I am tired of having to clean up the messes that you have created.
I am tired of the empty threats that you have given me over the years.
I am tired of giving you pieces of advice that you would never listen.

When you decided to end the friendship, without a second thought, I agreed.

It pains my heart.
However, I knew that was the right decision for both of us.
In making that decision, I had my sanity intact.

Thank you for all the good memories.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish you all the best in life.

Too tired of living in a world full of comparison.
Too tired of having to do what others tell me.
Too tired of having to compromise with everyone needs.
Too tired of having to listen to people telling me I'm not good enough.
Too tired of being threatened.
Too tired to keep explaining myself.
Too tired of people who like to define my success.

Time to put a stop to these.

I don't live to be a follower, I live to be a leader of my own.
I lead my life.
I create my path.
I make my choices
I face the consequences for the choices I made.
I define my success.
I define what is a happy and fulfilling life.

If I want the peak of the mountain, I will find my way to get there even if I have to fall a thousand times at the beginning.
No one will ever be able to stop me anymore because I am going to break the rules.
I'm going to set my own rules.

most people see me as
a happy person because
i laugh easily,
i smile a lot,
i joke a lot.

but deep down
in my heart,
i am fragile,
i can get hurt easily,
but i choose to not
show it to the world.

instead of being sad,
i choose to laugh to cover it.
maybe you can call me
"the queen of the mask"

by this,
you can tell
that most of the time
when I'm laughing,
I'm not really laughing,
i was trying so hard to hide
my sadness.

When tears were rolling down my cheeks, you were there to give me your warm hug.

When I was devastated,You were there to comfort me.

When I needed someone to talk to,You were there to be my listening ear.

When I am being bullied,You were there to save me.

When I hit the bottom of the rock,You were there to pull me up.

And, all I would like to say is that I am thankful for your existence and everything you did for me.

When my world was covered by darkness, the dimmed light of yours lightens up my world.

You were my best companion
You brought me joy.
You put a smile on my face almost every day.
You showed me how beautiful this world could be.
You made me want to do everything with you under the sun.

But, it was also you that destroyed all of these.

You stole and broke my fragile heart.
You pushed me back into my small little world.
You made me feel as if I was just a worthless piece of paper.
You were the cause of my misery.
You took away my warmness.

Now, I am just a person who is cold as ice. I am too afraid to be hurt again. My grey world is just a distance away from darkness.