If I had to choose, I would choose you

It’s you, over things, over people, over dreams
Sometimes it’s you, even over me
But it’s hard now to tell, what is us... What is me
We are tangled around each other
A pair of clouds
A pair of trees
Or is it one?
Or is it three?

If I had to die, I would die with you

You are, always are, my only destination
Often you’re the ****** journey too
Sometimes the way is hard to find, in the dark, on rough seas
I am tossed in life’s ocean
I am a girl
I am a wife
I am a mum
Or am I me?

Then I come home
And my love is here
The way is clear

Lying down with a heart of glass
Loneliness caught up with me at last

In the days, I perform for the millionth time
My most Oscar-worthy portrayal of 'normal'

But when night rolls in and the curtains shut
I escape from their eyes, I am free of their ties

Lying down with a heart of glass
I never know which laugh will be my last

Today though, I saw another pair of eyes
Another heart screamed out about being wild

Come with me, let's go and sit in candle light
The river's ours today, no matter what they say
Come with me, let's drink and try to understand
Our own mystery, holding each other's hand

Lying down with a heart of glass
Can you see through it to where it broke last?

You say fragile is fine under the soft sky
And engrave our friendship on this heart of mine

Clammy little hand on my face
It's 4 a.m., did you know that?
Baby girl, I forgive you

Come and monkey climb on our bed
The milky sweetness on your breath
Made tenderness
Of every sleepless night

Loud bubbling laughter in my ear
When migraine splits my head in two
Baby girl, I love you still

Absent-minded I reach for you
The soft petal kiss on my face
Makes tenderness
Of every small shortcoming

You tattooed on my skin
I want
To marry at sixteen
I want
To ride this to the end
To take drugs in your car
To drive you round the bend
I want

To whisper in the black
I want
To kiss until we spark
I want
You to become my king
Your name to be the ink
You tattooed on my skin

Your skin on mine burns like
The cold salty water of the sea
Your hand in mine feels like
A swelling girlish fantasy
In the dawn I stand alone
I stand and stare

This night suddenly ending caught me unaware

Your skin on mine is like
Sunshine for the buried seeds of spring
Your hand in mine feels like
The promise of a ring
In the dawn I stand with you
I stand so still

When next I move, the moment will forever disappear
I wake again, the dream is gone
And you are never here

Our home is a pretty paper cut-out
Carefully dishevelled to celebrate our life
Our love
The time we do not have

The child asleep upstairs
Left paper trails
Proofs of love
Written up in crayons

I look at you
Looking away
The soft blue light
My lone embrace
Kisses your face

Sleepily longing for your touch
I speak your name
Like a mantra
A password

A sudden
Forgotten
Song

I long
For you again

Your eyes burn like fire
A question
An answer

I long for you again
I speak your name

Our young love is a perfect flower
Pressed between the pages of a book
You can take it out and you can remember
How sweet the scent was with a simple look

Put it back
Don't be sad
Everything falls prey to time

You and I are sitting in the glade
Where our flower once blossomed and died
Did you feel the ground shake when the roots took shape
Or did you still mourn the flower and cried?

Feel the bark
Lift you eyes
See our love against the sky

There is a ghost inside my house
You won't see it
You won't hear it
It clings to me
My hands
My heart
It tries to tear my life apart

There is a ghost under my skin
I'm not this girl
I do not scream
Get out
Get out!
It isn't me
I love you softly, silently

I try to tell you everything
The ghost, the girl, the haunted heart
But you are gone
You did get out

There is a ghost
Don't touch my heart

Yellow winter sun
Warms my face, it is
Forever in the dark
The only light it sees
Yet it burns, lingers
Before it disappears

See me smile, at rest
Eyes closed against the heat
Look closer, I am
Forever in the dark
Just a spark, burning
Before I disappear