What if I
Was just a girl
An innocent thing
Golden hair
In streaming ringlets
Everything that you think
When you think of that girl
That perfect girl
So quiet and demure
Yet so full of life
Why
If I was just a girl
I think I'd go
Away
To
Die

It hurts. All of it still hurts.
IDK how I can do this.
IDK how I'm going to be strong when every part of my world is crumbling.
I hate not knowing what to do,
I still feel as if someone seeped in through the cracks of my shields (the shields that guard my heart)
and tore some of it out. without warning or hesitation.
Then afterward most of it died when my best friend did.
Now, all that's left, is trying to feel something, anything.
other than pain.
The blood from the tare, bleed out through salty tears;
that roll down my face; even now.
My body shakes, looking for stability, for the other parts.
But they are gone, nowhere to be seen.

I still miss you.








god, how I miss you.

Hush now young one
Don't make a peep
Just close your eyes and
Go. To. Sleep!
I'll save you from this world
You can't fear
Look out your window
I'm already here.

Close your eyes
While you aren't dead
Rest your mind
And go to bed
You still have
your eyelids intact
And your smile is real
Not brutally attacked
So, since Jeff is watching
Not a peep
Just be a good child,
And GO TO SLEEP

I'll use my knife
To end your life
Stay for a while
I'll make you smile
My face is hideous?
Ha! That's ridiculous!
You seem a little sleepy
Hey, Why are you weeping?
People wish I were dead
But I love to see red
Now not another peep
Lay down, you should...

GO TO SLEEP

The marks hurt
But they could be worse
It's not too bad
They reminded me of life
Cruel, unneeded, and pointless
Death is a gift
Life, a curse
It's time for me to give you a treat...
GO TO SLEEP!

Well they encourage your complete cooperation
Send you roses when they think you need to smile
I can't control myself because I don't know how,
And they love me for it honestly, I'll be here for a while
So give them blood, blood, gallons of the stuff
Give them all that they can drink and it will never be enough
So give them blood, blood, blood
Grab a glass because there's going to be a flood
A celebrated man amongst the gurneys
They can fix me proper with a bit of luck
The doctors and the nurses they adore me so,
But it's really quite alarming cause I'm such an awful **** (oh thank you)
I gave you blood, blood, gallons of the stuff,
I gave you all that you can drink and it has never been enough
I gave you blood, blood, blood,
I'm the kind of human wreckage that you love