And I sure hope she does
He then takes his pocket knife
And carves his initials into my heart
To remind you it's mine
He says to me
This would be fine of course
If he wasn't already holding one
Beggars can't be choosers
But you are choosing
And I am begging
She is waiting
Go

Is your will to live stronger than your dance with death?
if it is, which will you choose?

Your words say you love me
You have even learned to trick your eyes
Maybe even yourself
But when you see him
You remember where your heart is
You are filled with warmth and love
Leaving me
Watching you
Be in love

Swimming in the ultimate void
With many other souls
Walking blindly on the path of life
Looking at trees till they leave my peripheral
Life is pointless even with a positive outlook
We are more intelligent animals
With the tendency to make false rules and expectations
Nothing more nothing less
Floating through space in a sea of consciousness
Never the option to leave
Hopelessly in love, hopelessly in fear
No change or flux
To each their own.

I accidentally spent all my time thinking about you.
Again.
I convinced myself you were all things good. When you were all things evil in disguise.
I thought I saw a goddess
But I had saw a demon
Thought my heart was finally safe
But it was in the hands of the enemy
Thank you universe!
She screams
Thank you for this life you have given me.
She fronts
I'm alone and depressed
She posts
I Love You
She says
I Love Him
She thinks
Oops.
I have been tricked.

that
Bone chipping
Heart throbbing
Teeth grinding
fingernail biting
Mind racing
Toe tapping
Kind of anxiety

If I ever get over you will I still have a muse?
If I stop thinking about you every day will things feel like they used to?
If you stopped coming to visit my dreams
Would I stop missing you?

Do you think she is wondering what you are doing?
As you lay on my chest
She is posting on Facebook about her man.
Where is her man?
The guilt soaks into my skin leaving a permanent tattoo
But I am so excited to see you
I try to wash it off
But it lingers
You have the same tattoo
Are you excited to see me?

We make music when we walk
Shoes laced with guitar strings
Hearts beating to the metronome in my head
When you speak violin comes out
The flowers embedded in your heart are dying
The light in your eyes have burned out
The optimism has drifted from your voice
And left you with hollow bones
The music we played went flat
The waves stopped coming
The sun stopped shining
And my heart stopped beating.

Your fingertips on my lips
Something that no man has done
Is make me feel safe
I love you but that's besides the point
I am a blissful fool
Radiating in my own ignorance
Meditating on lust
Drowning in your touch
I've never made love
But I want to with you
I am a fool
Who is easily blinded by love