Crackle of light,
Shacking with fright.
Beaming white,
Eliminating the night.
Nothing remains,
My life drains.
Everything fades,
I search for aides.
It's all gone away,
The words I want to say.
The only thing left,
The one thing no one can theft.
My still beating heart,
My last part.
It still belongs to you,
Something I can't undo.

Everywhere I go,
Everything I do,
My heart always sees you.
When I try something new,
Or even when I feel blue.
There you are,
Like a vision from a far.
My heart skips a beat,
I tremble from my hands to my feet.
Then realize your not there,
Realize I dont see you anywhere.
My mind plays tricks on me,
You're all I want to see.
You're the mirage I can't grasp,
Empty my hands clasp....

The dropping weights,
The cling of plates.
A beed of sweat,
Can't quit yet.

Together we grow,
Trying to get swole.
Pushing our weights,
On our gym dates.

We train back,
Pulling from the rack.
We hit chest,
You always did your best.

We work shoulders,
Trying to make boulders.
Can't forget legs,
Even if she begs.

We skipped arms,
Due to your charms.
Didn't bother with abs,
You can handle jabs.

We Pushed each other,
Spent that time together.
The gym was our space,
Our happy place.

What to say,
What to do,
All I think about
Is you

Carring and sweet
Homely and outgoing
Radiant smile
Intriguing and perceptive
Strong and loving
Trustworthy to a fault
Incredible and unbelievable
Natural beauty, inside and out
A magnificent soul, and heart to match.

Mesmerizing eyes
Youthful, playfull stares

Loveable
One of a kind
Vibrant personality
Everything I could ever want and more.

One last chance with you,
I wonder what I would do.
Will I be the man you remember,
Have I changed for the better.
Am I truly a changed man,
Was this part of a greater plan.

Will I finally be enough;
I know things will be tough.
Do I now have what it takes,
To prevent your heartaches.
Can I show you true love,
Be someone you're proud of.

All these questions,
All my affections.
One thing I know is true,
I would do anything for you.
I'd fight to make it just,
And earn back your trust.

Those eyes,
Still leave me mesmerized.
The way they look into me,
Connecting our hearts beautifully.
The way they warm my heart,
And tear my bad days apart.
The way they pull me in,
And light a fire within.
The way she winks,
And the way she blinks.
That beautiful brown,
Within which I can drown.
The eyes where I see true love,
My heart burns like the sun above...

Your beauty I see,
In every little thing,
It just surrounds me.

All these memories,
Of you and me.
All the good,
All the bad.
Some make me happy,
Some make me sad.
Stuff we did,
Things we said.
Promises made,
Plans delayed.
Not one memory I want to forget,
My heart hasn't fully broken yet.
There's still a part that holds on tight,
And tells me things will be alright.

I want to undo,
What I've done to you.
I want to make things right,
I want to make this my fight.
Anything to make amends,
Change how our story ends.

Stuck in a daze,
By what caught my gaze.
Like coming out of a haze,
Or some sort of phase.

Can't believe what I see,
The way it feels to me.
Wondering how this can be,
This feeling of glee.

How could I have gone,
So long,
It feels wrong,
But I feel like I belong.

Here in this moment,
Something feels potent.
I can't explain,
So many feelings remain.

Seeing you once more,
Walking through the door.
My heart aches,
Twisted by the hand of fates.

This moment I've dreamed of,
Like a sign from above.
I tremble and shake,
For the first time I'm awake...

When I'd wake, I'd see your face.
Covered in the suns embrace.
No care in the world in this place.
Getting up was no race.
Your soft skin next mine,
Your smooth black hair so fine,
Your cute stretch as you roll over,
Making me want to pull you in closer.
Giving me every reason to stay in bed,
Your presence swimming in my head.

As you crack a little smile,
My heart races a mile.
That perfect smirk,
As you try to get your eyes to work.
And it's those eyes,
That leave me mesmerized.
As you looked at me,
And seem so happy.
I'd feel my heart soar,
As it fills with the smile of the women I adore.
And when I'd hear your voice,
I'd have no choice.
To lean in for that morning kiss,
And start my day in pure bliss.

We bend,
We fold,
But we do not break.
We sweat,
We bleed,
We bruise,
But we never quit.
We cry,
We hurt,
But somehow we still love...

Another year has come and passed,
And its Christmas time at last.
Lots has changed,
Things have been rearranged.
Some have come,
Some have gone.
Some things have become,
What others have un-done.

Sitting here,
This time of year.
I hope your mind is clear,
And you know you are thought of my dear.

I wish you joy,
Maybe a new toy,
I wish you love,
Hope it fots like a glove.
I wish you peace,
Even a sweater of fleece.
Most of all i wish for this,
You to have a day of bliss.

I remember our first kiss,
That moment of fire and bliss
The sparks that flew,
How my heart grew.
The passion they sparked,
As if I've been marked.
The way I craved more,
Your lips became something I adore.
There the last thing I want to feel,
Nothings ever felt so real.
And the thing I want most to do,
Is to make my last kiss be you.

Another chance
I don't know
If I deserve it
Or no.
Its what I want,
But is it
What I deserve.
Is wanting enough...

As things come and go,
I promise not to let you go.
Even if its distance we must face,
Know with me, you'll always have a place.
Wether your hours or miles away,
In my heart, forever you will stay.

This power you have over me,
How to explain what it could be.
Why can't I eat?
Why am I loosing sleep?
How do I shake this feeling,
Why is my heart fleeting.
I feel haunted,
But somehow daunted.
I just need a clue,
A way to figure out what to do.
Must I live this way,
Is this a game I must play.
Is this my part,
The man with the broken heart...

I miss you,
It's true.
The little things you do,
Now leave me blue.

There's a long list,
Of things I've missed.
It gets bigger by the day,
Due to my disarray.

The things I miss,
Those moments of bliss.
I miss your smile,
Our laundry pile.
Your beautiful eyes,
Our little white lies.
Your soft skin,
Emptying the garbage bin.
Waking next to you,
Arguing to.
Hearing your wishes,
Cleaning the dishes.
Going on dates,
Endless debates.
Holding you at night,
Having a fight.
Holding your hand,
Not knowing where we stand.
Our tender moments,
Your Silent treatments.
Every single kiss,
Moments we miss.

Just being with you,
Good and bad too.
The things we would do,
Things I still want to.
I know I've done you wrong,
Made you feel we dont belong.
For you I'll always long,
Each and every dawn.
No matter what we do,
I'll always miss you.

Do you have feelings that linger,
Is my name a trigger.
Do memories sneak up on you,
Just out of the blue.
Do you let yourself think of me,
And what we still could be.
Does any hope remain,
Or am I here in vain.
Do I still have a place in your heart,
Could I still be your counterpart.

When I open my eyes what will I see,
Will you be there with me.
Am I stuck in a dream,
Are things really how they seem.
Are you really gone,
It's been so long.
Since I got to see your face,
Or feel your warm embrace

When I go out,
You keep me on the lookout.
Hoping to see you one more time,
A feeling I cant deny.
Wondering if we will cross paths,
Maybe share some laughs.
Wanting to make you smile,
It's been a while.
Since I seen that look on you,
How bad I want to.

You are the one I miss,
The one who took my bliss.
The one I cant deny,
This is no lie.
I just want you to know,
I want it to show.
I miss you,
I always do.

What can I do,
When I can't stop thinking about you,
What do I do about this,
All your quirks that I miss.
So many things to say,
All throughout the day.
A million reasons why,
My feelings I can't deny.
So what do I do,
With this heart that longs for you.
How do I sleep at night,
Knowing something just ain't right.
How do get you to see,
That this feels meant to be.
How do I fix this heart,
When this silence tears it apart...

Simple and subtle
Warm, bright, soft, and inviting
You captivate me.

Does he hold you like I would.
Can he kiss you like I could.
Will he always treat you right,
Each day, each night.
Will he make you smile,
And have you walk down the isle.
Will he be there at your worst,
And always put you first.
Will he fight for you,
The way I want to.

If you think he can,
And that he's your man.
Then the one thing I want to say,
Is I hope you're happy everyday.
I hope he's there you,
Does the things I couldn't do.
Holds you when your sad,
Kisses you when your mad.
I hope he loves you,
Like I want to.
Like you deserve to,
I'm sorry I failed you...

When the clouds part,
And the rain fades,
I'll remember your name.

When it's dark,
And nothing can be seen,
The memory of your smile will greet me.

When winter sets in,
And the temperature drops,
The warmth of your skin will be my thoughts.

You may never stand beside me again,
But the memories of what we where,
Will never leave..

Loving you each day,
Yearning for you silently,
Is so deafening

Everyday,
A thousand words to say.
But in what way,
Can I display.
The way I feel,
To make it seem real.
Do I write you a letter,
Or post something on Twitter.
Whats on Facebook,
Would you look.
Something on Instagram,
Would you give a ****.
What way do I express,
That I dont feel any less.
If I turned it into a song,
Would you sing along.
If I wrote it in the sky,
Would it be something you deny.
If it was written in the stars,
Or on the side of cars.
Would you trust the night sky,
Or the things that pass you by,
If someone pointed you to my poem,
Would you say, you dont know them...

What do I do,
With all the things I want to say to you.
Do I throw them out the door,
Spill them onto the floor.
Do I swallow my words,
Or let them sore like birds.
Should I whisper,
Let my words linger.
Should I hold them in tight,
Fight with them each night.
Should I tell you to your face,
Will there be a time and place.
A simply way to convey,
The things I want to say.
Where do I draw the line,
So I can stop wasting all this time.

Cherished memories,
Happy and sad
Remembering us
In love with the past
Stuck on what could be
Trying to keep you near
In hopes we can make it
Not wanting to quit
Always, I will love you.

When she falls asleep,
Her twitches as she drifts away,
That beauty, night, day

Three cats, a turtle,
Your little girl growing up,
You, me, Family...

She stands there,
In her own world,
Siging to her music,
Lost in the moment.

I stand watching,
Loving every inch of her,
Loving every second,
Lost in her and in this moment.

Her shirt,
Her underwear,
Her soft,
Beautiful,
Warm,
Skin.

She wears her gloves
Her dorky,
Purple,
Rubber,
Dish gloves.

Hairs in a bun
Hips,
Legs,
Shoulders swaying.

Soap,
Dishes,
And water,
All of it together.

I watch,
My heart swells,
This is my love,
This is my favorite moment.
This is the moment I knew.

She was there,
She was everything,
She was perfect....
So perfect...

Do you see, like me,
All the possibilities,
Forever, you, me....

On those dimly lit streets,
We walked together for the first time.
Talked about our lives,
Our hopes, our dreams.
Nervously I reached out,
Shacking I grasped,
And found your hand.
You smiled and blushed,
What a rush.

You drew yourself in closer,
And settled yourself around my arm.
We continued to walk,
Time slipping away.
But nothing mattered there with you,
So many feelings rushing around.
We stopped at a corner,
Unable to decide what way to go.
We caught each others eyes,
Looked deeply at one another.
I drew in closer,
You leaned in to,
The sparks,
The tension,
The wonder,
The desire,
Your lips, my lips.

I moved in to see,
And love is what greeted me.
The softness of your lips,
The tenderness of your kiss,
The sweetness of the taste,
The feel of our embrace.
No moment has ever felt so real,
The truest thing I could feel..

I'm not afraid,
Of you laughing at me.
But I hate the thought,
Of you laughing without me.

Late at night,
Holding her so tight,
It felt so right,
A true delight.

Seeming now so out of sight,
After our last slight,
Due to my lack of incite,
A moment without hindsight.

You are my light,
A burning sun so bright,
Casting away all fright,
Forcing my soul to ignite.

To once again be your knight,
For you I'll always fight,
With every once of my might,
For this, my hearts plight.

Always here waiting for your invite,
A chance for us to reunite.

I am haunted by your form,
Its presence next to me,
You being only a memory.

My mind cant perceive,
The emptiness of my bed.
Something inside me yearns,
To have things the way they were.

The way your hand fit in mine,
The way we kissed goodnight.
The way your skin would feel,
The warmth was ideal.

The way we fit together,
But wanted to be closer.
The way I'd pull you in,
And you would kiss me as you grin.

The way I felt,
Naked,
There with you,
Your body, my body,
Entwined and clued,
Happy,
In love,
And for once whole.

That warmth,
That skin,
The smell,
Those lips,
The eyes,
The hips,
The hair,
A kiss.

This is what I believe,
Bliss would be.
Just there,
You and me.

This is what forever is to me,
This is all I need us to be.
This is where my heart belongs,
Forever the feeling that it longs.

Nothing else matters, or ever will,
Not till the day, you once again I feel...

Beautiful brown eyes,
She leaves me so mesmerized,
Heart lost in her stare.

Can you see what I see,
These endless possibilities.
The future that could be,
A forever, you and me.

Is it something you can imagine,
A feeling of hope within,
A spark,
Out of the dark,
That lights the flame,
Even through all this pain,
And brings us back together
To tough our storms in any weather.

Can you see my hand in yours,
As we face the rain that pores.
As we hold on so tight,
Our love burning bright,
To take on any fight,
And anything else in sight.

Can you see my heart fighting,
And my spirit rising,
Here I stand for you,
Something I'll always do.

No matter how long I'll have to wait,
There is no debate.
No other person can equate.
To how you and i feel like fate.

I have caused you great pain,
And I've done some damage.
I came in to this with too much baggage,
Even though I've gone through change
Your heart hasn't rearranged
And though the distance,
And silence
Is tearing me apart.
I would do anything
To mend your heart.
Everything,
to hold you
Or see you
Or kiss you once more
You're the women I adore
I will stay afar
As it tears me apart
To wait for your heart.
I'll leave things ajar.
If I haven't broken it to far.
I will wish on a stars, and the powers above
To once more, call you my love.

It wasn't at first sight,
But something did feel right.
I didn't yet understand my hearts plight.
As we trained and learned to fight.

It was when you laughed that you stole my gaze,
I became lost in your ways,
The way you were when your music played.
I was captivated as you trained,
So graceful,
Yet so playful.

The way she tied her long black hair into a bun,
The way she could joke around and have fun.
The way her worries washed away,
Each day,
As she came in and the door would sway,
She seemed as if she came to play.

Each day my heart grew fonder,
I was left there to ponder,
Will these feelings got stronger,
And my desires larger.

I wanted to see you everyday,
And so I tried to find the words to say.
And to you I would make my way,
At a Christmas party as you sway.
To the music, I moved to see,
If I could make it you and me.
You danced in the light of a Christmas tree,
I was overtaken by glee.
I asked you on date,
It all just felt like fate.
You said yes,
From here I felt we could progress.

Our first date was the gym,
Using your injured limb,
Teaching you to lift weights,
How to move all these plates.
I massaged your shoulder,
And thought, I have to hold her.
I asked you out once more,
As we walked towards the door.

More is what I needed,
Hoping my chances haven't fleeted.
You said yes one more time
And so began our storyline....

When shes In her white dress,
walking down the isle,
Who will say I do,
Who will she look onto.

Where will I be,
When she dreams of love,
When she plans her future,
When she thinks happily ever after.

What could I do
To make her see me,
To have have her trust me,
To show her the new me.

What can I say
To let her know I miss her,
Let her know I love her,
Let her know I can make things better.

What should I be
So she can be happy,
So she can get married,
So she can have her happily ever after.

Where do I go
If I cant have her,
If I cant forget her,
If I cant live without her.

So what do I say,
What do I do,
Where do I go,
What do I become.

If I'm not your future,
If im not your happily ever after,
If I'm not the man you thought I could be.
Then I just want you to be happy.

I want you to have a family,
I want you to get married,
I want you to have it all,
Even if it's with someone else you fall.

Weve been so intertwined,
Day in, day out,
Over these five years.
Did we choose to be fated so,
Or did something within us simply click.
Did we want our lives so connected,
That now I feel you ever present.
Will we always come back to each other,
The way I hope we will.
Do you feel it too,
This invisible bond.
Can you feel my life and my heart,
The way I still feel yours.
Or have you finally cut the strings,
And left me a drift.

A kiss, is a kiss
Unless it comes from your lips,
The lips I long for.

I would hold you close,
I would hold you tight,
I would look so deeply into your eyes.

I would brush your hair back,
I would caress your face,
I would hold your gaze.

And if I could,
You know I would,

I'd kiss those lips,
Let my passion flow,
I'd open my heart,
And let it all pore out.

I would grip your waist,
Hold your head,
And let you feel this passion once again.

Because if I could,
You know I would,
With just one chance,
I'd kiss you with all the love I have.

And if you,
Feel it too,
Our love will renew.

And I will make it my life,
To always hold you tight,
And kiss you every morning,
And every night.

If only I could,
I would,
Do anything,
And everything,
Make it feel right again....

As we walked forward,
I stumbled, and I fell,
And you reached out to help me.
You waited as I dusted off my knees,
As I tried to walk forward with you again.

But I could not catch my footing,
And the pain of watching me fail pushed us apart.
I fell through every hole,
I tripped over every branch,
And I stood to long at crossroads.

I slowed us down,
As you continued,
As you moved forward,
But still reaching back to help,

Had I only seen the distance between us.
Had I only seen how gracefully you walked.
Had I noticed the lack of hesitation in your steps.

I would not have misstepped,
I would not have tripped,
I would have not been to late,
To late to reach for your hand.

I missed my chance to walk beside you,
I was walking to slow,
I was tripping too much,
And I was looking around instead of ahead.

Now I walk this path alone,
And even tho I've tripped,
And even tho I've stumbled,
I've picked up my pace,
And began to walk with assurance in my steps.

I look forward,
Not caring what lies behind me,
I've cut off the weights that slowed me down.

I walk this road,
Ready to face all its obstacles,
Running to where we should be,
Where I've wanted us to be,
Running to meet you there,
Hoping I dont arrive too late.

I chase this,
Like a man chases a ghost,
I look for your steps,
And try to smell you on the air.

My heart yurns to see you again.
My lungs burn,
My feet ache,
But my pace stays the same.

I challenge this road,
And all its obstacles,
Hoping you arent walking on a different path.

I just hope one day we will find our way,
Our way back to each other...