Matty Allgauer

Matty Allgauer Jan 2016

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I weep and weep
My heart, it cries
A long and sullen lullaby
That puts to sleep all happiness
And leaves my world a broken mess

Matty Allgauer Nov 2015

It Can't Rain All The Time

I was told it can't rain all the time
But thurderstorms ravage my mind
Wind whips sweet memories
Into such dismal scenes
And lightening strikes at optimistic ideas
Leaving burnt tree stumps of thoughts
But I was told that it can't rain all the time

Matty Allgauer Oct 2015

Fragile Thing

I think of myself as a fragile thing
A little porcelain doll
Who'd shatter into a million pieces
If your hands would let me fall
But I am already chipped and cracked
If you cannot see
From years of harsh mishandlings
So love me tenderly

#love #broken #fear #relationships #insecurities

Matty Allgauer Sep 2015

The Unfortunate Son

I watched as the son and mother walked up to the gastation
Dressed in goodwill clothing
The mother pulls out a bag and shows the boy what to look for
Cigarette butts in the trash can ashtrays

He was only three or four
Not old enough to know any better
But I'm sure that will be the first real memory of his mother
And he will loathe it as he will loathe her

#family #children #poverty

Matty Allgauer Sep 2015

Swayed to Nostalgia

I swayed to the sound of nostalgia
As it sank into my bones
Then washed away my worries
And brought me memories of home

I’ve been gone for far to long
And I know I’ve missed it there
But in the morning, when I wake
I’ll be lost again somewhere

And it happens far too often
That I’m lost and gone
But I know I’m stuck to live a life
That plays to the same sad song

However, I do not seek your pity
Please send it far from me
I do what I do strictly for you
To live life happily

#home #loss #nostalgia #distance

Matty Allgauer Sep 2015

Vice Grip

Sitting under the moon
Its light falls on my face
The vices whisper to me sweet words
Laced in a façade of grace

The temptation taste like honey
The pain of truth is hidden away
And your words of desperation
Wait for me another day

I feel the burn of desire
It crawls underneath my skin
I have a moment of weakness
Warnings are faded by sin

And in the morning when I wake
My shame flames into me
I crawl into the deepest corners
Where I pray no one can see

I tell myself that it’s alright
And that I’ll start anew
But in my head I cannot shake
Those words that came from you

#broken #addiction #depression #pain #loneliness

Matty Allgauer Sep 2015

Common thought

Time and time again I fear you'll leave
That what I try so hard to have was never meant to be
And though you say you love me
There's times I cannot not see
That what I feel for you, is what you feel for me

#love #loss #relationships