you laughed in my face
and blamed ME
for your problems
and i took it
and i tried
and i CRIED
and i brought the olive branch
to every family gathering
and i kept the tea
from ******* spilling
and i was never enough
and now
i see
and oh
i hate you
and your lies
and i burned the ******* olive branch
and i upset the family tea
and *******
i am enough
you vile, insensitive
horrifically, detestable
gremlin

Before you open the bag
you feel the zing
in the back of your throat
under your tongue
Lips puckered
Mouth waters
Eyes squint
Reminds me of
the days when I was so carefree
that a piece of Sour Candy
could pause the world
halt my few childish worries
and bring out the laughter
I so dearly miss today

Bumps and ridges
and hidden faces
spots and dots
and dents in places
stars and lights
that glow and shine
strokes from brushes
that whirl and wind
these things I notice
while my mind is reeling
help me calm down

my bedroom ceiling

I finally feel
like I'm me again
I haven't felt this good
Since I don't know when
My heart is not heavy
my mind is not spinning
My soul is uplifted
my life rebeginning
My future looks brighter
The path is made clear
My family is closer
My friends are more dear
I’ve learned many lessons
That got me to this place
But the greatest of all
Is to give myself grace