Dusron ko kya dosh dena
Yahan toh  
Meri kud ki Kismat hi
Bewafa jo nikali

(What's the point of blaming others
when here my own fate is unfaithful to me)

I wonder what is the thing,
The thing that you have
in your eyes,
in your smiles, &
in you
The thing that makes me fall for you harder each time.
What is the mystery you hold,
That puts a strong spell on me?
Each time my feelings for you get deeper & deeper
And, yes, this feeling is so beautiful.
O' Dear,
I wonder
if you are a magician
or you are the magic.....

Ever wonder?
How it feels like
Crying out loud inside,
Yet, still wearing fake smiles?

Ever wonder?
How much it hurts
Pretend nothing happened
Yet, dying inside?

Ever wonder?
How difficult it is
Keeping the courage to face you
When I actually want to disappear from your sight?

Ever wonder?
How painful to bear
When you purposely ignore me
Yet, I still care?

Ever wonder?
How hard to hide my emotions
Whenever I hear Charlie Puth's song
"We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do..."?

Ever wonder?
How much I am broken inside
That I can lie the whole world I am happy and strong
Yet, unable to lie myself?

Ever wonder?
How much I have loved you
That when you are gone,
I feel I lost myself and my happiness?

Ever wonder?
That you are part of my life,
That I am no longer the same me which I used to be,
That I am helplessly and shamelessly thinking about you,
That I am constantly looking at my phone and wish you msg me,
That I am burning inside every moment I breathe

Ever wonder.....those feelings???

It is funny how you become an obedient person when I tell you not to contact me
But not when I beg you to treat me right and respectfully

It is funny how you remember my tantrums and arguments irritated you
But not those little things which I did for you to make you smile & happy

It is funny how you ignore me when you are moody and stressed
But not my mistakes even after I apologized

It is funny how you give up on me so easily
when my biggest fear is losing you
when all I want from you is to value me and understand my feelings

It is funny how I let my pain flow through the poetry
when I know for sure that you are not going to read

It is funny.... indeed!

Love
Either inspires the person
Or
Destroys the person completely

I am not the same as what I used to be,
Neither like before you met me
Nor after you left me.
Something has changed in me
Something has gone with you.
I have become more stable person,
With broken pieces of heart.

After all it doesn't bother me now
Your silence
Your harsh words
Your ignorance
Your lack of affections and warmth,
I don't need to endure any.

I have moved on with a wounded heart.
I know it will be healed gradually.
I have embraced the truth that
It meant to be happened this way.
Appreciated for all memories of us.
Goodbye to you, my old friend.

Time has changed,
Weather has changed,
People have changed,
And so are you!
Yet no one to blame to.
I accepted the truth
That you were gone.
Even you are no longer with me,
Your memories are still with me &
in my heart &
in my thoughts...
Yet, somewhere inside my heart,
I miss the old you
Who used to care me a lot,
Who was the reasons of my smiles, &
Whom I loved a lot ....

You corrupted my mind & my soul
Now you want to stop everything?
Now you want me to let you go?
But, remember that we both agreed for this sin?

You should have known
Love isn't a game for me
Neither my feelings are for you to play with
Nor my body for your enjoyment.

Well, your attitude and pride
Your ignorance
Your silence
Make me burn and
**** me within.
I am numb but not calm,
Carrying along a drained mind and a hurt soul.

You are such a selfish being
You decided to leave anyway
Never thought for a second how I would survive this
Oh, what a brutal torture!

Yet, I silently wish
I could stay happy like you as if nothing has happened, or
Else, you felt the same pain of being heart-broken.
You will understand me then....

At first I didn't know
A blessing was knocking in my life
An angel disguised as you
To bring happiness and love.

I was misused
I was abused
I was not loved & cared
And never got appreciated
Regardless of how much I spared

Then,
A pair of warm hands
And the caring heart
An understanding being
A special friend is gifted to my life
A wisdom words of you
And your caring gestures
Lifted my soul and make me high
You did bring happiness to my life.

Hell is not an afterlife Myth.
Nightmares do not occur Only in dreams
When you are F*cked up in life,
When your soul is devastated,
You will be experiencing them.

Purane rishton ko bhulake
Naye Rishtey banane hum chale.

Aansoowon ke bahaar leke
Khoyi huwi muskurahat dhoone hum chale.

Kismat ka maara fira,
Aapno ka saath chuta,
Dil toh toota huwa hai humara...
Phir bhi,
Umeed ki roshani liye
Ek nayi zindagi
Phir se jeene hum chale....

Life is like writing a book...
We may need to edit often as and when necessary,
so that we can write a good one.

Between right & wrong,
Between dos & don'ts,
Between truth & lies,
Between light & dark,
Between reality & fantasy,
Between regrets & sweet memories,
Between everyone else & You,
I chose happiness.
I did not care the rest.
I chose You.

We started off as strangers
And ended the same way again.
The only difference is,
You are gone happily
And I am searching you in everyone....

When cameras were first invented,
The photographs were in Black & White,
Yet, the happiness was genuine and colourful.

Now, in this era,
The photographs are full of colours,
Yet,
Our happiness are colourless
Just like old Black & White Photographs....

Wounds in the soul
Neither bleed nor visible
Yet, cause too much pain
And sometimes impossible to bear.

You,
An intelligent, bold and smart being,
Fun and out-going,
Caring and understanding
To everyone else,
Except her.

She,
She used to be a confident and energetic woman,
Fear of none,
Loving and caring,
Used to be in her trueself,
Until she fell in love with
You.

She cares for you
She supports you
Always there for you
She only wants your happiness
She suppresses her own desires and wishes
Her sacrifices,
Her compromises,
She does everything for you
Because she loves you.

But,
You always have negative perception of her,
You misunderstand her,
You find her irritating.
You belittle her,
You abuse her,
When all she wants is your caring, understanding and random appreciation of her small gestures.
And it is slowly killing her.

Is she worth of such tortures just because she loves you?

The Consequences?
She is afraid to show who she is
She has lost her self-confidence
She is hurt & burning
Having a war within herself all the time
She cries silently at night.
Her eyes are empty.
Her smile is dead.
She is completely shattered.

Yet,
Over all the pains she received,
She still chooses you
And stays with you.
Even she knows she deserved better.
Because her biggest fear is losing you than losing herself.
And you mean the whole world for her.

One day
when she will not able to bear the pains anymore,
when she will decide to give up on you,
when she will finally have courage to let you go.
She is counting down for that day.
That day, you will realize what you have lost.
You will then know the value of her.