Eyes in the back of my head, high alerted of my surroundings
Can’t escape my enemy, I feel terribly surrounded
Too many near death experiences & looking at those with a personal vendetta
Thinking that taking me out is the way of making their lives better
If I Die Tonight then let me go, I’ve lived to the best of my ability
Tried to change the world in every possible
Even when most don’t see the good within me
Maybe they’ll have a better chance than I did, suicide failed numerously
Can’t have anyone getting close to me, fearing them all using me
The hell is never far away but always lurking for a chance to strike
Needing any reason to take you away especially when you don’t pay the price
If I Die Tonight then let my spirit move on the next phase
Bury me next to my legacy & turn the next page
If this is my final stand, just know I stood for something
Representing those without a voice & those trying to come up from nothing
I’m no saint in any way but I used my God given gift the best way I knew how
Slowly rising above all expectations & feeling the jealousy growing heavy now
Paranoia’s gotten the best of me & I don’t want anyone next to me
Just so they can plot on taking me out after getting the best of me
The war is far from over, my soul just can’t be killed
Broke me down once & I’m slowly trying to rebuild
So If I Die Tonight, don’t cry just let me fly away
The Good never exist forever but that the price you pay

I was having a bad day, thinking about my past & future
Thinking about my talent not taking me anywhere, still end up being a loser
I came home from work, took a shower, then started listening to music
I grabbed a bottle of ***** with a hand full of pills contemplating something stupid
Only thing on my mind at the time was either going missing or dying
And the one person I reached out to for advice wasn’t replying
Few hours roll by but I still haven’t made a decision
Just waiting for the depression & anger to make a collision
Almost to the bottle of the bottle with 5 pills in my system
Listening to the voices in my head & their evil filled wisdom
I get up from my bed, walked to the bathroom, & stared into the mirror
Seeing the hell on both shoulders, the message is becoming clearer
Pills aren’t doing any justice, I’m just turning into a zombie
Washing my sorrows down my throat with this dark cloud above me
It’s now 3am & I’m on the floor with a butcher’s knife in my hand
Holding it next to my neck feeling like the world will never understand
How I can feel so alone sometimes or feel unappreciated
Trying to do right but all I’ve ever felt was hatred
I placed the knife on my wrist then began to cut just a bit
Still following the voices in my head telling me I’ll never be ****
Move the knife slowly right before they tell me don’t quit
Oops there it goes, a little bit of blood dripping from my wrist
If that was so easy, let me aim at my throat again
“Do it Dre, this world is better off without you. Face it, you won’t win.”
Supplying pressure but still no movement to cut
All the motivation to die when I look at myself feeling such disgust
Right before I proceed to slash myself, I then receive a message
Showing me the love I’ve been ignoring & how I’m a blessing
I wipe the tears from my eyes, stand up, & realize how selfish I became
Trying to **** myself over a group of people who don’t even care to know my name
“Dre, you’re an amazing gift to those without a voice”
“If you leave, who else is gonna be the perfect versatile voice”
“You gotta chance here to do something bigger than your wildest dreams”
“So I encourage you to stand up, dust yourself off, & chase your dreams”
I look at myself in the mirror once more, told the Devil he can’t have me
Proceeded to the toilet & threw up all the pills used trying to drag me
“I’ll no longer give the enemy any power over me, I will have self control”
“I will be Great at what I do by any means. I shall not end this road”
Drop my knees & told God that I’m eternally grateful
And no more shall I continue to please the ungrateful
Thank you for turning me around from the wrong direction I was headed
And thank you for always keeping my soul protected

I spend most of my nights staring at my computer screen
Letting my heart write its emotions while my soul screams
Love songs on blast & guess who’s on my mind
Got me thinking about her, desiring her free time
I’ve done enough crying over you, all those tears have dried up
Now it’s all inspiring me to write this much & my thoughts are fired up
Look at what you did to me with all these emotions coming outta me
Still missing your body in my arms & your kisses laying next to me
Cause I know when it comes to that masterpiece
It’s your love that has the perfect recipe
I’m Sleepless because of you, listening to love songs because of you
I guess you still don’t understand how much I love you
You’re inspiring all these poems I’m writing
And all these emotions that I’m constantly fighting
Pacing back & forth, trying my best not to cry
Barely connected with my best friend & I don’t even know why
You bring out the best in me but without you, I’m hopeless
Just vampire during the night time trying to stay focus
Sleepless with a heart that has a thousand things to say
Wishing to come back home & desperately trying to find a way

It pains me when I think about it
The love I once had & how I’m lost without it
Used to be that match made but things changed
Your heart was falling but I desperately made the save
I can’t lie, I’m still partially in love with you
Still wishing I could share another moment with you
What you see in me? I’ll never know the reason
And if you told me, I probably wouldn’t believe it
I miss the reason I smiled & the days I heard your voice
Taking me into a daze & how it made me rejoice
Miss seeing myself in your eyes & knowing why you smiled
But it’s heartbreaking to take in that you haven’t smiled in a while
We both made our mistakes, why the fighting?
We both know you love me, what’s there to be deciding?
You love me & I love you yet we’re drifting apart
While still holding to our hearts before it gets torn apart
These tears I cry for you make me hate everything that went down
Our happy days are no more, our love only seems to frown
I brought us up, failing to realize the sound
Of us moving separately & here we are now
Can’t really be friends when you still have my heart
Can’t find a new inspiration when you’re the passion of my art
You give me the oxygen I need when I can’t breathe
The lullaby to my soul whenever I can’t sleep
The comfort I feel whenever I feel lonely
Why make me move on when you’re my one & only
That smile I miss, those lips I used to kiss
The happiness that guided me & the feeling that I miss
We can’t be just be friends when you mean so much more
Hurts to be friends with someone that my soul adores

Message to those that knew me before the ending
Back when you claimed me as a friend but all things have an ending
I want you to think about all the times you took me for granted
Before you turned on me & soon after I was abandoned
Now that I’m gone, I don’t want the guilt to eat you alive
Instead, think about the pain you caused & how I survived
Dead & gone, don’t you cry
I’m in the sky, say good bye
You made the choice, no regrets
I’m gone now, don’t pay respects
Did me wrong, I didn’t deserve it
I made mistakes, I’m not perfect
Accept your actions, it was on purpose
Thank you for making me feel worthless

Every time I give “us” a chance, you make me walk away
I can’t trust someone who’s never there to make my day
All we do is fuss but yet I refuse to quit on you
Still I care & have yet to give up on you
Are we best friends or strangers with stale feelings?
Got me listening to sad songs & staring up at the ceiling
You said you’d always be there for me but you’re always missing
I constantly question your reasons & I kept entertaining the excuses given
Guess falling outta love was meant for us, who knew?
Should’ve known it was end now I gotta deal with losing you
Gave you more chances than you deserved, my mistake
Still you took me for granted & I drowned in self hate
Asking myself what I did to deserve what you gave me
Gave you everything but your love was incomplete & lazy
We both broke my heart, but I did the most trying to love you
Cause I saw myself clearly from your point of view
What’s meant to be is meant to be & you wasn’t meant for me
Now I see the picture clear, you were never there for me
Fell outta love with a dream but I guess this our destiny

I know you suffer more dark days than sunshine
I know things seem to get worse over time
I know your heart seems to get broken all the time
But smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for the dark days won’t last forever
Smile for the pain will make you better
Smile for you’re remarkable beyond measure
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for those tears will soon stop flowing
Smile for your presence that’ll soon start glowing
Smile for the end is nowhere in sight
Smile for your future is bright
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile, you’re worth more than you realize
Smile, wipe those tears from your eyes
Smile, though your heart’s been brutalized
Smile little Miss Sunshine

If I had only one wish for today
It’d be to talk to you & pray
Ask God to guide through your storm
Heal your heart for good so you’ll never again mourn

Take your life back to what it used to be
Where you used to smile & live stress free
Relive those days that mattered the most
Remove your fears of anyone getting close

Cure you from the heartbreaks you’ve obtained
Eliminate the suffering caused from the pain
Show you the Queen you are when you look in the mirror
Paint the perfect picture so the image is clearer

For every tear you’ve shed, I apologize
For those who didn’t love you truly
A rare heart that only one can identify
Those who tore you apart & made you blind to your beauty
Take away the hurt suffered so you no longer have to cry

As you grow up into a lady, it’s my job to teach you the right lessons
How to carry yourself in a respective direction & grow into perfection
I never had my father around, but you won’t know what that’s like
Cause I’m gonna be there way before you arrive & so those tears I won’t have to wipe
I want you to look at your mother, see what being a Woman really means
How to respect yourself & never let a man treat you like you don’t have any dignity
You’ll always be my baby girl, nothing in this world could ever replace that
Always look to the future, don’t you ever for a second look back
You’re gonna meet guys in your life that’s gonna try to break your heart
Do whatever they can to come around & tear you apart
But I’m gonna teach you how to stand strong when life tries to trip you
You’re amazing beyond measure, don’t let a man treat you like you’re see through
The only acceptance you need is from you, that's true indeed
Never let your crown tilt over & never let a man break what you inspire to be
Baby Girl you’re a blessing & I refuse to let a man treat you any less
You got your whole life ahead of you, don’t let these boys cause you any stress
I’m gonna direct in the right path so you’ll never be misleaded
Teach you how to read the fine print, looks can be very deceiving
Never stoop low & use your body just to get attention
If he can’t see you for what you are then that’s a blessing that he’s missing
You’re a Queen in your own right, don’t tolerate bs from no clown
Cause all you need is yourself, you don’t need a man to hold you down

Dear Ambitious Girl, your ambition drives me crazy
And I’m thinking to myself, how can one not want to pursue this lady?
My main interest in you is to not stay with you or lay with you
Just trying to know the woman on the inside, what makes you beautiful?
I see your desires & your drive, I wanna make love to it
Support your dreams & biggest goals in life, your confidence I’ll produce it
I’ve dated in many in the past who just accused me of trying to smash
Comparing me to the **** boys they’ve dated of how they’d hit it & dash
And I know plenty of women who only care for the materialistic things
Looking for the cash in my pocket & the joy of what the luxury life brings
I had many to question why I was pursuing so hard to look deep within
Not realizing why I was seeking the inner beauty that would interest me to be a friend
Excuse me for trying to know the woman within that makes you unique
But I could be the average man who mainly wants to get you under the sheets
Tell me when you’re busy so I won’t cause a disturbance
I see you working for your dreams & I want you to flourish
I know plenty will try to knock you down cause you’re in a different lane
Judging you for trying to be great & they’re all the same
I wanna fall in love with what you do & be right there to support you
Treat a Queen like who she is, take a bow right before you
You ask what inspires my interest, it’s the grind & your intelligence
Rare existing elegance & your mentality which possesses many outstanding elements
I’m interested in the person you are but I already love the queen you’re trying to be
The type of Queen who doesn’t need a man for anything but his time & honesty
I know you’d rather be great then to chase after some man
Or try to win a man over even though your values he won’t understand
Dear Ambitious Girl, I know you’re working for Perfection & I salute you
Keep grinding for greatness & when the time’s right, I’ll finally meet you
A Heart of Gold I have yet to possess while others do nothing but amuse you
And in the meantime, I hope this open letter completely moves you

I see you falling head over heels for a man that’s not me
Feeling my heart shattered to pieces cause your love doesn’t want me
Ring finger glowing & you’re scared to be honest with me
You’re moving on to someone else, I guess you’re done with me
Thinking about it now, I know it’s a waste to say
That I should’ve loved you better but my pride got in the way
I realize this is the end & there’s no fixing what’s broken
Gotta take the high road & deal with these depressing emotions
The truth still remains that I love you more than you’ll ever know
But I hate the fact that I’m forced to let go
Heart’s breaking even more, the one I love no longer loves me
And the thought of you saying I Do to someone else just stuns me
Although our journey has come to an end
I just wanna see you happy & a new life begin
I won’t lie, I’m losing focus knowing you’re comfortable without me
My love made you feel incomplete, quality was very lousy
We used to be inseparable but things have sadly changed
Went from being a fairytale to being overly deranged
Does he hold like he never wants to let you go?
Does he kiss like he’s ready to feel that love flow?
If I had one wish then the old days would be gone
And we’d be in love once more where we originally begun
Miss your kiss, miss your touch, now it belongs to someone else
But I’ll see you around & hopefully there’s still a little love left

What you know about sleepless nights cause you brains have dispersed?
Getting back time & interest that will never be reimbursed
Keep running into roadblocks everywhere I turn
Having interest in these women but never getting the same love in return
What’s the use of trying to find something different when it doesn’t exist?
When every female you meet, there’s no loyalty that consist
She believes she’s special when she ends up in my bed
Feeling on top of the world due to something that I said
Are you still gonna ride even when things get tough?
Are you really about that life? Is your love the one I can trust?
Trying to be a better man but I’m battling bad habits
Hard to be faithful when the loyalty is absent
Back & forth with my emotions, some days I don’t care if you’re mine
The sad reality is that I’m loving you blind
Dealing with a heart that’s mentally unstable
Not ready to love you & I know you feel the betrayal
Who can love you better than me? I won’t lie
Let the gun go baby, I don’t wanna see this love die
Here we go again. Why can’t you let it go? I don’t wanna fight anymore
Why can’t you let it go? Just want this love to be restored

You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for
You don’t understand why I tend to push away before
Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry
Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away
I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close
Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed
I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me
Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me
I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing
Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving
I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions
Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions
I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time
Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine
Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly
Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly
Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience
Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious
I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted
Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying to manage
I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it
How can one put up with so much & still not lose it?
I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on
Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on

I know there’s a woman out there right now crying her eyes out
Gave her all to a fool & he just let her down
I know she gotta be feeling like she’ll never be good enough
Like she’ll never meet a man that’s loyal enough
Another sleepless night, another case of deja vu
Thinking what she did to deserve the pain he put her through
She never had real love, only met fools who wanted her goodies
Pretending to be a King when he’s only sweet talking to get her cookies
Here we go once again, your heart suffered another tragedy
Getting shot down by love again, facing another sad reality
I can hear your heart crying & it makes me cry when I listen
Hearing the things it’s experiencing & steady thinking something’s missing
You wanna be loved but *** seems like the only thing that we really seek
Feeding you a bunch of lies & never practice what we preach
I know you must feel like it’s end of the world & you’re single forever
But somebody’s gonna love day & treat you 10x better
I know you’re tired of the games that us men are always running
Beating around the bush fronting like we don’t want nothing
I hear those tears you cry, that’s I wrote this letter
Somebody’s gonna love you one day & become your Forever
Every mistake in love has a lesson to teach
This clowns aren’t the one for you, that’s why they got impeached
Somebody’s gonna love you, just gonna take time before you find em
Loving you isn’t gonna easy but you gotta take the time to guide em
I know you feel like you ain’t good enough & that I understand
You’re mixed up in a society where there’s more players than man
So used to the clowns that a real man just might scare you
All these lessons love’s teaching you are only gonna prepare you
For when you finally meet the one then your world begins to light up
Love is getting your perfect match ready so please never give up
Somebody’s gonna love you & I know that’s hard to believe
But when the right one comes, no matter how hard loving you may seem, they’ll never leave

I’m not sure where things went wrong or how it went sour
I was just simply doing my best to adore this forever abandoned flower
A heart that’s been destroyed for too long & didn’t know what love is
And my only mission was to prove that real love in fact still exists
Just like any other love story, it started out with fireworks & laughter
Beautiful moments shared that a picture could never perfectly capture
Long talks on the phone & long paragraphs to wake up to
Thinking I finally got a love that’s worth looking forward to
Telling me all these things you feared & how you were taking a risk
Falling in love with me but thinking you’re gonna get hurt just as quick
One night things went south after an argument & I said something bad
Thinking nothing of it at the time but it made you incredibly mad
I’m constantly trying to apologize but you refuse to hear me out
Saying it’s gonna be okay & I had nothing to worry about
The next day rolls in but I’m not getting the same attention as before
I see you reading my messages but you only seemed to ignore
Having this big discussion on what I did wrong yet I tried to make it right
Knowing that sometime soon, I’d have to pay a price
Fast forward a year in time & you’re now seeing other men
The same dogs you talked to before but their love is only for pretend
Got me thinking to myself that I’m not even worth your time no more
But a dog came along & make you cherish him more
You feared me walking outta your life yet I stayed just to prove a point
But you walked away from what we had & I bet you even rejoiced
Posting all these love quotes on social media but you set yourself up
Fell for the same types you hated, now you’re all fed up
Had someone to ride for you but you paid them no attention
Looking for love thru the trash & their hearts was missing
I still see the pain in your eyes but I don’t even bother to fix it
Seeing your heart so cold & lonely but I refuse to pay a visit
You did the same thing you asked me not to do yet I’m the villain
Still trying to love your heart no matter its condition
You walked away from us, you did the opposite of what you promised
Torn by you but my heart was still trying to make a deposit

Sometimes I was the one responsible for your tears
Sometimes you were responsible for my tears
Sometimes I was the blame for the pain you suffered
Sometimes you were the blame for the love that was never discovered
I wish you were the one losing sleep over the love you lost
I wish you were the one losing focus to what was more than a thought
I’m the one who’s supposed to cry, I’m the one who’s supposed to be broken
You wanted Foreverness, I gave you eternality
Tried building us up but you pulled us down like gravity
You’re bringing up mistakes I made to tarnish what we established
Trying to perfect a game plan that was never practiced
We put each other in this space to which we don’t wanna be
I was hoping to marry your love but you didn’t see a future with me
From blowing each other up to missed calls & unread texts
Pushing you away due to a broken heart that I’m trying to protect
You didn’t trust someone like me, I was too good to be true
I’m watching you walk away while falling deeper in love with you
I wish you could believe me when I say crying isn’t easy to do
Especially when the tears I shed are because of you

We’ve all said it before, gave love the ******* after being shattered
Fell for someone & got treated like we didn’t even matter
Has love become tainted or is it just that we’re falling for the wrong people
Giving our hearts & taking that risk to feel another heartbroken sequel
Is Love really the blame for the pain or should we blame those who we’ve tried to love?
Blame Love or blame the wrong candidates for the cold hearted savages that we’ve become
Do we blame love for breaking our hearts & making us not want it anymore?
Replacing our hearts with an ice box & preventing anyone who attempts to explore
Confusing love with someone who wasn’t intending to love us
Confusing love with someone was only looking to use & destroy us
Do we really blame Love for making us feel incomplete
Do we really blame Love for our hearts’ tragic defeat
Is it really Love that we hate or those who’ve torn us apart
Is it Love that we hate or those who’ve destroyed our hearts
Love’s not the blame for the pain you’ve experienced, it’s those who didn’t deserve you
Don’t say “**** Love”, say **** those who’ve came around only to hurt you

Here we go again, you crying your eyes out historically
So caught on that old love’s drug that you refuse recovery
You know what’s waiting for you at the end but still proceed
Praying for a different outcome & the change that you believe
Your actions were see through, they didn’t see how much you were down
In the end, they just ended up making you out to be a fool
You fell deep in love yesterday & today you’re dying from a tragedy
Fighting for as long as you can while suffering from a mental brutality
This love’s gotta hold on you & you just can’t seem to break free
In love with someone who’s love is playing the perfect absentee
Suffering from a shot to the heart, their love had a hit out on you
Their love is no good for you but you can’t leave, their love won’t allow you to
How come you’re having a hard time leaving but they left so easily
Attached to a love that’s not loving you equally
Under that’s love curse but unable to be set free
Fell in love yesterday but today, you’re resting in peace

Poetic Venom

I admire you for having a huge heart, it takes a lot of courage
I just wonder how you’re able to bounce back without being discouraged
Been cheating on countless times & it never seems to get better
Just attached to another fool who swears he’s gonna treat you better
Lied to more times than you can count, looking like a fool in the end
Still holding on although loving you is not what they intend
Gotten attached but still managed to be left aside for someone else
Tried giving your heart but it always seems to fail
Riding the wave of being in love only to be dropped without explanations
You wanting to make things work but there’s a lack of communication
Here you are now, still trying to love as if none of that ever occurred
Still trying to fall in love even if the same type of love isn’t being returned
I know you ask yourself if it’s something that you maybe missing
Crying your long nights away being sleepless & reminiscing
Do you not fear the same thing happening once more?
Feeling a little empty & sometimes wishing you could’ve done more?
I know it must take a lot for someone to love again & fear being hurt
Be treated for less than what they truly deserve
Don’t you fear those tears falling again or a repeat of your heart breaking?
To make someone your one & only but your heart ends up being forsaking?
Still trying to love as if that heart break wasn’t devastating
Never wanting to be alone & eager to love although your heart’s still rehabilitating
For you to still wanna be someone’s all, just know that I salute you
And I strongly apologize for all those whose love didn’t nothing but abuse you

Poetic Venom

She blamed herself for loving you so much, but she couldn’t help it
Here she is fighting for what she loved while you made your way to the exit
Day in & day out you saying you loved her but never showed her
Just using her for the time being & chasing some peasant below her
She searched for the answers in her head but none appeared valid
Forced to play the deck of cards that she was handed
Maybe she loved you too much or maybe she didn’t love you enough
You had everything you ever dreamed of but you gave it all up
How can you possibly love her but trying to get attached to someone else
I bet she doesn’t even know that your heart is attached to someone else
She could be petty & message her everything that was said to her
How you wanted her love but would soon look right thru her
All those days you spent preaching about how you were different
And she took the blame for your fallout although she was innocent
Reading messages on her phone of how much you wanted it to last
Only to end up reminding her of a heart breaking past
You’re one hell of an actor, pretending to love her for all this time
Was probably mapping out since Day 1 how to carry out the perfect crime
Gassed her up to trust you just for you to strike at the perfect moment
Draw her attention to something else & lose her real focus
You said you loved her but still left her, she thanks you for the betrayal
Another shot to her already wounded heart but this time, it’s severely fatal
She's lost my faith in love & it’s all because of you, greatly appreciate it
The damage you caused to her heart was beyond excruciating

Poetic Venom

Tell me where things went left, we’re supposed to be happy
Tried fighting for it but it’s going downhill sadly
Although we may need to part ways, my heart won’t let you go
Still deep down, I feel like this love could possibly grow
We’ve had our ups & downs but still I fight to keep this love alive
Sometimes, it’s just best to sit back & let time decide
It’s never a right time to say goodbye but I might have to
I see all of those good times & it’s something I wanna go back to
I haven’t lost faith in this love but maybe I should let go for a minute
Maybe we’ll meet again down the road, I’m sure this love hasn’t reached it’s limit
I gotta make a decision soon cause if I don’t then we’ll eventually get detached
We were flying high but unexpectedly, everything crashed
I listened to my heart & it told me it was time to leave
The pain I’m feeling within, it just can’t be relieved
I don’t want you to think it’s someone else, I just need some space
For me to gather my thoughts & get my head back in the right place
Stressed out & unable to think straight, mentally I’m losing it
Requesting my heart back for a while, tired of people misusing it
No love lost between us, this is what’s best for us both
And we never know, maybe this time apart will later bring us close
I don’t wanna break from this love & I don’t wanna walk away from us
And it hurts me to depart cause deep down, I indescribably love us

-Poetic Venom

We all wanna be Free from pain & Free from hell
Free from the sadness & Free from that mental jail
Free from depression & Free from the Anger
Free from the fears & Free from self danger
Free from the one thing we run from the most
Free from self destruction & hurting those we love most
What’s the price from freedom? What are the steps to be taken?
How much can be build up before one begins to lose patience?
What’s the destination to freedom? Is it worth being free?
If the truth lies within existence, how long before they begin to see?
Free every Lost Soul from themselves & from the harm they’ve endured
Reveal the light & show them a new world that’s waiting to be explored
Do you wanna Free or forever exist within the pain that traps you?
Do you seek Happiness or forever remain with the hell you’re attached to?
Seek Freedom or remain a slave to what you’re afraid to depart from
Be Free from the chains on your life or continue to be controlled by the mind
Be Free or forever pay the price for the same uncommitted crime
Slaves to the mind, slaves to that addiction, & slaves to the pain
Suffering the most due to commitment & it’s ourselves that we blame
What’s Freedom? How long does it take one to find it?
Silence speaks very clear for the scars that rest behind it
Just wanna be Free, free from everything that you’ve been running from your whole life
And if Freedom is really what they make it out to be, is there a sacrifice?

We all wanna be Free from pain & Free from hell
Free from the sadness & Free from that mental jail
Free from depression & Free from the Anger
Free from the fears & Free from self danger
Free from the one thing we run from the most
Free from self destruction & hurting those we love most
What’s the price from freedom? What are the steps to be taken?
How much can be build up before one begins to lose patience?
What’s the destination to freedom? Is it worth being free?
If the truth lies within existence, how long before they begin to see?
Free every Lost Soul from themselves & from the harm they’ve endured
Reveal the light & show them a new world that’s waiting to be explored
Do you wanna Free or forever exist within the pain that traps you?
Do you seek Happiness or forever remain with the hell you’re attached to?
Seek Freedom or remain a slave to what you’re afraid to depart from
Be Free from the chains on your life or continue to be controlled by the mind
Be Free or forever pay the price for the same uncommitted crime
Slaves to the mind, slaves to that addiction, & slaves to the pain
Suffering the most due to commitment & it’s ourselves that we blame
What’s Freedom? How long does it take one to find it?
Silence speaks very clear for the scars that rest behind it
Just wanna be Free, free from everything that you’ve been running from your whole life
And if Freedom is really what they make it out to be, is there a sacrifice?

It’s crazy how the one thing we used to desire is now something we fear
And every time we get a taste of it, things begin to disappear
Can’t get attached to anything cause it’ll eventually drift away
Trying to see the good in people but everyone’s not who they betray
We fear Happiness due to things going bad after a while
So destroyed from the let downs that we pretend to be cool & fake a smile
Crying became a perfected routine & trying doesn’t work anymore
You just wanna know what can be done so you don’t hurt anymore
Anytime you see the light to a better day, you stray away from it
Happiness caused more pain so you easily fall back from it
High expectations always lead to severe disappointments
Push anything away that gets too close, you don’t wanna risk trying enjoy it
Fearing Happiness the most, who knew it would cause so much pain
Suffering from a shattered heart & coping with the pieces that remain

Conversations with a young lady about how she was disappointed
How she kept falling in love but she felt her heart being avoided
She told me how she felt like she never be good enough to be admired
How she’ll never be the Queen that a man’s heart would desire
She started telling me how she felt like every guy was the same
Like every man alive were all built the same way, playing the same game
I began to ask her about her preference & what mainly attracts her
And her preference described how she kept rereading the same chapter
I proceeded to break it down how she was dating the same guy
With a different face & they were all designed to smash & say goodbye
Took me 15 minutes to illustrate how her taste in men was the issue
Your bad taste in guys is why every love does nothing but dismiss you
You’re digging thru the same garbage looking for a treasure that’ll never appear
And that results in all your setbacks that enhances your fear
I asked her if she ever thought about dating someone that’s not her type
Instead of falling for the same clown who’s love is unripe
You’re saying you’ll never be good be enough & that’s true
Can’t be good enough for someone who doesn’t deserve you
Same sermon, different preacher is what she replied back
Asking why everyone she knows was saying that
Told her to listen to the advice for once or she’ll always be broken
Soon after, her silence was very loudly spoken
Can’t be good enough for someone who isn’t your meant to be
Stay single, stop searching, & set your heart free

I took the time to analyze the one I always pay no attention to
The one thing I’m sometimes forced to face but never willing to
Always being provided the obvious hints but they over my head
Always trying to make something work when I should fall back instead
Months ago, I met someone who was trying to avoid being loved
Being afraid to love again & I felt like I was suffering her grudge
She’s been thru a lot & I can understand where she’s coming from
Been hurt by men & loved ones so her heart became numb
Just like the ones before her, I asked what was her intentions
Like the ones in the past, it’s always something they forget to mention
I just wanted to make sure we were on the same page
Didn’t wanna look crazy if I asked for our time to be exchanged
She confirmed that we could talk but something still wasn’t clicking
Maybe she had other options besides me that she was picking
Deep down I was starting to feel like I was an option
So I thought about it for a second then proceeded with caution
Tried to be the opposite of what she was used to but still had my doubts
Mapping out the perfect path & wisely choosing my routes
As time began to progress, I started asking for more questions
But didn’t bring to her attention cause I couldn’t face the confession
I’m feeling like there’s someone else & she refuses to advise me
I had this feeling that at some point, something would surprise me
A few days later, I saw something that set me off
Another one bites the dust & another one suffers a lost
Just as I suspected, she’s attached to someone else
But luckily I let go so there’s heartbreak to felt
I guess she wanted the best thing & unfortunately, I wasn’t him
And deep down I still wish that it was me instead him

When you met me, I guess it was kinda like dreams becoming reality
Falling hard over my ways even tho we’re not near each other locality
You were used to those guys who played these games
Then met me on accident then everything suddenly changed
In my mind, I was afraid it wouldn’t get anywhere so I backed up
Started to focus more on me & trying to get my stacks up
Nevertheless, I was still giving you most of my attention
Spending hours on the phone like I wanted but still, something was missing
I began questioning myself like it wasn’t really me that you desired
Like I was missing a key element that your love truly required
We both been thru the worst so I hope you don’t blame me for my decision
Your heart tried talking to me but my ego wouldn’t let me listen
Trying not to be like the rest but didn’t wanna be fooled either
Tried pushing you away but you insisted on falling even deeper
I guess the saying is true, you’ll lose something before you appreciate it
I acted like someone I didn’t recognize & now I really hate it
I wanna right my wrongs but now, I know it’s too late
I may never have you again but I still care of whether your heart is safe
If there is a way to right my wrongs, fill me in
Deep down, you’re still a blessing that I’m once again trying to win
I’m a fool & stupid for letting you go then watching you leave
You tried showing me something different but I was in disbelief
Time will tell down the road if this becomes what it was supposed to be
But until that time arrives, I’m forced to sit back & watch you fly

Tomorrow Might Be Too Late for you to say that I mean the world to you
Spent almost all of my days being completely see though
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late to tell me how much you love me
But it feels like all you ever do is ignore me
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late to tell me that you care about me
Constantly making me feel like you’re better off without me
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late to start confessing your true feelings
Don’t waste time trying to give my spirit its proper healing
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late & I’ll be gone outta your life for good
Feelings were well painted but I remain highly misunderstood

Tell me why I sense so much sadness & not enough joy?
Seems like your self confidence went down since your heart's been destroyed.
When's the last time you've smiled or appreciated what God created?
What's that one thing about yourself that you look in the mirror & immediately just hate it?
Tell me what's the missing ingredient that seems to be lost.
I know you probably think things will never get better cause you always seem to take a lost.
Lady in the Mirror, you gotta gift & your presence is special.
Your flaws don't define you & your imperfections are just a distraction from the disguise.
You can tell a lot about yourself just by looking into your own disguise.
Don't be afraid to smile or be happy, it's been a long time coming.
Accept the gift that God's been working on, he's definitely up to something.
Many may not appreciate it but to a few, it means the world & more.
Lift your head up & be strong, your true value is never ignored.
I want you to smile, you deserve to after shedding so many tears.
Even if you don't hear it very often, I hope it means the world to you.
My goal is to make you smile in a huge way maybe because you deserve to.
Your insecurities may not allow you to see it but thru it all, you're uniquely beautiful.
So smile simply, you don't know who it inspires or how much it means to someone that thinks highly of you.
Someone that sees your happiness as a blessing

You Say You Love Her but you never take the time out to show her off
You maybe willing to give her love but at what cost?
You Say You Love Her but you still mess with other women for pleasure
Lying saying you single thinking you can find something better
You Say You Love Her but you make her feel so alone
Always calling her out for mistakes but you can’t do no wrong
You Say You Love Her but she feels insecure all the time
Making her feel like she’s worthless & always keep her crying
You Say You Love Her but you spend more time with your homies
She says she’s fine but in reality, she’s tired of feeling so lonely
You Say You Love Her but you only think of her whenever you want to feel her
She tries so hard to make you happy but you do nothing but **** her
You Say You Love Her but treat her ugly & hate any man who tries to cheer her up
She knows you’re no good for her but she still doesn’t wanna give up
You Say You Love Her but you hide things from her that makes her suspect you’re cheating
She still sees the good in you even though your love is wrong & deceiving
You Say You Love Her but you do nothing to keep her & refuse to let her leave
You’re the one doing wrong & you’re the only one that she’s desperately trying to please
You Say You Love Her but these one night stands & side hoes get your main attention
And you still fail to realize the blessing right in front of you & see what you’re missing

I see you cry all the time & it’s always over a man
Over him only thinking of himself & how he doesn’t understand
A man will be a man & he’ll do whatever he chooses to
If you allow him to mistreat & underappreciates you
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry over a man won’t wipe away the tears
Too Precious to chase after a fool that’ll only reestablish your fears
What I’m saying may go over your head & that’s perfectly fine
Just trying to bring out the smile that you want instead of seeing you cry
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry, you gotta realize that you’re a Blessing
To the right King whose love will truly be worth sharing
Sometimes we face more heart breaks before we meet our Dream Come True
And that moment will make us realize that it was worth what we’ve been through
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry, everyone we meet isn’t always meant to be
Can’t force a fool to see our worth when it’s already obvious to see
I can tell you that you’re a Queen but inside, I know you must feel like a fool
Giving it all you got just to see the love you want conclude
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry, dry your eyes & never let a boy **** your spirit
Trying to fall in love with a fool who mainly wanted to get explicit
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry & one day, every heartbreak will reform its pieces
And that day you’ll experience true happiness & your True Love will burn those traumatizing bridges

Here I am once again, drinking my life away to this bottle
Lost in my feelings & writing my feelings in this novel
Thinking about the times we once shared & how I miss em
Thinking about those sweet lips & how I used to kiss em
I see you dating someone else now, I’m happy to see you smile
But I can’t ignore that you haven’t truly been happy in a while
I know you gotta miss those days, I see you creeping on my timeline
So busy with your new love, I don’t see how you manage to find time
Catch you sliding in my inbox every blue moon
Saying you’re in love with him but I guess it came way too soon
Can’t even focus on myself when I’m thinking about you
Getting bored being lonely & telling chicks to slide thru
I’m just smashing outta anger & sadly seeking vengeance
Dealing with a broken heart, how did I get in this?
Still in love with someone that chose to walk away
And I’m thinking she’ll return so every day I pray
What the hell went wrong with us? I can’t find the answer
Making love was music to my ears & you were my ***** dancer
Seeing you with that man & I know he can never be me
Trying to replace a one in a million, not to be cocky
And that last statement is true cause you prove all the time
Lowkey begging to rekindle our love when you forced it to resign
Yea I miss those days too but deep down, I question if it’s worth it
I don’t have to ask about your feelings, your actions always show it
Thinking if I’d still give you my heart even after you’ve burned it
Heart’s still crying out for you, I hope you heard it

I’ve been doing laps in my head trying to figure out this mystery
Trying to figure out the meaning behind the misery
I’m lost as to what women want or what they desire
What makes them happy & what their hearts require
Most would say that they want a real man but is that the case?
Some get the heart of a real man & still get it misplaced
Help me understand the logic. Women wanting something real is kinda ironic
Ignoring a real man but fall in the arms of the male ******
You hear it all the time, “All Guys are the Same”
Blaming us all for their mistakes falling for different players of the same game
What Do Women Want? Is it happiness or heartbreak?
Will they truly appreciate a King or forever preach how love is fake
They say we all hunt for *** & I ask myself how is that true
When there’s tons of Kings that are willing to marry you
Some dig thru the same trash hoping for a different conclusion
Fighting for something that won’t bring a real solution
What Do Women Want? To be loved or just used for the time being
Fall for the same fool or exist within a fantasy world dreaming
What Do Women Want? To be treated like a Queen or look like a fool
Try telling them about their poor taste in men & they choose to dispute
What Do Women Want? An unsolved mystery that’ll never see a solution
Just many women making poor decisions & stating the same claim that can never be proven

Ladies, I have a question. Maybe you can help me understand
How y’all claim to be heartless but lowkey desiring a man
I get that you’re paranoid & tired of being heartbroken
Dismissing every man that approaches you asking your heart to open
Not gonna argue with your reasons, in fact I agree
But in a bunch of phonies, there’s always a King looking for that key
So used to peasants that you can’t recognize a real one in your presence
All you know is hurt so you curve any man even if he’s not your preference
Thinking every guy is full of himself & do what the last man did
Making every man suffer from the mistakes of the previous man’s bid
During the day, you front the mask of savage just to keep guys away
But at night you’re in your feelings wishing a man would love you the right way
Seeing other girls cuffed up & inside it makes you jealous
Cause you wanna be loved even tho you front to be careless
Pretending to be a savage? Please, stop the charade
Still attached to that infamous broken record & it’s devastating serenade
False savages protecting something like it’ll forever be shattered
Never wanting to love again like every man’s love comes with a hazard
Stopping playing the savage, we all know you want true love
Not saying you shouldn’t protect your heart but don’t every man pay for the mistakes of your last love
Love can be beautiful once you meet the perfect one that defines it
Your heart will feel like a treasure once the right one finds it
If you go as hard for a King as you do for a peasant, Love will be a Blessing
But if you continue to impersonate a savage when you lowkey wanna be love then your nights will forever be depressing

I try so hard to be the man that I was raised to be
But it’s the efforts that go unnoticed & it amazes me
I used to question myself like I was the one who wasn’t doing right
Trying to please the one I love but all she wants to do is fight
If I’m loyal to you, why feel jealous of those around me?
Why feel some type of way of the females that surrounds me?
It’s clear what my intentions yet you ignore the obvious
But if I walk away then you’ll feel just like the previous
You can’t be so used to a fraud that you can’t appreciate the real
Then get mad at me once I begin to tell you how I feel
My back against the wall, I’m frustrated, & can’t even think straight
Stressed out & you’re just adding more unwanted stress on my plate
Giving you everything any female would want but how much more can I give?
And being that I don’t wanna leave, I move on & forgive
I can’t win for losing, can’t move forward without being bumped back
Either the ending is near or we’ll get better, I refuse to go back
What would you do if I decide to walk away & find better?
How would you react if you saw another female treating me better?
I can’t be your Dream Come True if you’re too treating me like your past lovers
Feeling like I’m about to lose it & the only person I can talk to is my brother
I’m trying to move up but you bring me back down like gravity
This so called thing we have is slowly becoming another tragedy
If you wanna love me then let it beautiful, not another regret
You should be making me smile every chance you get, not making me upset
Where are we headed? What lies at the end of this destination?
Is it gonna be sunshine & dandelions or will it lead to our separation?

Things aren’t the same between us, I don’t know what changed
No need to talk about it, this trouble can’t be saved
I’ll be okay, just drifting away from who I loved most
Falling back & taking my love from the one I loved most
You’re a stranger in my eyes now, don’t even look at you the same
Non stop tears & broken hearts, guess we’re the blame
Never thought I’d fall outta love but here I am saying goodbye
Letting go of what my heart became attached to before I let it die
I don’t wanna walk away but it’s best for us both
Feeling like a joke & your laughter played the host
Tried to fix what’s damaged but it made things worst
Don’t wanna see you cry no more when I’m believed to be the reason
Look into the mirror & look at us, that’s the reason I’m leaving
I fell outta love from the love of a lifetime
Deuces to the love I once dreamed of, this is my final farewell this time

Fraud happiness, can no longer pretend
Alone in this world, no real friends
Living within a dream, can’t wake up
Giving in to life, no way for a shape up
Losing balance with thyself, no living purpose
Demolished by close ones, everlasting feeling worthless
See into your soul, how can one be this empty
Trying to move on but death is tempting
Rivers cried, pain overbearing
Existence died, life over whelming
Eyes open outside, soul’s dead asleep within
Unable to understand, most impossible to convince
Nothing without you, the lifeline for my heart beat
Lost for so long, awaiting the perfect eye to see

U N I T Y

When I turn on my TV, I only see one thing
Marches & rants from people as they let their voices sang
A world growing separately & divided by what’s right & wrong
A nation no longer united & a home where some feel others don’t belong
They want to make America Great Again but how can they achieve it?
Some think this country is theirs & they actually believe it
Feel like the world’s coming to an end & we’re at war with ourselves
A president full of himself, having a fit with the plans he’s trying to excel
Are we the United States of America or the Divided States, I’m confused
I’m seeing whites going on rants & cops pursuing the laws that they abuse
How is it Justice for All if cops aren’t punished for their wrong doing?
Worried about “*******” but not terrorism shootings
If we’re United as One, why do some of us hold on the past?
Trying to create a better future but too busy reliving the past
World’s falling apart within society due to racial tension
Debates about the protests’ but most fail to realize the meaning
Refer to the Black Lives Matter movement as “terrorist” or “thugs”
When all they see is groups of people of different races seeking justice
If practicing our rights as Americans is wrong, show us what’s right
I guess it’s only acceptable if your skin is indeed white
Taking offense to Colin Kaepernick all for taking a knee
Just because he’s voicing his right in the Land of the Free
All I wanna see is Unity for All, regardless of the race
A country with love for each other, not a country divided by hate
Unity for All, skin color shouldn’t matter
I wanna see a Nation growing stronger instead a Nation dying faster

I used to get high to get over you, drinking just to **** the pain
Crying my nights away, my tears became the rain
Smiling on the outside but falling apart on the inside
Laughing like I’m okay but the obvious I couldn’t hide
I hated the thought of you but always ran back to it
Holding on to what was no more making myself look stupid
How could one person make me feel this empty again?
Gave her everything in me & still it was a battle I couldn’t win
Wanted to fix things but you made it obvious that it was too late
Thoughts of you every day, heavy tears on display
Tearing myself apart & desperately trying to end my days
I needed you to show me something but didn’t
So I chose to drink to **** your memories & say good riddance
Haven’t been that depressed since 2009 & feared this deja vu
Felt so attached to someone whose love seemed so true
Wanted to be more than your King & more than your dream come true
More than a fantasy & more than someone who means the world to you
Taking away the love of my life caused me to lose control
Falling off track & allowing the poison to please my soul
So much hate towards you trying to destroy any memory of you
Just allowing the hell within to **** the very thought of you

There you are again, sitting by the window crying with the rain
Gave your everything once again & feeling that never ending pain
Doubting yourself & feeling like you’re not good enough
Although you gave your all & it didn’t seem to be good enough
Heart shattered again singing that same melody
Wanting to try harder but love doesn’t have the perfect remedy
Can’t win for losing so you question what it is that you’re doing wrong
Every time you bounce back, your heart gets placed back to where it doesn’t belong
It’s those same rehearsed tears that’s had one too many encores
And a severely wounded heart that continues to get knocked off its course
Eager to give up, say “**** it” once & for all
And I for one am tired of seeing you stand up but constantly taking a fall
Hearing your tears loud & clear but it’s heartbreaking to listen to
I just hope you don’t give up, I know True Happiness is missing you
It’s not that you’re not good enough, just haven’t met the one who deserves you
Just running into the same disguised jokes that continues to curve you
It’s like seeing the perfect image being tarnished by every presence it meets
Being used just for the moment & placed back after it’s defeat
Love’s a game of chess but it seems like no one is protecting this Queen
False advertising a world that only exist in her dreams