Your pool of innocence, gets me
I wish I could say mine remains
But
I am broken
Pieces
Hide away the remaining
Pieces
For they are broken and meaningless

I dont believe in flaws,
its all as it should be
You wake to a busy mind,
but shes just where she should be
divine and delicate
...or...
impulsive and inadequate
which phrase will you chose today?

because you know now,
that its your choice to make

I don't why i punish myself
is it even punishment ?
am i being dramatic ?
is there parts of my past i don’t truly forgive myself for ?
i feel ****** up
i have ****** up but to think my life is not amongst the worst makes me even more depleted
..depleted, depleted
why should i be defeated ?
please help me ascend
i’m just a wounded soul, one of many
and i cant go round again

its difficult being without you
in ways i could never have thought of
in so many i am grateful
but in others i am destroyed
its you,
in the shadow of my psyche

maybe i found happiness in your smile
or the way you made me feel grounded,
the way you touched my soul
losing you is not easy
losing you is like leaving part of myself behind
but its that part i need to let go of
and in the act, i will grow stronger

Soon you will feel nurtured
So strong and fearless
I promise I'll never hurt you
I will heal every wound
Pure hearted and restless
Just under appreciated
But I am here now
From my knee's, i bow

when fear is primed
i turn to wine
in a little time
i’ll have peace of mind

i am sober now
so i turn to food
just one more
and that’ll do

a craving hits
and i must admit
i kinda like
relying on it

because why else
would i be like this?
why else?