Shackled, and chained.
Yet,
I’ve never felt so free.
You’ve awakened this primal instinct in me.

Burned, and bruised.
Tormented, and used.
I'm yours to abuse.

I kneel,
At your feet,
Waiting for command.
Waiting for the slightest gesture granted from your hand.

I look down.
My hands in lap.
l am at your will,
Waiting for your finger’s snap.

With hair pulled back--
Gathered in your hands.

And cheeks warm--
Caressed by your voice.

Lips are wet--
Touched by yours.

Cleaning, and cooking.
Almost every day.
Folding, and preparing.
Doing whatever you say.

I'm yours;
I'm branded with your name.
I'm bonded to you,
No matter what,
And I stand unashamed.

Close your eyes
Breathe in
1 2 3
Breath out
1 2 3
Listen to your heartbeat
Feel it flowing the blood
And white blood cells
That are meant to repair you
But once circling your soul
They turn a deep inky black
That flows through you to the pen
The inky pen that you use
To manipulate your words onto the page
No erasing no unfeeling because that inky pen
Is permanent like the pain of the pass
All you need to do is learn
To cross over it and start
Again.

dead in the night
all alone
dead inside

eyes wide open
glued to the ceiling
gone all mental healing

all the overthinking
praying for redemption
followed by slow blinking
for shame, i'm left with feelings of abnegation.

Reasons to cry
I can think of so many
I try to relive the stories of my life
And all i can think of is how i deserve
My crowded thoughts of suicide and the need to die
To save someone the heartache of trying to get inside
Barricaded walls with no scratch and no sign of breaking
So many have tried to understand me
But what they come to find out is
On the outside im empty showing my smiles and dreams
While in the inside i'm screaming for help
No more dreams cause only the nightmares consume my night
No time to think of the life i might have
When you lay awake thinking of ways to end the hurt
To end my life, so whats the point in planning the family that I know I will never have

thankyou for making me feel something
i just wish it was less painful