Wherever she looked
She found him
He was ... .
In the salty sea breeze
The setting sun
The mellow twilight
The twinkling night
The wet sand
The palm trees
He was in the candle flame
The music
The half empty glass of champagne..... .....So much for escape

If you think I'm reaching out to you ,
Because there is something I want from you ...
Then you are wrong !
YOU gave me nothing .
.
.
I'm reaching out to **** the noise inside my head ,
My demons hide when you are around .They leave me alone .
You scare them .

How do I perceive love ?
Fragments
Broken breathes
Shattered memories
Why  must the heart linger
I will never know .
You are my 4am , my 2pm , my sleepless night .
I don't know why I think of you

You cannot undo what you have seen,
All that you have felt ..
You cannot undo love
You cannot undo longing
You cannot undo the memories that linger behind your eye lids waiting to pour like rain every time his name comes up ..

He didnt change.
No.
He has been consistent.
Consistently distant. .

As I wait , for this moment to pass , this day, this month , this year ,this life .

It feels like forever autumn inside my heart .

The longing the waiting and brittle drying dreams ,

The harshness of the reality , taking away my hopes one by one .

My soul changing colours , fading , withering , dying .

I'm waiting my love , I'm still waiting
With this autumn in my heart.

Balancing a dream on my tired eye lashes .
Hoping one day I'll be able to see you,
Hold you and feel you and tell you.
How much I've loved you all my life .
Even through the darkness , and the storms ..
I'll love you till the end ,
With this autumn inside my heart .