Knock knock, who's there
It's me, your anxiety

A nice surprise, I know
Thought I'd come for a sleepover
The kind you had when you were twelve
Stay up all night talking

We'll reminisce over times gone by
Share embarrassing stories
You go first
Actually I'll tell one for you

Remember that one time
When you actually thought
You mattered
Thought your family would help you
Hug you and maybe wipe your tears

***, so hilarious
I can't believe you actually fell for that!

Its not fair
She screams
Why them
Why not me

She never
Asked for much
Just to
Be held
Be loved

He never
Asked for her
The extra
The twin

She gave
All she had
Her love
Her tears

He shoved them
Under the rug
With all
The dirt
And filth

She learned to
Hide away
Smile and
Be polite

He wouldn't
Protect her
Hold her
Tender heart

So she broke
Quietly
Hid the pain
Beneath pills and scars

Now she's gone
Someone else
Walks in her shoes
And he doesn't even know

Deep red like roses
It flows down my arm
Its warmth the comfort
Of hugs never felt

For a moment I'm glad
to be alone

She has a short life
She's ugly when you know her
When you really see

They say you never leave me
I know its true, but I'm not sure I believe it

Were you honestly there as
my life flowed away
Down the drain
with the shower water?

Were you really watching as
It all grew dark and fuzzy,
When even sight and sound refused to stay?

Were you still holding me as
No one else dared sit by the side
Of my living corpse,
As even I longed to leave me?

Were you happy to keep me alive as
I fought so hard
against the life you gave me?

Thank you for staying

I know the mirror cannot lie
Yet I hope that somehow
Just this once
It is mistaken

I pray the girl I see
Looking back at me
Is not a reflection
But a figment of imagination

Her lonely eyes
Her wilted youth
Forgotten grace
Sorrowful face

Surely that empty shell
The mere remnant of a soul
Couldn't really be
All that's left of me