she is so lonely
sitting over there
in the corner by
herself
her so called friends
are more worried about
themselves  
than about their friend
who’s hurting herself
and hiding from them
she’s dropping hints
but no one picks up
they simply don’t care
she’s been hurting for so long
that she’s numb inside
she doesn’t feel pain anymore
she’s used to it and used to
being ignored and left out
the only time that she feels
anything is when her eyes
lets out floods of tears

*(s.m)

i’ve taught myself not to cry
not to fall apart in public
to fake a spark in my eyes
to make everyone believe
I’m okay
i ask everyone around me
if they are okay and if they
need help
but no one notices that the one
who needs help and to be asked
is me

*(s.m)

i need you here
hold my hand
hold me tight
wipe away my
tears and hug me
listen to my
random thoughts
don’t say a word
hold me cause
i’m falling
tell me everything
will be okay
and that every fight
will be worth it
stay

I can’t stand up anymore
i’m dizzy and falling to the
ground
i’m falling apart
will i ever stop crying
will it ever stop hurting
will it ever stop haunting me
will i ever be happy again
i don’t remember the last time
i felt happiness
i need hope and faith
belief
i will be happy again

*(s.m)

she told me I was important to her
she would do anything for me
she wouldn’t know what to do
if i didn’t make it through all this
she had given up on the rest, but me
she believed in me
she would fight for me
I was to important to just be
thrown to the ground
I was important to someone
and I think that saved my life
she has saved my life

*(s.m)

you see,
that’s the problem
with being the strong one
who always offers others
a hand
everyone thinks that you
don’t need a hand and
they think you have lots
of surplus energy and no
worries

*(s.m)

I’m sorry for waisting your time
rambling on talking about all
and nothing just hoping that
you will catch the hints and
my shaky hands and the
blur in eyes
but you didn’t and i don’t
know how to talk and how
to cry
what do I need to do for
you to realize that all day
and everyday i’m in pain
i’m fighting everyday to
keep my head held up
when you will you see
that i’m in pain

*(s.m)