I never knew he would break me
I never knew he would make me want to change me
To shift every aspect
Just to be someone else
So he could never love me
And it sickens me
To know that this is the place where he kissed me
That I'm in the body that he touched
He claimed to love
Wanted to become one with me
He can have me
Because I don't want me
Sleeping in this bed made me ******* nauseous for the first few nights afterwards. It's gotten better, but his scent will only truly be gone once I go to the laundromat to wash my duvet. I tried to block everything out but I still think about it from time to time and I wish I could crawl out of my skin. I never wanted this, but I never said no.