I never wanted to love her,
as just did as my heart told me,
had little say in the matter.
Either way it doesn't matter.
In doing so I found the other half of me,
so now I would be lost without her.

You nod
As I explain myself
choking over my words and punctuating it with sniffles of
Guilt?
You understand and wipe my tears
As I explain myself
choking over the memories of us over the past few years and how I am bring us to
our
End
You cry
But you hold my hand through the whole thing
As I stare blankly into space trying not the look at the misery plastered over your face because I know
I am hurting you
Something I never meant to do.
You ask
For once you ask of me more than I ask of you
For some time. Just a little more.
I nod
Because I owe you that much.

´you should worry´ they all say.
´that boy needs to change´ i hear daily.
´but why´ i always ask them
i fell in love with this boy
and i don´t want him to change
for anything
or anyone.

i know we´re in a weird place
but i know it will work out
if not today
tomorrow
because i know
this thing we have
is something special
and
i´m in too deep now
to just give up.

i trust you
please don´t let me down
because then
all those people will tell me
´i told you so´