Look into her eyes
Tell me what you see
Beneath the great disguise
Lies something so deep
Lies something so weak
She’s broken and drowning in the sea of her own sadness
She comes up to catch her breath but   the weight of this world is like an anchor that pulls her further further into darkness.
The darkness that seeps inside her  heart
And burns everything away until there’s nothing left

Unavailable for your games and wicked schemes :
Unavailable for your nonchalant attitude and your confusing words .
Unavailable  for my voice constantly repeating the same thing to you and not being heard .
Unavailable for your lies .
Unavailable for your high pride .
Unavailable for your “ Cocky persona “ when others are watching .
Unavailable for the  countless “ I’m sorry and   “I’ll do better” .
I’m unavailable for the broken promises
And the missed calls , and putting up with you through it all.
I was always available to you but you were always “ unavailable ” to me .
So now I’m unavailable because I’m tired of trying.
No more excuses ,
mind games ,
and crying
Unavailable to you and anyone else
Who think this type of relationship is satisfying .
.

I walk in , you look and stare .
Your unaware that those glares make me feel uncomfortable .
But that’s just what “ men are like today “
You comment on my hip  , bust and waist Measure my worth by how acceptable my face is
And invade my space , because you have “something to tell me”
Although I know exactly what your gonna say.
You never fail to disappoint.
I read your mind.
Every single time  .
Know  every line .
You were trying to hook me with  
But I am not your “ catch of the day “
How many other girls you threw your bait to and ended up devoured by your egos , selfishness and pride .
How many of them were thrown back in the sea because you were still hungry so you searched for a bigger prize .
That is not me .
I won’t become her .
So I ignore you
Because how dare you ?
Why should I accept you?
Who gave you the right to treat me that way ?
But all you reply is  “what a waste of
a pretty face “
Then stormed out  cause just like you measured my worth , I did the  same to yours  and put you in your place
But hey that’s“men today “

Scream little child
Scream
From the top of your lungs
bellow out your insecurities ,brokenness, darkness , fears ,
Until your voice shatters .
Until you throw up the scars of your heart.
Until  every definition of you fall apart .
Until your  left to suffer all alone with only the echoes of  your silent cries.

For the 9 months you carried me in your womb.
For making a place I can call home .
For indulging my antics in the crib  because I didn’t know how to sleep
For putting oatmeal in my bottle
because that formula was just not cutting it and spoiling me with seconds at breakfast cause you know just how much I loved to eat .
For the long nights at the hospital when I
was sick .
For those pretty dresses you bought that were always the right fit .
For the morals you instilled in me that paved the way for the person I am today .
For the countless scarifies and tears you shed for my sake .
For those serious speeches and stern teachings that I needed to understand life .
For never bringing me down and always lifting me up to help me face any battle I may fight .
For  guiding me through the path of wrong and right .
And allowing me to make my own decisions.
For The many kisses , smiles, praises and hugs
For the support, kindness and unconditional love
I can write endless rhymes
Buy you a thousand gifts
And it’s still won’t be enough to express the magnitude of my gratitude and love I have for you .
The greatest mother any child can ask for I’m glad I was blessed with you
Happy Mother’s Day.

It took me seven years
to realise
the words in my mind
were too deep for
my mouth to dig up
I thought it was easier
to open my skin
and let the truth
pour down my arms

It took me seven years
to realise
nobody should be allowed
to touch parts
of your home
or hold pieces  
of your heart
that you don't yet understand

It took me seven years
to realise
I will wear these scars
forever
I'll carry them
through every smile
every kiss
every concerned gaze
I'll carry them
to my grave

It took me seven years
to realise
the pain carved
into the walls
of my castle
etchings of
attempting to disappear
are not a story of weakness
but a tale of
how I survived