I have no memory of breath
till we kissed
now each breath recalled
spoke of you

each moment infused
with airs of your inclination
your unfolding sigh
filled me

kiss me
once more

your lips on mine
breathe into me
my last breath
must be yours

till I return it

Hoping
Without coping
Is vain expectancy
With intense idiocy

Hope is killing me
yet hope is the only thing
keeping me alive

7:20 PM
10/12/22

en ná die storm se kalm
en ná die wind en reën
is die sagtheid van die aarde oorverdowend

my blinde oë
en krom ou hart
lê soos sade en
vrôt in die land

tot onder sterlig een aand
dié muwwe vlies bars
en 'n fyn wit worteltjie
voel-voel die wêreld in kruip

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and after the storm's calm
and after the wind and rain
the softness of the earth is
deafening

my blind eyes
and crooked old heart
lay like seeds and
rot in the land

'til under the starlight one night
this mouldy membrane burst
and a fine white root
tentatively creeps into the world

While you're in love with the light
I turn my back to the sun
I look into the void
I see the stars revolve
I see me look back in return

I turn my back to the sun
I see you out there hiding
A brave face for a ghost

You're a shipwreck tossed about
You're a mountain standing proud
A man a god a child a school of silvery fish

You're in the river and in the Master of the flow
But I am a child of the Tides
And under the power of that siren call

I'm confident in my vision
You can't know what I've seen
But I'm where I need to be

And I do it for me

When you find the thing unlooked for
When you see what was lost before
When youre broken and you don't know if you can do it anymore

Thoughts will come
Words will come
Time
will come

I wanted you to say
Stay
I wanted you to say
Stay
I wanted you to say
Be here with me

But fear is the leopard in the darkness