Its been awhile since I could stand on my own feet again without all the pain knocking me back down.
The consequences that are rendered.
Loving a man who never gave a ****.
All this time that's passed and the realization hits you like a dagger to the heart...

I never meant a **** thing to that man..

I DO NOT LOVE MYSELF.

I SEE MY SCARS
AND A PAST FULL OF BROKEN HEARTS.
I SEE A GIRL WHO REFUSES TO EAT
FOR GAINING ANY WEIGHT WOULD MEAN DEFEAT
I SEE MYSELF AND START TO CRY,
MY SMILE IS A COMPLETE LIE.

I DO NOT RECOGNIZE MYSELF.

I LOOK AT MY REFLECTION AND WHAT DO I SEE?
I SEE SOMEONE ELSE WHO ISN’T ME.
SHE STAYS UP ALL NIGHT,
UNTIL THE SUN BLINDS HER SIGHT.
SHE CAN’T EVEN SLEEP ANYMORE,
SHE LOST INTEREST IN EVERYTHING.
SHE’S SUCH A BORE.

I’M SCREAMING, SHE’S SCREAMING,
PLEASE TELL US WE’RE DREAMING.
LIVING IN A WORLD WHERE WE CANT LOVE OURSELVES,
WATCHING ONES WE LOVE, LOVE SOMEONE ELSE.

AND THEN ONE DAY I MET A BOY,
AND FINALLY MY HEART WAS FILLED WITH JOY.
THOUGH HE LIVES SO FAR AWAY,
HE DOESN’T FAIL TO MAKE MY DAY.
I ONLY HOPE HE NEVER SEES
ALL THE DEMONS INSIDE OF ME.

Today, today you feel betrayed
Outside is pouring rain
Nothing's going your way
And everyone's only playing games

You had high hopes, but been deceived
That's what you get for being naïve
It's like the rink that you can't leave
And it's so hard for you to believe

These are the rules that people play
I know that it brings you pain
Your blood is chilling in your vein
You feel you are going insane

And now you are all alone
And you feel like there's no hope
You have no one to call your friend
But I'm here just stretch your hand

I'm always there on your side
I'll help you heal your soul and mind
After so many nights you cried
You'll leave your sorrow behind

When you feel down and betrayed
I tell you please just call my name
I promise it won't be the same
After a storm there's shiny day

I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

I really love you a lot.