He set out to make her his
Broke her walls of protection and built a castle amongst the ruins
Violated her dreams and flew kites in the smoke of passion from the fire he left behind
He tore apart memories of existence before he entered her life
Stole her breath and tricked her heart into stopping yet believing it was the most alive it had ever been
Her blood boiled with the whispered words that meant nothing
Gripping fingers caged her between the circle of arms
He tied her life to his and made the government a witness so she could never escape
Uncovered her weaknesses
And saw the insecurities and physical blemishes
He made her vulnerable
Until she accepted love was the biggest gamble she would play
So she played to win
She would possess him too

Let's go back*
Those drawn out mornings of soft light and even softer touches
Sparkling dust motes floating mid-air
A vision of perfection twisted in love drenched sheets
I could stay in bed all day
Just listening to you breathe

With each word written
I'm ripping out the stitches
so that I may never heal.

Many times I put this pen to this blank paper, and many times it remains blank
  I try to write how I'm feeling but all I can think of are his blue loving eyes
  All I feel is love, warmth that used to radiate between us while we laid on the couch
  How it felt to be held close to his chest and kissed on the top of the head
  Look up to see that playful smile and we are engulfed with love
  But that was over a year ago, now I sit lonely on my bed
  You're never far from my thoughts
  Tears never far from my eyes.