Stay strong, Hold on .
You don’t need it !
Deal & Reslove
Don’t choose the hit.
You’ve been down that road
Enough times to know
It’s never worked
Why are you hesitating ?
The answer is no !
Don’t let your tears
Get ahold & ruin the great number
of sobriety days you worked hard for.

Recovery is rough
life after addiction is tough.
Its All worth the huffs & puffs
from holding back & not give up.
You Can Do It.

Yoi will be happy,
Life clean is pure beauty

Sooner or later .
Yes, your finally RIGHT.
What’d you assume?
That’d I’d be dumb forever.
Eventually I’d Start
Opening my eyes .
Viewing Reality
In all different sides.

Did it not ever
Occur to your lil mind?
That one day I’ll be tired
Of chasing your heart,
Just to Play another game of your
“I’m sorry, I’ll change”

It was a process.
To reach this top mountain.
Dealing with my reality
the problems i avoided coming
all back at once.
Catching up with life.
Carrying Heavy weight
Of Drug Abuse.
hate, pain, sadness.
Hopeless & unworthy
Beliefs.
Being let down by the one
who committed to Forever Protect
and care for my heart.

Years of Tears
Finally Took its Told.
Constantly crying & still
being left alone.
Always abandoning me
Leaving without notice.
Many of those escapes
You came back with something
for me to feel less worthy.
Betrayal , A lie.
Truths have always made there
ways back to me,
Of your fun nights.

To be continued ..

Year after year
Her Tears kept falling.
Promise after promise
Her heart
Forever pulsing Sadness.
Chance after Chance
No changes were ever accomplished.
She Wants Her fare share.
Of mutual Love and care.

Im startling to realize
that this life i idealized
of sweet charm, comfort & company
will never be found here.
Im constantly lied to.
"Im trying"
Soo much time has been already given..

im tired.
ive been waiting so patiently.
for what?
more negative results.
more apologies and excuses.
"im sorry baby"

Many walking different paths,

That lead us in the same direction

A place filled with much pain,

And lots of empty reflections

Rivers filled with tears of sadness,

From the emptiness deep inside.

Oceans filled with tears of pain,

A pain we try to hide.

A desert without water,
But yet the oasis we do see.

Our minds twisted and turned
Is it real or make believe.

People do not understand,
The challenges that we face.

We struggle just to get by,
With a smile upon our face.

I hope they never feel,
What it’s like to be inside our head.

Struggling with our demons,
Some wishing they were dead.

People don’t understand our struggles,
Or the shoes we have to wear.

Feeling all the loneliness,
Just hoping someone would care.

All the pain we must  carry,

As we struggle every day.

We hope to make it through
Our darkest hours,

Just to struggle another day.

Live
Love
Hope

Written by
RICHARD B SHICK

Once I was the one when I followed you,
Now I am the one who regrets following you,

Once you were a statue of honesty in front of me,
Now you are a statue of delinquency in front of me,

Once you were an angel to me,
Now you are a devil to me,

Once you gave me happiness,
Now you are taking away my happiness,

Once I thought you were my saviour,
Now I know you are my destructor,

Once your halo was too bright and lustrous for me,
Now your halo is too dark and dull for me,

Once you were everything to me,
Now you are nothing to me,

Because I NOW know about your BETRAYAL.

I hope one day
He realizes .
That I didn’t do anything
To get broken hearted.
Recognizes how many times
He’s made me Cry .
Times I cut my wrists & Got high
Risking my life
To an actual death.
Why did he cause pain .
Even after expressing to him
How depressed I am.

It hurts
So **** much .
To be told to ****
When I have tear drops.
Never once has he made me feel ok & better .

My life ...
I hate it more than ever .
I cry so much more .
These tears are real
I’m so close to just giving my self to The Skies
I can’t bare this Sadness
Any longer .
Suicidal thoughts have been coming faster and staying longer.
When will I truly give in
To ending My life .

God , please hear me.
I’ve been Sad for so long .
Suicides been In my head since I was young .
I’m now older ‘
Alone In my thoughts
Im losing my mind.
I have nobody in this world
I’m hopeless
Many people have made recognize how worthless & pathetic
I truly am.


I’m hurt so hurt I can’t even explain anymore
God please listen,
I’m desperate to smile
To laugh , enjoy life.
I’m desperate for happiness
Please god i cry to you
Give me strength to change
up my life :(

That’s the sad truth
He never loved me.
I was never beautiful to him .
He claims it’s the truth
Though it’s clear it’s
FALSE ASFFFF

The way he treats me ??
THATS NOT ****** LOVE
HES FULL OF ****!
IM SO TIRED OF THIS !!
HES NEVER TRUE
THE FEELINGS HE CLAIMS ?!
Baby that Fuckinn
BULLLLLLLSHITTTTTT
Calls me a ***** ?!?
WHAT REAL REASON
Does he have to prove ?!
NAH NAH **** THIS RELATIONSHIP
IM TOO GOOD FOR THIS FOOL
IT WAS A MOTHAFUXKIN PRIVILEGE TO DATE A GIRL LIKE ME
FAITHFULL ABD ****** LOYAL!!
All for what ?
To be played , Betrayed
Hurt neglected
EMOTIONALLY ABUSED
LOOK AT THESE MOTHAFUXNJN CUTS ON MY WRISTS!!
How many times have I carved for you ?!?
Idk idk my mind is spinning.
All I want right now is to GET A FUCKINN FIX !
Dope has always proved its self to me .
Ain’t nothing in this world that can make me feel whole.