"You have no reason to be so angry at the world"
but when I'm sad it goes  unnoticed
when I'm anything other then happy really.
the only thing it seems anyone can perceive is the anger.
The anger that comes from pushing it down and pretending its not there
the anger that comes from feeling so so misunderstood for so long.
so yes I have reason.
my family falling apart repeatedly, depression, anxiety.
but that's not enough cause you cant see that.
you cant see how that effects me.

here we are back again
in front of the medicine cabinet
with a brain full of yearning
and a heart full of sadness
my brain chemically ill making itself yearn for death
my heart full of sadness just wanting it all to stop
the only thing my mind and heart can agree on is that the sadness needs to end
this must be the only way right?
every other way I've tried never work long term
so if not this then what's the answer

You wake up
plans have changed
world turned on its head

flamin' Nora
I need to pour a drink
but wait
it's only 05:28

one of these days
we'll look back on all of this
and think
ah
those were the good old days
and then the nurse will slip us
a 'Mickey'
and
we'll go back to sleep.

i just feel like i'm just a puppet in my life
but the owner is someone else

i think if you miss me hard
i can feel it in my heart