don't want to remember.

Scars on my arm,
If it's romantic or edgy,
That's up to you to choose,
I can't wait to get older,
Maybe I'll get taken seriously,
I try my best to look natural,
You still put me down.

Every single thing,
Brings back memories,
Memories I don't want to remember.

I guess, this is who I am,
And I need to remind myself of that,
But you don't like me,
You think you know my head,
You think you know my struggles,
Well I'd like you to leave.

Shuffle the deck,
Wake up in glass,
Cut up your neck,
I think I’ll pass.

The story you unfold onto my eyes,
I would believe you if you didn’t choke up,
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not all lies,
But **** you like to pretend I just woke up.

I swear that you knew,
****** my words into submission,
I’m sorry I’m not dead like you,
I only wanna get paid for the commission.

Shuffle the deck,
Wake up in glass,
Cut up your neck,
I think I’ll pass.

Gun to the back of my head,
Do it yourself if you’re so friendly,
Guilty that you’re not fed,
Begging endless, “tend to me.”

“Tend to me.”

You can bet I've broken so many metaphorical bones,
You can bet I've collected so many cursed tokens,
You can bet I've been selected to get my head shacked, she said depression,
I said repression,
Cause denying makes the truth all the more shady,
And then I've shaken to fading on the daily,
I'm a killer of a very special Miller,
Or perhaps that was the killer of me.

Now I'm a special boy,
Taken and shaken around like a toy,
You can confirm my death with many people,
Those who build steeples and feasible sentences,
I'm a prototype of a man,
Just watch as I ran to the sand underneath the sparkling grand moon man.

Take me up into the wind,
Bring me to the sinners den,
I will take his rusted hand,
And escape without a stand.

You can bet I've murdered so many beasts,
You can bet I've ruined so many well-lit feasts,
You can bet that I've introspected, to the point where I've retrospected into the infected past,
I keep on regretting going fast,
You're stuck in my head now get out before I pluck you out,
Tuck and roll to **** at everything that I lay eyes on.

Cause denying makes the truth all the more shady,
And then I've shaken to fading on the daily,
I'm a killer of a very special Miller,
Or perhaps that was the killer of me.

Cause denying makes the truth all the more shady,
And then I've shaken to fading on the daily,
I'm a killer of a very special Miller,
Or perhaps that was the killer of me.

I've been baited into waiting with a bated breath,
Lulled into a fate that's worse than just death,
It calls me on the phone says, "you're so inept."
Culls my fascinations till all my blood is wept.

We’re destined to be digested,
By a beast,
It haunts our neighborhoods,
And talks through our tv screens.

Well we’ll never run fast enough,
We’ll never see the day where it’s fast asleep,
It’ll **** your hopes and dreams to feed on the misery,
It’ll **** your family no matter how you plead.

Closing in,
On the chase,
You better choose,
To Consummate,
Or Congregate,
Oh **** this place!

We’re destined to be digested,
By a beast,
It haunts our neighborhoods,
And talks through our tv screens.

Well we’ll fight till the blood spills,
We’ll find a way to cut its throat,
We’ll fight our way through the beast’s guts,
We’ll find our way back into home.

Torn different ways,
A collage of vibrant dreams,
They tear at the seams,
I just cant have everything, only if it pays.

Just find me tonight,
Find me in the midst of blight,
Running into an untouchable light,
Then pull me back and crush my delight.

Just barely meeting average,
Im learning to max out my gage,
Just to feel I've escaped this cage,
Where the bars meet the sky,
The ceiling is there but still I vie,
If I don't break through will I die?

My eternal manager, will I die?
Oh ****, I just might die.

Im on a subway train,
It's dimly lit and I'm the only soul,
Some would call it the Devil's train,
But as far as I can tell It's been nice.

My hands are cold and so is my nose,
Time slows down I'm suddenly not alone,
His eyes glow yellow and nails grow sharp,
He threatens me to stay seated,
I cannot take my eyes off of the man,
I cannot see his face, is this my death?

He's stepping to me,
A green and black wool hoodie and tight black jeans,
I know who this is and I'm afraid,
He pulls something out of his pocket,
A torch, the fire is there and somehow lit,
Handing it to me, he steps off of the moving train.
I then realize that I can die- open and inviting me.

Tempted, I lean over the edge and try,
Failing, I end up back on the seat I was sitting on,
Glancing down at the torch on the dirtied ground,
I try to make it brighter but it doesn't seem to work,
Then I realize the purpose of this torch,
It flickers in recognition and glows brighter.

I'm ready to move on,
The train slows to a stop and a road sits outside the doors,
So I take this as a sign to get out and move,
Trekking down the path with a blazing torch that's my own.

How high must I fly,
To feel like I'm getting by,
Instead I sit and cry,
Up towards the blue sky,
I continue to deny,
Your words silently reply,
But I know I am but a simple guy,
So why would I ever hear your voice nearby?

Tying to be so cold,
So that I don't feel uncontrolled,
I've lost all my gold,
And I've felt my soul already sold,
To the wind, away as foretold.

I scrape by on broken toes,
And ripped up clothes,
I have been froze,
In place, to decompose,
And placed into comatose,
So forgive me if I repose,
Your thoughts, as my foes.

Tying to be so cold,
So that I don't feel uncontrolled,
I've lost all my gold,
And I've felt my soul already sold,
To the wind, away as foretold.

Consume, digest this breed.
A nightly dinner, with some more afterwards,
Slop on the table, as well as on the floor,
***** mouth, followed by caked hooves.

Pig head on it's own,
Cannibal, eat alone,
Counting pounds,
Breathing fumes.

An ember revives itself with a gust of wind
As does a man who revives himself with her soft touch
The liqueur on his floor is no longer there
Along with the cigarette tray on the maple mantle

The sea now clashes gently with a soothing crash
Instead of tossing the man from his railing
The rats have turn to mice, chattering beneath the floorboards
Now the house creaks in harmony to the dancing in the den

He could've been the once at the bottom of the sea
but the rocks from the cliffs did it for him
The knives in the kitchen could be inside his skin but yet they sit, untouched.
While her lips move softly, he's not listening but waiting.
As if the world would grant him powers to give her everything.

Like the house on the cliff,
Never dying until they did.

And all the kids cried out,
**** us now.
Put the gun to our heads,
**** this game they play.
I’m not meant to be alive.

Take that thought and splatter it across the canvass, shoot the paper with your make believe gun. Ink the paper with your suicide heaven, you’ve got something worth living for and it’s sitting inside your room. It’s you.

And all the kids called out,
Somebody save me,
I’m so worthless,
I need answers,
**** this God above,
I’m not meant to be alive.

Tell your demons that the music in your ears will overpower their beliefs, now dance to the sound of your beating heart, celebrate that sound. Don’t ever let it go.

And all the kids cried out,
**** us now.
Put the gun to our heads,
**** this game they play.
I’m not meant to be alive

The lights across the street are lit but mine is out
I can tell it's much darker than last night's route.
I hang onto the tree limbs and lead bones in the house.

The feeling is that I never wanna leave but the skeletons in the closet say otherwise.
Yelling and perfecting my next, new route.
I plead myself guilty as the man with a knife walks out the room.

The lights across the street are gone now, along with mine.
I could tell it's definitely darker than the other night out.
I hang onto the ashen leaves and grim tones in the shed.

Mr. Lake...hold me.

Mr. Lake...I beg.

Mr. Lake...It's late.

Mr. Lake...Aren't you there?

Mr. Lake...Where's your voice?

Mr. Lake...I need your breath.

Mr. Lake...Don't leave.

Mr. Lake...Are you there?

Mr. Lake...My palms are *****.

Mr. Lake...This is all there is.

Mr. Lake...I can't keep going.

Mr. Lake...Where are you?

Mr. Lake...Set me free.

Time makes it's way out the door,
Hovering over her face,
I can see twilight pulsing inside her eyes,
An ebony night that scares me but pulls me into your heart.

The gears crank and grind,
Sounding out so desperately,
Shouting to become heard,
So I grasp her hand.

Fighting with gravity to not just hold her tight,
I couldn't face letting her leave my embrace,
She, of course, has revived my heart.

The gears crank and grind,
Sounding out so desperately,
Shouting to become heard,
So I grasp her hand.

A little touch of your voice,
A little shiver running down my spine,
A little clock stops the time,
I turn towards your kingdom,
And where it may be, may not be there at all,
Sometimes I feel like I need it there,
So I pretend that I love you and that I need you,
I don't understand why God died,
But I see your face in the many pictures of my childhood.

I'm the only one in my room,
Laying on my bed, alone,
Colder as the night creeps along,
Could I ask the Spirit to save me again?
I need their touch now, right now.

Looking through my old toys,
Finding them to be ripped and grayed,
I've lost my mind through illnesses that I can't control,
The memories attached make me shiver,
I can't remember the last time I ate a meal happily,
Maybe I can find God inside the stuffing of my old teddy bear,
If his heart beats inside than maybe I'll believe,
But I don't see God in all the newest pictures of myself.

I'm the only one in my room,
Laying on my bed, alone,
Colder as the night creeps along,
Could I ask the Spirit to save me again?
I need their touch now, right now.

Feel free to share,
Even if it's not fair,
Chew on your favorite hare,
What's this little chair?
You'd prefer when I'm bare.

Pocketed your heart,
Begged to start,
I played your part,
The flavor's ****.

You're yourself when you're high,
Rolling your eyes n' letting out a sigh,
Why's your attention all I vie?

Pocketed your heart,
Begged to start,
I played your part,
The flavor's ****.

You'd rather I'd die.

Smoke until I'm not me,
Numb and heavy as I can be,
Don't need my pity party,
Babe, it's me, the phony.

The Phony.

Can you believe in the sea,
As it crashes up against the pleading soldier,
The tender mind can't take it no more,
As the sun comes down,
The beast come out.

The pleading soldier,
Locks away his treasures,
And bury's his own doubt,
Killing his morality.

With guns lighting up the stale air,
The pleading soldier makes his way,
Through enemy lines,
He can't get a shot on the general.

Bombs blow him away,
As the nights becomes the morning,
The fighting finally secedes,
Into the pleading soldier's mind.

Craft your words so they’re divine,
Pull the wool over their eyes,
Call into the dark and find,
The world has left you behind

Afraid of what they’d all think,
Cause you’re closing in on the brink,
Afraid to call yourself the missing link,
As you empty out into a sink.

So unimpressed but incessant,
Never wrong so you just rant,
On and on about the incant,
A hypocrite who hates to recant.

There's a place by the ocean,
On the east coast
Where all the naughty children go,
They got coal in their stockings,
And when they go, they’re cured,
At night, in the dead of your sleep,
It'll be a nightmare but you're wide awake,
You'll realize only in the morning that you've lost,
Every sense of who you were, down the drain,
As they watch you shower with smiles,
Promising that your sins will be washed away.

Wipe off your smirk,
Don't you dare stand so wrong,
It's a group meeting just for you,
Or maybe you need some time in the ring.

Never be alone again,
No, cause they'll watch you sleep,
They love it when you take a misstep,
Cause god they love to see you cry,
Absolute dunce, a waste of a human,
Deserving of nothing but the worst,
And like the phoenix you will rise from the dust,
As a new upstanding citizen,
We'll keep you here as long as we can.

Wipe off your smirk,
Don't you dare stand so wrong,
It's a group meeting just for you,
Or maybe you need some time in the ring.

Take some time in the ring,
Swing it out, bully,
Take each one of them down,
Till you've lost feeling in your fingers,
And your eyes are swollen and bruised,
Everyone hates you, you're obscene,
Disgusting teen,
Disgusting, ugly teen.
The bully never wins.

Wipe off your smirk,
Don't you dare stand so wrong,
It's a group meeting just for you,
Or maybe you need some time in the ring.
Some time in the ring, will do you good.