Man in the mirror, what can I say?
You knew it would come to this day
Feeling like a ***** up for the things you did
Out here wildin’ but somehow, still without a kid
Looking for love in all the wrong places
Trying to replace someone in all the wrong faces
You had the best thing you could ask for & blew it
How could you be so selfish & stupid
Too busy feeding your ego as well as your pride
Convincing these women you love em when it’s all lies
Funny how you despise your father but became just like him
Willing to lust over any woman that seemed to like him
You let a woman gas you up when she’s blushing from you flirting
The right one came & left but let’s be honest, you deserved it
That’s what you get when you listen to your head & not your heart
Trying to win bragging rights instead of playing the right card
But I get it tho, you ain’t used to that lust attention
Making women feel good like you’re what they’re missing
You truly went from being a King to a ******
from the perfect lover to just another man *****
You're supposed to be her Peace but her became like her past
Messing her head up just to *** her crazy then put her last
Amazing how you hurt the one woman who wasn’t full of games
then continue with your miserable life like you have no shame
The amazing Mr f up & your pride won’t let you take the blame
just giving her another reason to believe y’all are all the same
- Poetic Venom

The Beauty of Me goes deep but most men wouldn’t know where to begin
to them, I’m only a prize that they feel like they have to win
They look at the clothes I wear & the pride in my stride
or the presence so dominant & the confidence it has to provide

The Beauty of Me is more than just a cute face or curvy waist
more than just nice round hips or my physical attraction
more than just how my presence causes such a distraction
but to them, I’m mainly looked at as a one time experience of satisfaction

The Beauty of Me would be magical to the perfect King
he’ll take a look within the windows of my soul
he’ll see a Queen of Excellence whose not afraid to be alone
a Queen of a rare stature that’s strong enough to stand on her own

It’s more than the love I’m able to give or the heart I have to offer
it’s the vibe that can’t be found anywhere else
a woman who’s fearless & confident within herself
when the beauty enhancements fade, beauty will still exist
the Beauty of Me, can only come true to the perfect wish
-Poetic Venom

I’m a woman of many flaws & imperfections
often silent but never short of verbal or physical expressions
Some may tell me that I ignore my self worth
but they don’t understand how hard it is when you’ve been so hurt
To give your heart to so many, only to feel like a piece of meat
wanting to be loved, to feel secured, yet all I’ve felt was defeat
I smile to hide the pain that I’m battling inside
always left beside the road for those that I offer a ride
The Woman I am, many wouldn’t understand the storm overhead
that causes me to lose sleep when I’m tossing & turning in bed
I lose faith within myself, blaming the pain on myself
feeling unworthy & not good enough to love anyone including myself
Many say my heart is a treasure, many say my heart is gold
but I take it with a grain of salt cause that’s been the greatest lie I’ve been told
I’m a Woman of great pain, a woman who’s cry dances with the rain
a woman whose been left heart broken & played but somehow still sane
I’m a Woman of a thousand tears & each tear has its own story to tell
with a heart that’s brutally shattered from all the destruction of mans hell
-Poetic Venom

Every time I think of you, I feel this thunderstorm in my soul
trying to get move on from this tragedy but unsure where to go
When someone brings up your name, I start to lose it
you’ve had this hold on my heart & I’m struggling trying to lose it
I can’t even let my ego take over when my soul cries
knowing that someone else is enjoying your vibes
I wanted to be your everything & build us a home
but I can’t believe that I got nothing after waiting for so long
A man doesn’t settle down too often & he doesn’t do half the things I did
candle lit showers, rose petals on the floor, or even fathering another man’s child
I know I’m an amazing man but you made me feel worthless
especially after making me feel like what we had was so perfect
Can’t stand the sound of your name & it kills me knowing your face is stuck in my head
crying myself to sleep knowing I wish it was me sharing your bed
This was supposed to be my Meant to Be but I guess I’m meant to be free
free from your love, free from your vibes, free from the thought of you & me
-Poetic Venom

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Don’t you give up, don’t you give in
Don’t you lose faith, you’re due for a win
No matter the struggle, no matter the fail
Continue to be Great & you shall prevail
The Beginning & End is all in his hands
the trouble along the way, you may not understand
Every day won’t be great, every day won’t be bad
pick yourself up, dust yourself off, & get in your bag
Don’t be overwhelmed by hurt, don’t be let down by pain
learn from your hardships & let it motivate your reign
Your star will shine, your struggle will progress, you will have your time
with God’s grace, you’ll reach the finish line

-Poetic Venom

For the words I can’t say
to make your day
For the way I feel
the feelings I can’t reveal
To see you smile, to see you laugh
to request your hugs but unable to grasp
The sound of your voice that makes me warm
when I’m on your stage, you make my heart perform
My heart sings & you’re the perfect melody
if loving you is such a crime, I’m your smoothest criminal

- Poetic Venom

You’ve been hurt, broken, shattered, & abused
mistreated, left behind, dumped, & misused
Even thru your darkest days, your light shines bright
& even when you feel the weakest you still manage to fight
You are Light & you still glow when you feel so dimmed
you beat yourself down but your inner Queen still appears
The Queen you are isn’t ignored, just takes the perfect one to notice
& you are the Light that shines bright even when you’ve reached your lowest

-Poetic Venom

Every time we meet, I bless you with a kiss
you send me away with the memories reminisced
Through the sunshine or the storm
our love still comes to form
We weather the waves thru the darkness of light
still making the sweetest sound of love even thru the fight
When we rest shoreside & the sunset kisses us
but when the morning wakes us up, we see the sun beautifully miss us
Beautiful, Mysterious, Wild, & Free
the beauty of art & expression with a meaning that flows ocean deep

- Poetic Venom

2018 was one of the most emotional years from me
trying to cope with friends leaving me
Anxiety & depression got the best of me
but still God sees the best in me
I had my brother visit me in my sleep
but I don’t even know what it means
I could see his face but I couldn’t touch em
& it broke me to see em fade away after I tried to hug me
I woke in tears, feeling like I let em down
cause I’m trying to be with him even though it’s not my time go
So much anger & sadness inside of me but no one to express to
with my anxiety tells me “Dre no one cares for you”
So I spend most of my nights pacing back & forth in my room
closing my eyes hoping I’ll get that next phase soon
Mental meds & pain pills lay next to my bed so I contemplate an overdose
but who I am to take myself away from those who love me most
I see that man I’m supposed to be but becoming him is what scares me
cause the person I’m leaving just doesn’t compare to me
Some tell me to go back to my roots but those roots don’t exist me
& the family that I used to know aren’t the same folks to me
Truth is, I’m not happy but I don’t think I ever was
I’m just a sadder version of the person that the old me was
I tell my mom I’m okay cause I can’t tell her I wanna die sometimes
knowing that my heart can’t take seeing her cry
I can’t make her bury her baby boy, I’m supposed to be the soldier
I’m supposed to be the angel bringing us closer
But how can one be the one if the one is shattered
barely hanging on by a thread, feeling life ending faster
I’m a blessing to many but not even a blessing to oneself
loving everyone else more than I could ever love myself
Trying to be everyone’s hero while neglecting myself
Saving everyone else from their storms & slowly killing myself
I lost myself helping others now I’m losing everyone finding myself
I guess when it all boils down, all you ever have is yourself
If crying is the closest thing to Godliness, will it be the key to my happiness?
If I come to terms with my demons, will it cure my paranoia & sleeplessness?
I’m tired of the frustration, tired of the depression
Tired of the struggle, tired of the aggression
Tired of fake smiling, tired of not being to cry
Tired of having all the questions but no one can tell me why
Tell me why I’m eager to fly. Tell me why I’m eager to die
Tell me why I can’t find peace. Tell me why I’m act happy when it’s all a lie
A lot of enemies surround me & I can’t tell who’s actually an ally
I’m losing myself, I can no longer lie
All I ever do is fail, why must I continue to try
My tears will set me free but my pride won’t let it go
-Poetic Venom

I’m having one hell of a week before I made that drastic decision
to send a text to that one person I regret missing
Our pride won’t let us communication, at least that’s what I thought
& the ego of a man is the toughest battle a man had ever fought
Somewhere deep down, I knew the signs weren’t lying to me
but I was hoping it wasn’t what I thought it would be
It took a turn for the worst when she said she had something tell me
I knew she was leaving since it couldn’t be a pregnancy
So how do you cope with the person you love most falling for someone else
& them being too “afraid” to tell you so they keep it to themselves
It was like the Titanic hitting that iceberg & my heart was the bottom of the ship
punctured & wounded causing my soul to sink
She didn’t wanna go back to the past but you can’t go back to what never existed
so let’s be realistic, you didn’t want me but couldn’t tell me so you fed me the bullsh*t
The last woman I had faith in, the last woman I fell in love with
the only woman I made love to & the only woman I could see a future with
You met me when I was broken, fixed me up, just to leave when he came along
then to have me thinking we were going to build the home that our hearts belong
You fooled me once but I forgave you, you fooled me twice & that’s all my fault
but knowing someone could easily replace me, that’s your biggest loss
-Poetic Venom

When I’m Alone;
I shed tears because of the pain within
feeling lost without hope or a friend
thru all the adversity, trails, & tribulations
I fight as much as possible although I’m out of patience
but I refuse to break down or shed tears
cause I don’t want the sympathy or pity of my peers

When I’m Alone;
I feel the inside of me dying every day
so when the sun says good night, I drop down & pray
hoping that when tomorrow comes, I’ll be stronger
than I was the day before & I can fight a little longer
with a frozen heart, numb feelings, & deceased interest
I tend to keep many from knowing the real me so I become distant

I’m Alone;
even with a few people standing behind me
I fight this war by myself, not letting the defeats define me
Alone but not Lonely, with many who relate but don’t know me
whether it’s a friend, a female companion, or one of my homies
I shed tears in the dark but I smile when the light hits me
to hide what I’m feeling within knowing that internally, the pain & hurt is defeating me

- Poetic Venom

How do I tell someone that I’m attracted to that I’m slowly catch feelings
Not knowing if she’s happy or if the relationship is built around happy dealings
Watching her smile every day brings joy to my heart especially when it’s because of me
but there’s something in the back of my mind telling that she’ll never leave him for me
I see the things that she goes through, sometimes being stranded at work
& I come to her rescue but I can’t deny that it makes my heart know
Wanting to say what’s on  my mind but hesitant to even say a word
that maybe I’m the guy she needs & I have the love she deserves
And if that wasn’t enough, there’s another roadblock keeping me from making a move
so beautiful but ******* on cancer sticks & I’m holding on to the interest I’m soon to lose
I hug her like no one else while another small of my heart breaks
always given the opportunity to speak up but too nervous & my voice shakes
I’m just that guy admiring something that I’d like to cherish for a lifetime
yet walking away from it realizing it can’t be mine
Is this even a love triangle or am I just overly attracted to someone that I can’t possess
Holding in a lot of feelings that’ll never be expressed but laid to rest
Whether I speak up or not, my biggest fear is the rejection
that I’ll have to face if I lose such a rare connection

I’ve experienced enough pain, I’m trying to seek what brings me happiness
so i no longer have to beat myself up & live with so much anger & madness
It took 25 yrs for me to love the man i kept seeing in the mirror
but after realizing a few things, a lot of qualities became clearer
I gave my love to a lot of toxic people which inspired the self hate that i grew attached to
telling myself over & over that I’m worthless & no one really loves you
It’s crazy how anxiety can make you feel like you’re a burden to most
even those who you’ve opened up to & eventually became close
I’ve been at war with myself for all this time, the war between my heart & my head
with my head convincing me that I’m better off dead
I’ve been hurt a lot in the past so the flashbacks tend to weight heavy
on my mental pausing me from believing in myself so I’ve been declining steady
As I’m transitioning from my former self to a new version of the man that I’ve doubted
i see a new man full of self appreciation & I’m completely astounded
Though the war is far from won, i keep fighting hoping victory is within my grasp
trying to steer clear from the mind tricks within mind that tend to often run laps
I see a great man who’s been shattered but slowly he’s pulling himself together
while learning to love & accept himself 10x better
No longer looking at the world thru anxiety
but thru the view of his own reality
From never cracking a smile walking with his head down
to gracing life with a new found happiness, refusing to let toxic energy ignite a frown
I stand proud of the man I’m becoming & grateful to the man i used to be
for he taught me to appreciate thyself before allowing others to love me
-Poetic Venom

Ladies, help me understand why y’all give us so much power over you
Getting mad at us for doing all the wrong things but ignore what we’re allowed to do
I understand that Love is Powerful Drug & it’s not easy leaving someone you’re attached to
but that doesn’t mean that you should justify the disrespect that we show you
You ride so hard for a man who’s giving his attention to everything but you
We tell you that we love you but we treat you as if we can’t stand you
Love has become slavery & seeing what y’all tolerate, makes me question many things
Like why do y’all put up with so much pain that makes your heartbreak sing
Is loving someone worth withstanding all the hell you go through
versus being with someone who’s desired to give the world to you
What’s the reward for being miserably in love & growing into self hate?
If he’s not being your Peace then he’s bringing more stress to your plate
He’s demanding more ****** attention but never an intimate conversation
Never on the same level mentally & headed to a roller coaster destination
You let us walk all over you because you love us, ain’t that much love in the world
For you to allow us to make you a side chick when you’re supposed to be the main girl
Why do you give us your world when we’re barely giving you land to settle on
but so quick to give you a saddle for you ride on?
Your mind is racing with thoughts of us daily but you’re barely on our mind
for the exception for a piece of meat, we’re doing nothing but wasting your time
A lot of you won’t like me saying it but it’s true & deep down, I know it hurts
to give your everything to us only to feel like you’re either unworthy or your love is cursed
You feel obligated to put up with us because you’re afraid to be lonely
but why continue to love us when we ignore you for hoes & the homies
We make you fall in love with us, make you develop a soft spot for us
just to use you against yourself & inspire you to hate yourself because of us
We take your love for granted, so quick to replace you & make you cry
yet you still help us fly which makes me wonder why
being confused, lead on, & torn by the lies
riding hard for the same ones who will eventually inspire your love to die

Today I was struck with devastating news
saying good bye to someone I never thought I'd lose
Under the impression that everything was okay
but everything came crashing down in the worst way
Losing contact for almost a month, I knew something was wrong
& I can either fight my pride to see what's wrong
going back to a place where my heart doesn't belong
How do you accept the fact that someone you love no longer wants your love?
Trying to grasp my brain around letting her go
Hearing her tell me goodbye but my heart won't let go
Already dealing with my own hell, she hits me with the saddest news
Something I thought I'd never hear her say again
Once again, giving my heart the inspiration for the blues
& now I'm forced to watch someone else love my best friend

No longer can i love you
No longer can i offer you the world
No longer can you have my heart
No longer can i remain attached
My heart grew cold but my soul remains intact
I walk alone while knives hang from my back
Desiring a presence to make me happy
for too long I’ve ignored the one that really mattered
& pain has a way of reminding you what’s lost
Something has become of me, something vicious
sometimes my heart sends messages but I’m too stubborn to listen
wrongfully lead by pride & let down by my ego
safe to say I’m my worst enemy but it’s hard to let go
So making you happy isn’t an option for me anymore
but I’ll still love you forevermore
My Happily Ever After does exist, it just doesn’t reside with you
& i never wanna say goodbye but I’d rather walk away than to further hurt you
I feel my heart shattering whenever i see you cry
knowing I’m full of it & i can never make things right
I failed to be the perfect lover, hell i was barely a friend
no matter how much you want things to play out, the one thing we love most always comes to an end

You ain’t gotta be dreaming to feel like you’re on top of the world
Your tears don’t have to dance for your love to be heard
I know it seems like you’ll never find the one who
does everything possible to show his love for you
You’ve been hurt so much to the point where love seems impossible
overwhelmed with being broken & the damage phenomenal
You ain’t gotta dream to come home a nice hot bubble bath with candles lit
& all you gotta do is jump in just to relax for a bit
Soft R&B music playing in the background to set the mood right
for a lovely evening before you’re kissed goodnight
It’s the little things that make you happy the most that money can’t afford
& it feels like it’ll never happen because your standards are ignored
Always dreamed of being honored like the Queen you are but dreams come true
& I don’t promise, I guarantee that one day you’ll meet the perfect King for you
The feeling of being love without being paranoid of being hurt again
playing this game of love knowing that you’ll never win
You ain’t gotta dream or live in a fantasy world to feel loved

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I'm a Mess, I'm a Wreck
I'm Broken but what do you expect
I push you away due to fear
of you being close to me to only disappear

I'm Shattered, I'm Torn
just a product of pain & a Prince Scorn
I've been lifted up to the highest level, only to fall
but with no arms to catch me & no one to answer the call

I've loved harder than most loved back
gave away love but never received it back
Been stabbed in the back by the same ones who had it
I was once a beautiful fairytale & slowly became a hideous tragedy

Whatever happened to us?
We went from love to lust to lost of trust
now my heart's crushed

Whatever happened to our love?
Hurting each other by holding on to pride
& me loving you with a grudge

We changed & I miss the old us
But no one told us that this storm would end us
now I'm lost within the shadows seeking your touch

I miss your kiss, I miss your soul
I lost it all before I could enjoy it
the stubbornness of two lovers destroyed us

Below is the link to my 2nd book, can't believe I just said that but I'll appreciate if all of you would read it. It's just some of my most personal writings. Even if you don't read it,  thanks even for considering it

https://www.wattpad.com/myworks/166651348-coming-of-age-the-growth-from-a-boy-to-a-man

We could’ve been that dream
Could’ve had the greatest love we’ve ever seen
Love at 1st sight isn’t my thing but this is what I believed
Our words say we’re “just friends” but our chemistry call us lovers
even those who witness what we have say we’re beautiful together
A lie is nothing for us to tell so why continue
to keep performing on that stage when we’re the only fools in the venue
We fuss & fight then make love like a married couple do
cause when we bite the bullet, no one loves us like we do
I made a wish years ago & you became just that plus more
We could’ve been the Dream Team, that’s what I wanted forevermore

Poetic Venom

Look at me now dad, never thought I’d get to this point in life
Where I no longer hate you & now understand the lesson you taught me in life
See the thing was, I resented you because you were never there
sent $80 a week but that only made me think you didn’t care
Mama was strong enough to deal with the pain & raise me right
but inside I was lonely & sometimes I couldn’t sleep at night
You were that missing ingredient that I needed for a healthy life
& I believed that being my father came with a price
It’s funny how I hated you for so long just to see that I was like you
spreading this charm with women & being a rolling stone like you
but no disrespect, everybody gotta make mistakes when they grow up
stumble a few times in life before their maturity begins to show up
I don’t know the full story, I just know I lost my dad before knowing who he was
feeling like a lost cause because I was always looking for his love
I’m still your son, you’re still my father, that’s something we can’t change
but I forgive you for not being there even if this means things won’t change
I see you have other kids that you’re raising & I’m happy that you’re being that man
that they need, glad that you’re giving them a chance
to know the man that I never knew but I’m proud of you
& I pray that God keeps watching over you.
And with that being said, I’ve grown up tremendously & I no longer hate you

Poetic Venom

I know y’all idolize your dad like he can do no wrong
but it takes a lot of strength & faith to survive for this long
Take a look back at the life I’ve lived, I don’t want that for y’all
struggling to make a penny or every Saturday window shopping in the mall
You’re a King in the making son, don’t let these females toy with your mind
to make you think you’re not good enough to share their time
Your dad was on the prowl when he was younger, don’t you make that same mistake
avoid breaking a woman’s heart & falling for temptation trying to find a replacement
If you learn anything from me, be a better man with morals & characteristics
don’t throw your reel in the ocean until you’re absolutely ready to go fishing
Baby girl, you’re my whole world & your heart is something beyond precious
that I’ll give my life for if someone tries to tarnish such a blessing
Whatever route you take in life, run away from guys like the old me
looking for temporary pleasure to cure the raging hormones of being lonely
When you decide to fall in love, make sure he’s the perfect guy
who inspires you to be the best woman possible & helps you fly
Let no woman or no man treat you any less than what you know you are
your heart can only endure so much pain, let no one create one too many scars
Be the man that took me years to evolve into, don’t ever meet a man like the younger me
don’t fall for looks, let their love cherish you
Be a King & Queen of Oneself, walk your own path but always be better than me

PoeticVenom

When you read this, I hope you feel my heart
& the things running thru my mind that’s tearing me apart
I’m beyond in love with you but not being able to have you
leads to me falling for lust in hopes of replacing you
Selfish of me to do such a thing to someone who loves me dearly
tried to paint the picture but I still can’t see obviously
I want us to make love like we used to
talk all night like we used to
& even with a million girls around me
with any love available, I’d still choose you
I’m not the perfect man but my intentions mean the best
I have a bad way of showing my love for you, I cause much stress
I’m always texting you when it’s late, that’s when I’m missing you most
cause you’re not laying in my arms where you’re needed most
More than a best friend but less than a lover
still carrying this broken heart that has yet to recover
I want us to love like we used to
I want us to be one like we used to
I want us to be that dream like we used to
Can we let go of the past so you can finally let me love you?

Poetic Venom

I want more than just a pretty face
I want more than just a curvy waist
I want more than just some pretty eyes
I want a heart that can’t be replaced
I don’t want what every other man has been inside
I don’t want something just to be pushed to the side
I need that type of woman who carries pride in her stride
The type of woman that i can eventually turn into a bride
I don’t need that love that begins good but turns toxic
Don’t need that love that’s mainly involved around arguments
Want that type of love where she’s rooting for my accomplishments
The love where i build an empire with the same love i started wit
Want a woman with intelligence
Want a woman with class & integrity in her inheritance
I want more than just a freak in the sheets
Give me something to admire besides your lips or your cheeks
Be the woman that i can cuddle next to & be at peace
Rub my back or play with my hair, be my source for a stress relief
Be the woman that i can spoil with time, affection, & loyalty
Be the one thing that keeps me leveled when I’m rushing with anxiety
Be the guidance i need to stay on the right path & not break the sobriety
Be the sunshine of my life & grace me with that smile that i anticipate to see
Impress me with your mentality & the rareness in your individuality

Poetic Venom

I used to show mad love
Used to put every soul before me
but the same ones showed no love
& the ones I went hard for, ignored me
I cared more for them than I did myself
even loved them 10x harder than I loved myself
Would’ve taken a bullet if fate needed a life as a sacrifice
but doing so only leads to a betraying price
I pulled that knife outta many backs
only to have that same knife thrown in mine, now I see how evil attacks
I never wanted to be this way but what do you expect
when I’ve been through so much pain, disappointments, & neglect
I showed more love than I was supposed to
only because I was chosen to
by the same ones that I walked thru the storm for
pushing me closer to that edge that I was headed to
I pretend not have a heart just to keep from being broken again
& I choose to stay alone just to avoid the realization of knowing you don’t have friends
This world is a game & depending on how you play, you either end up eliminated or hurt
so I’m not heartless but use my heart less being in a world so cursed

Poetic Venom

Love is Pain, Love is Hell
Love is finding that feeling that has yet to prevail
Love is Tears, Love is Horror
Love is the one thing we all want but remains undiscovered
Love is Depression, Love is Loneliness
Love is having those Hands of Love catch you when you reach your lowest
Love is Smiles, Love is Sadness
Love is that one drug with many side effects but everyone has to have it
Love is Heartbreak, Love is the Crying Rains
Love is the Midnight Thoughts & the Tears flowing down the Soul’s Window Pane
Love is the Tears of Joy, Love is the Dreams we get lost in
Love is either a Dream Come True or our Worst Nightmare
Love is the one thing in this world we hope to obtain although having causes a scare

Poetic Venom

I write this outta pure honesty
cause many of you may not notice me
I’m not that guy with his smile shining bright
I’m that guy who constantly fights for his life
Contemplate suicide on a daily basis
surrounded by saved demons & disguised racists
with family who’re more like enemies & friends who’re 2 faced
these pills became a friend of me but this liquor has a feeling I love chasing
I used to be afraid to show the real me cause people think it’s for attention
like I want everyone knowing that I’m dying mentally or spiritually something’s missing
I can’t be one of these cool kids, fronting like I’m a savage
when everyday I wake up & living life is hard to manage
So I write these poems to hopefully reach someone else
dancing with suicidal plots & never had anyone else
to love them the way they’ve always wanted to
so if you feel my pain thru my words then I write these for you
I’m not the same kid I used to be, things change drastically
went from a happy kid to a young man mixed with a tragedy
I can’t front who I am just to get likes or shares
& ignore the fact that I’m beyond scared
Scared that one day I’m gonna have enough & take my life away
looking at myself in the mirror as I watch my soul walk away
Living in this cold *** world full of envy & judgment
& too paranoid to enjoy life when death pulls up in the midst of the enjoyment
But still I thank God for every day that I breathe
Another day stronger & amazed that he hasn’t ask me to leave
I shed tears in the dark just so I can cry in peace
cause your tears remain unheard until the day you decease
I’m not the same kid I used to be, I’ve changed tremendously
alive from the physical form but beyond deceased mentally
I can’t apologize for not letting you see the real me
especially if it results in you trying to heal me
If you do anything for me then pray for me
for my battle isn’t over & Satan can’t take my strength away from me
And as I drown within my own tears, allow my sorrow to be released
& don’t you let go until my happiness has finally reached its peak
It’s not my time to reach the other side that Phase 2 has to offer
I’m still looking for ways to survive life’s horror
I’m not the same guy I used to be, I just exist in disguise
but maybe one day, the real me will spark the tears from Heaven's Skies

Poetic Venom

How could I be so foolish? Let love make me out to be so stupid?
Trying to save a love that’s already beyond ruined
I saw the actions loud & clear but me being so naive
I refuse to think she was like the rest, that I wouldn’t believe
I didn’t think she would play me especially since I’m “different”
thought she’d do right by someone who loved her dearly but I was tripping
We were supposed to share something magical but the chemistry was missing
Silly me, trying to love someone whose focus was to play games
& break any heart she comes across, she’s of no shame
I had it coming all because I’ve gained such a soft spot for her
trying to bring her into my world but evil has a hold on her
Used to the guys who only intend to use her for pleasure
take advantage of a golden heart, tear it apart, then struggle to place it back together
But I can’t say that I blame her, she’s never had that real love before
never had anyone around her that tried to love her forever
Real love is a scary thing when you don’t know if the one who gives it
is actually in it for the long haul or just using you to pass time
& I was unfortunate enough to pay for the mistakes done from the past crimes
Never been a sucker for love until I met her, I now see how deep love can be
when you’re trying to see a love fly but it won’t bother to be free
She took that trust & made me believe she was for real
only to realize that she was only luring in hearts for the ****

Poetic Venom

Look at me now dad, never thought I’d get to this point in life
Where I no longer hate you & now understand the lesson you taught me in life
See the thing was, I resented you because you were never there
sent $80 a week but that only made me think you didn’t care
Mama was strong enough to deal with the pain & raise me right
but inside I was lonely & sometimes I couldn’t sleep at night
You were that missing ingredient that I needed for a healthy life
& I believed that being my father came with a price
It’s funny how I hated you for so long just to see that I was like you
making common mistakes of a man just like you
but no disrespect, everybody gotta make mistakes when they grow up
stumble a few times in life before their maturity begins to show up
I don’t know the full story, I just know I lost my dad before knowing who he was
feeling like a lost cause because I was always looking for his love
I’m still your son, you’re still my father, that’s something we can’t change
but I forgive you for not being there even if this means things won’t change
I see you have other kids that you’re raising & I’m happy that you’re being that man
that they need, glad that you’re giving them a chance
to know the man that I never knew but I’m proud of you
& I pray that God keeps watching over you.
And with that being said, I’ve grown up tremendously & I no longer hate you
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

You’ve been dealing with my antics for far too long
& sometimes it’s my ego that won’t allow us to get along
I come to you to confess my feelings only for you to reject me
then I go running off looking for a replacement selfishlessly
You’ve been so great to me only for me to ignore it
but anytime I’m in your presence or making love, I can’t help but enjoy it
It’s the way you hold me when I miss being around you
& the love that comes outta me when my heart surrounds you
I’ve fallen too hard in love with you, I just don’t get why you aren’t too
especially since the love we share is beyond magical
My foolish pride makes you cry & sometimes I
cry at night when I look for that one star that’s missing from the sky
then I picture your face with that tear falling from your eye
that makes me question why I became such an unworthy guy
trying to replace a Queen with the temptation that’s hard to deny
& it breaks my heart to know that I’m reason that inspires you to cry
Why haven’t you left me? I’ve proven that I’m no different than those other guys
who only come to you for comfort & kiss you gently as I stare into your eyes
right before I walk away for who knows how long then I say good night
I’m not the King I thought I was but your love made me realize how foolish I am
to overlook the love from an angel who cares deeply for the man that I am
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Dre, I understand that you’ve been thru a lot but you can’t blame yourself
for loving everyone else more than you’ve ever loved yourself
You’ve been told a lot that you’re amazing but you’ve been treated like trash
referred to as “weak” & “soft” by the same ones falling for those who only want ***
I understand the pain but you messed up by neglecting the one person who needs you the most
the one person who loves you & deserves your love the most
A heart made of pure gold but that treasure suffers from several cracks
trying to be a real man with the pressure of perfection weighing down on your back
Let me love you until you can love me the same way
cause you can’t understand what that love is with the self hate blocking your way

Baby girl, open your eyes & take a look at what’s right in front of you
the queen of amazingness, yea that’s all you
Let me ask you this, how can you love me more than you love yourself?
Why would you love me more than you’ve ever loved yourself?
I give you a lot of my love but doing so puts fear in me
all because you’ve never had it before which might make you leave me
You’ve placed this wall in front of me but every time I get to the top
you knock me down a few more feet because you see I refused to stop
Let my love bring you to life, revive the very soul that seems to have lost its life
& I’ll give it everything I have even if it means paying a price
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

It’s been a while since I’ve had that feeling
It’s been a while since we’ve given each other ****** healing
I haven’t seen that smile in a long time
been too long since you’ve shared your time with mine
We’ve known each other for this long & I still think you deserve better
simply because I’m not perfect on that attractive scale but we’ve manage to stay together
Style like no other, smile like no other
but thru it all, you still continue to treat me as if I’m your lover
I’ve been flying in this sky alone for way too long
to not have the queen eagle up here to fly along
I’m struggling to fight temptation cause I can’t let go of you
bugging out at the sound of your name when deep down, I still love you
I’m hard headed & stubborn, refusing to take no for answer
to hell with all these distractions, you’re my only dancer
No Rose Royce but here I am, wishing on a star
hoping to grasp your glow no matter how far
I thought I was lonely when you were around but your absence makes it clear
that I’m far from complete without you being here
One last memory together could be the key we need to fly again
to see our love light up the sky like the 4th of July, forever my friend
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

It’s been almost 6 years since I’ve went back to my roots
living life on Red Top Road where my mental sustained abuse
I was just a youngin trying to figure this world out
thinking of ways to make this dream come true with all this doubt
of never making it out of this place that slowly became a hell hole
& I was the only one being naive to never know
that the kingdom in my head wasn’t exactly the same show
that kept me tuned in for so many years admiring the lies
of a legacy that died shortly after the King & Queen went home in the sky
The Home of Haunted Memories only makes me remember the kid who never saw the sun
just the trouble of a family tree that would soon be overrun
by the evil within egos that couldn’t patch itself together for the creators
that placed everything into one place that brought us all together
I miss the home I thought I knew when times were worth holding on to forever
but somewhere on this dark road, generations of love & family lost its power of measure
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I know you might feel like I love or love you not
the way I keep ending a loving thing without a plot
I come home to your heart for a few hours then I’m off again
giving my time & attention to someone else who’s not even a friend
It used to be your arms I ran to but now you spend your nights without me next to you
missing my touch rubbing your back or the feeling of my lips blessing you
In my mind, I’m thinking going missing is going to solve my issues
of missing you but I fail to see that it’s only causing me to lose you
Do I love you? I do but not in the same way that you love me
Love you more than I do myself but your time is always placed above me
But I understand you gotta future to think about, I’m just lonely waiting for 10 minutes
to be held by my angel & unfortunately, your time is something that I don’t fit in with
Do I love you not because I never tell you what’s wrong & I hide the truth
when eventually my frustration will let it all be known so you can see the proof
I’m pushing you away & eventually I know you’ll leave me
ignoring my reasons for what I’m doing, i don’t expect you to believe me
I love you but my patience came to an end with trying to be that man
who’s trying to love you the best way he can but more than a friend
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Call me crazy. Call me stupid.
Call me foolish. Hell you can call me clueless
To be willing to take someone back who had my heart & bruised it
But can you explain the feeling you get
when someone is stuck in the memories that you can’t forget
Every song that comes on, plays a reminder of them in your head
thinking of em constantly causing you to toss & turn in your bed
I admit I miss what we shared, you made me a happy man
the one I ran to who saw thru my flaws & the main one who never failed to understand
that I’m hurt but still trying to love the best way I can
we destroyed each other & thru it all, I’d still give us a final chance
to see just how strong we could be if we get out of our way
to see the sunset in each others eyes instead of the tears that remains the soundtrack of our day
I ask myself why would I let you back in after you broke my heart
but I tell myself that I’m not so innocent & the guilt also tore me apart
knowing that I’ve made my mistakes with letting my head make the wrong decisions
blinding my tunnel vision of love causing me to overlook what was missing
So am I really crazy for wanting that past love back all because I miss the feeling
or am I just stupid for removing the patch on my heart that took me forever to stop the bleeding
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

It amazes me when those who’re guilty are quick to play victim
& it’s hard to walk away when they’re so lost in your system
We were supposed to be an item but all we do is argue
I’m trying to have patience with someone who’s broken but it’s a virtue
All the assumptions being thrown at me makes me question your stability
like you’re trying to make me out to be this monster so you can get rid of me
I get it you’ve been tarnished but why punish me for even trying
here I am working for your happiness but you insist on crying
I guess it’s always my fault, put the blame on me as always
although I’m the one pointing out the facts of your selfish ways
When I’m too busy to text you back, you assume I’m ignoring you
then you cry as if I’m the reason for the issues that I’m showing you
This could’ve been perfect, it would’ve been well worth it
but you took something amazing & treated it like a circus
I tried to help us fly but you wanted to crawl
I was there waiting for you but you refused my trust in catching your fall
You’re the one to blame for our separation, yet you can never accept your faults
I was willing to take that love but my heart deserve that cost
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Dear my angel to be, I need you to do more than just listen, feel me
as I allow my heart to speak for me & I hope you actually hear me
I often ask myself if she even loves herself the way she loves everyone else
to make others happy but is she even happy herself?
Now I don’t mean to assume things but I hear the melodies your heart sings
you’ve never been loved the right way & the ones you wait for never seem to change
Oh, my Angel, I know it’s been a minute since your love has been replenished
now I watch you waiting for your King but I guess I am the only witness
who sees someone destined for greatness with a heart that’s been forsaken
trying her best not to give up but when it comes to love, you’ve lost motivation
& I get it, I understand, how you really wanna be loved by a faithful man
someone that relates to you on many levels & your intellect that no one seems to understand
There’s 2 minds you need for a man to get but we’re so full of it
that we only sweet talk the mental just to get the one thing we’re dying to hit
then split & I’m sorry if we’ve messed up so many times, all the lies
claiming to be different but we cause too many cries so let’s fly
fly away until it’s the clouds that we rest within & then
we’ll dream into that world where we’ll never be awaken again
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

True story of this love interest that I fell for from a distance
catching her attention with my verbal charm but we couldn’t even kick it
Married to a man who barely gives her attention
then I came along with everything except the one thing that’s missing
What did I get myself into? I told her I love her but this love ain’t that simple
I got plans for you although my heart can’t be with you
Got you texting me from 7am to 9pm until you lay next to him
with this huge smile on your face but no thanks to him
He tells you he’s working late sometimes & doesn’t come home until midnight
or he lies about his whereabouts after y’all fall out from a verbal fight
You keep telling me you wanna leave him for me but I beg you not to
simply because I’m not the man of your dreams or the perfect one to love you
cause when I think about it, we talk *** more than we talk love
which makes me ask if you truly desire lust or just want me cause you don’t feel loved
Been riding this wave for 3 months & i think things are getting serious between us
both falling foolishly in love with this wall standing between us
You’re confused not knowing who you wanna be with the most
& I advise you to stay where you are being that his heart is your host
I’m just a guest creeping in the house exciting your walls
breaking em down with every visit & the effects of it makes you crawl
Legs weak, hormones raging, thoughts racing, & the bed squeaking
lips making love endlessly while I keep your rivers leaking
But if at any minute you feel like making love is wrong, we can call it quits
cause I’d hate to be the reason you begin to feel like this
tears flowing down your eyes, confused on what to do
& this all started because the King you wanted didn’t wanna love you
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I juggle with the thoughts of retirement then watch people look at me crazy
then I listen to em when they ask “Dre, are you crazy?”
It’s your words & stories that get me thru the pain daily
& I get it but these stories aren’t exactly the key that I need to save me
I’m able to save y’all from your pain but I’m a pro at neglecting myself
plus I never imagined being here, poetry was therapy for myself
I did what I never thought I could do & what I thought I never would do
& although y’all mean the world to me, maybe this is what I should do
I take many breaks thru the year just to live life not only to learn from experiences
but to study myself from different characteristics
I prayed about saving a few lives with my words, I’ve saved many
prayed about guiding a few to a new light, I’ve guided plenty
so even if I do reach the highest level of this gift, what’s left for me to enjoy?
Especially when I’m barely happy & self destruction is the main thing I can’t avoid
I always ask myself, what would y’all do if you never discovered my passion for this
What would you do if you never met me or if you never saw talent in this
guy who’s just like you that you look so highly up to
salute like he’s a God when he’s nowhere close to being above you
A part of me doesn’t wanna quit but a part of me wants to throw in the towel
just to see the admirers give me a standing ovation & take a bow
I’m just a King still on the search for his crown
as I unknowingly lead others to better days while I’m slowly breaking down
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Valentines Day of 93, a star was birthed to the world
extremely gifted from the womb with big things to unfurl
A broke product growing up on the streets of Lynchburg
Red Top to be exact with a message to the world waiting to be heard
At the age of 9, he found his passion by scanning thru old notebooks
that his mom kept private with her thoughts of cold world that’s been shook
The process began by summarizing what he read thru the English text
slowly got good with it but the question remained, what’s next?
Senior year of high school, the unthinkable would take place
one individual would turn heads from his diary of hidden hate
felt from those around him & from those who did him wrong
expressing how he was breaking down inside & didn’t know how to be strong
A nervous wreck before getting on stage to confess his inner feelings
but finished it like a concert to hear the applause raising up to the ceiling
But that was years ago & sometimes I question if I’m really star worthy
like I should keep my poems to myself cause this world doesn’t deserve me
but it makes me think of the things that I’d like to achieve
or the other people who need my guidance to believe
How could I be the star in my mind if the spotlight which is mine that I’m scared to possess
then to hear those who admire me tell me that I’m the best
Yea a star was born on that cold Sunday evening but seeing that star shine scares me
yet the feeling of overcoming the odds still manages to compel me
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Don’t tell me you love me because I know you don’t
Don’t tell me you’ll always be in my corner cause I know you won’t
Everything I touch falls apart so I can no longer hold your heart
Never in possession of the right hand so I can’t play the right card
You look at me & see a King, that’s what I struggle with
so I tend to push away just to keep you from facing undeserved punishment
You tell me you can handle my darkness but I know it’s too overwhelming
I’ve done enough damage to your heart to sit & watch the swelling
I don’t know if it’s the women I choose or the women I tend to lose
but everytime love meets me face to face, my interest in it begins to snooze
I tell myself I’ve been hurt too much but maybe I haven’t hurt enough
I say that I’m ready to settle but then again, I don’t even want love
Never a lonely king but the missing piece to the puzzle is what I seek
& I can pretend to be happy without it but that part of me will never be complete
I tell you to leave me be but I know I can’t handle watching you leave
then I realize the fool I’ve been then I fall down & beg on my knees
My past has me torn cause I fear going thru the same pain once again
so please forgive me if you fight to have my heart but I don’t allow you to win
I don’t want you to fall for the terror, you can do bad all by yourself
cause you can’t possibly love someone who barely loves themself
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I don’t wanna hear that I’m amazing especially when you’re the same
telling me all these things to manipulate me when you’re just running game
You say I’m a great guy, funny of you to say such a thing
sounding no different from the last girl who said the same thing
I’m not like most guys? Please explain why you feel that way
Because I say all the right things that never fail to make your day?
You question why I don’t take compliments or why I don’t believe anything
but fail to realize that women always want a King but don’t appreciate Kingly things
I’ve been told the same things over & over again, never seeing any difference
but as soon as I try giving one a chance, things begin to get distant
It’s not to punish you for what you’re trying to do
but you’d be upset too if someone kept feeding the same lines but under appreciate you
So don’t tell me that I’m an amazing person if you’re not gonna show me
& don’t try giving me your heart if it isn’t holy
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

It’s funny to me how people wanna tell me how to deal with my depression
knowing that if they were on the same side of the fence, they’d fear my depression
They believe it’s all in the mind & in a way it is
but when you think about it, it’s more of how life really is
They claim to understand your battle when we’re in 2 different wars
trying to tell you how to heal yourself when they don’t relate to your scars
You can’t tell me how to save myself when the same thing isn’t killing you
can’t tell me your methods work for me because your remedy is only healing you
We all have our demons  & devils on different levels
some only have a few, some may have several
Put yourself in my shoes & I’ll see if you can survive that dark world to which I reside
would you give up too quick or **** yourself knowing you tried
You can see what I’m going thru but could you really handle it
you feel my rage within my soul, but could you bare to manage it
Now let’s switch back sides & tell me again how to win my fight
How to keep from tearing myself apart to understand this thing called life
From the outside looking in, you’d probably think it’s a walk in the park
but when you put on my shoes, I guarantee you wouldn’t know where to start
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I’ve been tripping for years, that’s been causing you tears
loving me more than yourself just to lose me, that’s a fear
How could I be so foolish to get what I wanted & let it go
got the diamond in a rough but failed to watch it glow
Beautiful distractions & the attention that I’m not used to
meanwhile I’m giving you worries if my love will even choose you
Falling for these minute trailers only to ignore the future presentation
like I don’t even care for the main event, the opening act is the key attraction
How stupid of me to avoid the apple of my eye for that forbidden fruit
& if I lose that love, I think quick of the perfect excuse
Will I regret it or forget it? Win her back or just let her go?
Will I ever change my ways or just remain stuck in my ways?
Always tried to do the right thing until it got old
but someone came along to change a heart that’s been cold
Question is, am I already too far to gone to even come back from lust
to actually let someone love me knowing there’s no one I trust
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

It’s unfair for me to need your love but I want something else
& I believe it’s mainly because I’m still trying to love myself
Stuck with the childish mind but I’m running outta time
trying to heal a broken heart before it’s no longer mine
but how can I keep her from crying
when she’s gonna leave in a matter of time
It’s unfair for me to love you when I’m only loyal to me
& I’m trying to love the man you love but that man I don’t see
I don’t want us to fight no more, don’t want us to cry no more
but I don’t want this although it’s the main thing I was dying for
I need this love forever, I can’t do this if we don’t make a change
I want us complete but you gotta want the same thing
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I gotta show you the real me before you rest your presence
Am I a beautiful disaster or just another rare blessing?
See I’m slow to gain interest but I’m quick to lose it
& I see your heart waiting to be caught but I won’t jump up to pursue it
My heart is in the right place, my head just won’t let it settle yet
feeling like this isn’t my dream for life & I can’t settle yet
I’m more focused on getting married than making the mistakes to meet my Queen
so I unintentionally break hearts along with shattering sweet dreams
Like a nightmare of reality that refuses to walk away
but with this irresistible charm, I make it harder for you not to stay
I’m alone but never am I lonely
Real love, I’ve never had anyone show me
& being that I’m already broken, do you think you deserve me?
Why do you even want me?
Save yourself from a heartbreak, you’re much better off on your own
loving someone like me ain’t easy & you’ll sometimes feel alone
It’s hard to focus on one when my head isn’t fully ******* on right
but I still miss the presence of one laying next to me at night
I’m a pro at cutting ties when something just doesn’t feel right
& I’d rather let you go before I break you again all because I can’t love you right
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

These thoughts have been teasing me for quite some time
thinking of ways to stop the madness without crossing the line
You say you wanna wait when I’m ready to commit
but this decision that you’re making won’t let my ego quit
See I’m out here on the prowl trying to see how much damage I can make
when I fail to really see how much pain one could create
And I can’t even blame you for the decisions that I’m making
trying to fill the avoid of being lonely & the one night stands I’m chasing
You ask me how I feel but I can’t really explain it
how the love I’m dying for, I can’t obtain it
I’m trying not to lose myself loving you but every day I lose a piece
I reach out for your help but you’re never there for my reach
You taught me how to be a King but what’s a King without his Queen
& a castle without a foundation to keep it withstanding his dream
of raising a kingdom for his Prince & Princess to herit
cause I refuse to let em carry the torch when it’s too shattered for them to carry it
You want me to be that King but you make me question if I’m really that
the love a King is supposed to give, I stopped feeling that love coming back
I'm running outta time, please make up your mind
cause I refuse to lose myself anymore trying to love you
I gotta save myself before this stress gives me the flatline
mentally passing on & it's all because of you
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I really can’t explain the thoughts running thru my mind
or the confusion that have grown with time
Thinking of you & wanting to work things out
but going back to you won’t exactly bring my happiness out
Yes, you’re the one that I’ll always love more than the world
it’s just the fact of me loving someone else when you’re supposed to be my girl
I’ve had many times to fall in love but I can’t love someone else
when my heart still rest with someone who made me appreciation myself
A friendship that’s turned into the unknown from what used to be a fairytale
& me not giving anyone a chance to love me knowing their love won’t prevail
So how do I move on from someone that has my heart in its entirety
someone who’d go to the end of the world for me & give their last for me
A part of me is ready to be loved for the 1st time
but I can’t let someone else love me when you’re supposed to be mine
A part of me wants to stay single just to wait for you
since I’ve fallen so deeply knowing that my heart adores you
You know you’re more than just a best friend but I can’t wait around forever
& who’s to say that we’ll end up together
Love is complicated especially when the one you want probably isn’t the one you need
but loving someone else just seems wrong which makes it harder to leave
☆ Poetic Venom ☆